Chapter 1:
I thought I had hit my peak sexually in my teen years.. but looking back now, 15 years later.. I realize, I had no clue back then...
When you're a teen, you are so horny and hot for anything that moves: any position will do, just anything to get to that triumphant moment. Plus growing up in the Bible Belt of the south, at least in my family, sex is shamed and only for reproducing, women shouldn't have pleasure.
That's why I say, I knew nothing back then. You could say that my sexual life up until recently has been plain vanilla. Always the same, never exciting or passionate. I was always treated as a porcelain doll, to be placed on the shelf, barely played with. And if I was played with, only gentle hands used, soft words spoken. With this innocent, sweet face, no one could guess how I craved to be treated, craved to be owned and used.....
After years of regretful sex, years of faking orgasms, years of replying, "yes it was good for me too," with a fake grin on my face, i had finally met my match. I didn't think Tinder would come through for me the way it did, but boy am I glad I signed up that day. We chatted for a few days and made sure the connection was right. And was it ever! So many things in common... and both of us wanted to explore BDSM, something neither of us have had. We decided to meet up one morning for coffee and see if the connection was as good as it was over the phone. I was so nervous! I hadn't dated in awhile since my divorce and my track record wasn't the greatest. But I got myself all dolled up for my date. My long brunette hair, wavy and full. Wearing an off-the-shoulder blouse and tight, fitted leggings. I took one last look in the mirror before I left, my bright blue eyes staring back at me.. "Don't fuck it up Ava." I say to my reflection. I grab my purse and leave, not knowing that this date would change my life for good.
Pulling up at the parking garage, I see him, standing outside his truck, waiting for me. He looked just like his pictures, tall, lean, blue eyes and a beard. I melted just seeing him.
I got out of my car and said "well hi Anthony".
He walked towards me and replied, "finally" as he crushed his lips to mine, in one of the most passionate kisses I had ever experienced. The way our mouths moved together, so in sync, it was phenomenal.