I was a virgin for my entire life, 20 years old at this point. I had sucked my fair share of dick in my life, but whenever it came to having sex i tensed up and i never could quite go through with it. I had decided somewhat recently that I would just wait until marriage, I'd save my virginity for my husband to take. When I did get married I wanted my husband to completely own me, being the only man who ever got to feel inside of me, I hadn't even fingered myself because A I was scared, and B I wanted to make sure that when the time came, my husband would have the most enjoyable experience possible using my body. So I wanted to keep my pussy as tight as possible for when that time finally came.
Still, I had a probably unhealthy desire to be dominated. It was almost constant. I wanted to be used by a man. To get degraded in all the best ways, and turned into a cocksucking slut. And so, being single and bored all summer, I took to tinder. After about a week of using the site, I met up with the first guy. Before meeting up I made sure he was into dominance, something i'd end up doing with every guy I met up with, because that's what gets me off. Feeling completely overpowered and helpless was and still is the biggest turn on for me.
Over the next 2 months I had met up with over 17 guys to suck their dick and let them humiliate and play with my body however they wanted, as long as nothing entered my pussy or ass. Of course some guys tried convincing me to let them do more, but I was content just sucking their dick for a few hours letting them come a few times and using me whenever they wanted while we were together. It was a good system, I was a slut for cock and now I was being properly treated like one.
But one day, I came across a profile in my swiping, he really didn't look like anything special, a very normal looking guy who I usually wouldn't even swipe right on, but he had full sleeves of tattoos. I had a sleeve done myself and found tattoos to be a crazy turn on for me. And it made me swipe right. We matched. But I didn't message anyone first, I'm a firm believer that men should always be the one to make the first move. I swiped through some more people and got bored, logged off tinder for the night and fell asleep. For some reason still thinking about the guy with the tattoos, there were a ton of hot men with tattoos on tinder. But for some reason I just couldn't get the image of him dominating me and using my mouth out of my head.
I thought about it so much I masturbated rubbing my clit hard and fast, and fell asleep. Waking up the next morning I had mostly forgotten about the fantasies of this stranger I had come to last night. Went about my day until I got bored and opened up tinder again. I always checked my messages first when i opened the app, and I felt a massive wave of butterflies shoot through my body as I saw I had a new message from the hot stranger. For the sake of this story, I'll call him Dan.
The message was simple enough, just telling me to add him on snapchat and leaving his username. I immediately opened snapchat and added him, scrolling through other messages as I waited for the notification that he added me back. I kept going back and looking through the few pictures he had. I couldn't understand why I was so compelled to keep obsessing over this man, I'm still not 100 percent sure why it happened, my best guess now is just how intense the look in his eyes were in some of the pictures. It's hard to describe, but I felt like I could just see in his picture that he was a really dominant man and if I met up with him I would be completely under his control.
Eventually I heard the sound of a snapchat notification and he had added me back, then another. He was Typing, and then I finally got the message. I wanted to wait to open it to not seem too eager, but that lasted all of 2 minutes, I was dying to see what he said and start a conversation with him. It was a simple Hey how are you. Nothing I hadn't gotten a hundred times from a hundred different guys by now, but it opened the door to a conversation with this man I was already having fantasies about.
While I did enjoy meeting up with people on Tinder just for some quick fun, my main reason for being on there was to find a relationship. I wanted a man I could be with for a long long time, maybe even marry. But I was selective. If they weren't going to be able to dominate, degrade, and use me on a regular basis I knew it wouldn't be a relationship I wanted. Nonetheless, I would never start the sexual aspects of a conversation. Acting completely innocent until someone else brought it up would turn me on, knowing they wanted it.
The conversation continued. There wasn't anything special about the conversation at all, it was incredibly basic getting to know each other type questions and answers, What do you do for a living? where are you from? favorite food? hobbies? We had similar interests in hobbies which was cool, both very into tabletop gaming and board games as well as music. Whenever someone asks me hobbies I mention cooking, I've always wanted to be a stay at home mom, it was my main goal in life. Cooking and cleaning, making sure the house was always in top shape for my husband, and just overall serving him.
Most people would mention cooking for them sometime when i said i liked cooking, Dan did too. But he asked me what I liked to cook, dinners and things like that or if I liked baking more. I told him I like both a lot, and the conversation started moving to other subjects. It only lasted about 45 minutes until he had to go to work and his responses became once every few hours or so. The next day we still talked but it was boring, I was still very interested in him, mostly on if my hunch I had about him being dominant was correct, but the conversation really didn't flow, it was a bit awkward. Like neither of us wanted to cross any boundaries so soon.
That day I was really horny, couldn't stop thinking about being on my knees in front of a man, this man specifically, for a couple of hours. Making him feel as good as possible. It was about 11 o'clock at night when I was finally turning myself on with my thoughts so much to the point where I couldn't hold back from asking him what I really wanted to. His sexual fantasies. I was pretty blatant.
"can I ask you something that's not exactly PG?" is the first text I had ever sent initiating sexual conversation between us. He replied affirmatively, inviting me to ask my question. The avatar on snapchat stayed in the chat, showing me he hadn't closed the conversation between sending the message a minute ago and me opening it. He was waiting for my response. He hasn't done that in any of the past conversations but asking that question seemed to really pique his interest.
I didn't have long to think, because he could see I opened it right away, so I said the first thing that felt natural to say.
"What are you into sexually?" It was a super simple question. But it would hopefully open the door to a full blown conversation. That or I would find out were incompatible and my fantasies would be proven wrong. Either way I could move on to the next step. I decided to stay in the chat as well. And just waited for his response.
"You tell me what you're into first" was the next message. I was both happy and annoyed by that. I wanted to know what he liked, not influenced by what I liked. But I wanted to be obedient and do what he said to further drive the submissive kink I was about to divulge to him. So I answered.