My heart thumped as I sat in front of the desk. I was surprisingly nervous, but I'd decided to hide that fact. I sat back in the chair and crossed my legs. I could hear whispered voices. I was left to wait and wonder.
I'd read the scenario and I touched the small silver key with curiosity. Suddenly there were purposeful footsteps and I sat up straight to wait.
You entered the room and my smile of greeting died on my lips. There was no warm up. You were already in role. I felt slight confusion because I'd never done this before and I felt embarrassed as you began to speak.
I listened as you told me about the suitcase. When I unlocked it, I was already halfway to believing it was mine. My instant smile as I saw the contents, was shattered when I was told it was no smiling matter. My mind raced as I answered your questions. I began to think about my character and I relaxed into my role. The story became very real.
When the blindfold was placed over my eyes, I slipped into submission. Being led through the house was unnerving. I knew where you were taking me, but being unable to see is so disorientating. You have strong hands and I trust you, but I remained nervous.
I sat and listened hard, trying to think what might be about to happen. I sipped cold water and then waited.
We returned to the other room and my blindfold was removed. You explained that you were going to gauge my reactions to the toys and I became moist at the thought. However, first I was to undress in front of you. I tried to hold your gaze but found it very difficult. I removed my skirt first and then my sweater. Still you stared. I felt vulnerable. Bra and panties followed. Now you were fully dressed and I was almost bare. The game continued.
Being secured to the bar instantly told me that I was to be put through my paces. I relaxed into the sensations as they began. Answering your questions and trying my best to be indignant although enjoying the different stings and thuds. My skin became warmer and I felt it hard to stand still.
I love that bar. It makes me take what you wish to deliver. I can't place my hands onto my hot skin. I can't run and I can't reach out to stop you. When the heaviest blows strike home, my whole body becomes tense and that sharp intake of breath is unavoidable. I react to the pain and then I struggle to breathe for a while. I try to anticipate which will be the hardest blow, but it doesn't work like that. It is always a shock. I always want to say stop. I always want to say 'ten' but it isn't 'ten'. I don't know what it is. I know it is high, but it isn't my limit. I don't want to reach my limit. It scares me. I struggle to control my reactions at those strokes. You always allow time for them to be fully absorbed and often you stroke my skin or brush your lips across my shoulders. I trust you Michael. You hurt me but you'd never really hurt me.
And so the game progresses... different toys, each striking, stroking or thumping very hard. Fingers exploring, touching, squeezing or pinching. I feel my body move backwards to avoid the heat on my nipples and I back straight into you. Your arm wraps around my waist and holds me firmly. I struggle because the pain continues but this time I can't move back. You release when satisfied. The control is very much yours. I can sense your amusement at my mutterings you know that you are hitting the mark and you seem to appreciate my attempts to bite back.