"Dom searching for his Sub" was the headline and the ad itself just as swift. "If you think you might be the one, interested and would like to learn more, send me a message." There was no name, email address or a description of him, only a box to type in your reply and send it off into cyberspace in hopes that they would receive it.
It began with simple click of the mouse. She had done it, against her wildest dreams. She had answered a personal ad. Once she read the headline she knew that if she didn't respond it would be something that she would regret, as she typed her response, her heart beat deep, in the anticipation of getting back a response.
"I am interested in finding out what is it that has you seeking for your sub. I wish to learn more about you and your intentions. I have been in this type of relationship before and much enjoyed it. Talk to you soon."
The email was sent and she sat the rest of the night reading her book, searching for a movie to watch and making a snack. She was curled up on the couch with nothing but a tank top and boxers on, and a blanket across her bare legs. Everyone else in the house was asleep even the dogs. She got up and refilled her drink, and grabbed a dish of popcorn and returned to the couch. As she was flicking threw the channels on the TV for something to watch she suddenly had a gut feeling to check her email. As her fingers typed in the password her heart was beating faster. As it opened she could see it. There it was a response, her heart leapt into her throat as she clicked on it. There it was a reply; she could feel butterflies growing inside her gut.
"Tell me more. I enjoy knowing more of what you know of the lifestyle. I am interested to know more about you. Give me a bit of your background and experience. I have enjoyed being a Dom in the past and with recent relationship changes, would like to do it again with the right girl. If still interested write me back"
With that her fingers slid to keys and she began to type. She put her heart into knowing that it may not amount to anything more then a few passed emails. She could feel her excitement grow between her sex lips, her boxers getting damp. She was giving her soul away to someone she hadn't even met yet, there would be no harm in letting him know more. As she wrote her face became warm and flush, her nipples started to harden. She shifted herself on the couch and read over what she had written. Not quite sure whether to send right away or not, she did not want to seem too anxious.
"I seen your reply and it made my heart jump. I would be interested in knowing what you expect of your sub. Do you prefer that your sub be knowledgeable or someone that you are able to teach? I know of the lifestyle and it excites me to know that you are interested more. I have been in search of someone in your stature, since I too have had a recent relationship change, and it's exciting to have seen your ad.
I have long auburn hair, blue eyes and am 5'6. I enjoy the lifestyle and I do not know much but am always willing to learn and enjoy being taught. I was surprised to see such a quick response from you. I wish to hear more about you. I will leave my cell number for you to contact me if you wish. I am hoping to here back soon, as I am eager to get to know you better. Have a good evening and we will talk soon.
Natalie."
She left it at that and clicked send, off it went, would she get another response? Would she be owned again? Her heart fluttered as she washed for bed and slipped into her pyjamas. She curled up under the blankets and sank her head onto her pillow, closed her eyes and dreamed of them finally meeting.
The next day she continued on with her routine, got ready for work, kids off to school and on her way she went. She carried through the day wondering if he had responded or if he was like most guys out there, just wanted to use her. She got thinking of her past and how she had been hurt, used and abused, for others pleasure.
Was she doing the right thing by talking to someone she had met online?
What would come out of it?
Would he hurt her like the others have?
She stopped and sat at her desk, closed her eyes, took a deep breath and made herself stop the never ending charade of questions. She needed to take things one step at a time, nice and slow, at a pace she could handle. Easier said then done. Her past was all about pleasing, if the guy wanted it she gave it to make them happy. In return she was hurt by them. Never another call, never another text, nothing but emptiness. Those who did stick around hurt her physically and emotionally, she did not want this to happen again. She had to go slow, she had to remind herself that she was in control; she was the one that made the rules.
Emails passed through each others fingertips over the next few days, she became fond of him, she had told him a bit about her past and he didn't run, a true gentleman. He told her of his situation and why he was looking and she understood and promised to help. So far she believed every word from him, not sceptical or analytical, but thought his words were sincere.
It's Thursday night and the last email to leave her fingertips for the night was one to him, one that mentioned of her wants, dreams and hopes for them in the future. Never once did he pressure her into answering anything that she did not feel comfortable doing. The following day went along with texts here and there. She smiles as she reads them and returns them. Later that afternoon her phone buzzed and there it was, a message that she was not expecting to see so soon.
"When can we meet? Are you free tonight?" was his text.
She replied, "I am free. Where and what time were you thinking?"
As they corresponded back and forth about where they would meet, what time it would be and what he wanted her to wear, she reassured herself that she was doing the right thing. With butterflies in her stomach not sure of what they were from, was it the nervousness of meeting someone new, which of whom she had only corresponded with less then a week. Or was it from the excitement of finally getting to meet him. She quickly got done her errands, picked up her friend and went home. Finding it hard to keep it to herself she told a very close friend about everything that had happened in the last few days and her friend's response was to be careful and take it slow. As they spent the evening talking and ripping apart her closet they got thinking if meeting him together was the right thing. So she quickly ran to her computer and sent him an email explaining how she was feeling and that what he had picked for her to wear she did not have but would find something of similar colour and wear it. At the end she added about bringing her friend due to the situation and having someone there break the ice as she reminded him that she was very shy.
She ran upstairs grabbed a towel and headed into the shower.
What was she thinking?
What was she doing?