I wake up alone, before the dawn breaks. The bed feels empty and uninviting, as it has every morning and evening since Master left, six days ago. Even knowing that he returns tomorrow, I can't help but feel a little lost, as my efforts to keep busy and stay distracted have been unsuccessful.
The ache is all-consuming. It gnaws, it gnashes, it demands attending to. I need to be filled. I need my Master.
I decide to go for a walk.
The air is brisk and the world hasn't woken up yet. I clutch my coat a little closer and kick a rock as I go, not sure where I'm headed. I feel my core pulsing, like a second heartbeat, seemingly loud enough to be signalling for Master. The wait of another day is too much.
I find my way back home, kicking off my shoes and trying to bury the ache further down inside myself in the hopes that I might finally find some precious sleep.
"Where have you been?"
I spin around quickly, seeing Master freshly showered and in his robe, sitting on the sofa. The pale morning light touches his skin softly as it pours through the window.
"Master!"
My frustration turns to zeal as I pounce, running to him and straddling his lap before he can even think about standing. I slip my hands under his robe, stroking his warm chest and press my lips against his, devouring the words before they can escape. I feel his hand slip around the my neck and pull me back, away from his face. His other hand secures my hip.
"Where have you been?" he repeats.
"I couldn't sleep. I've missed you so much I've barely been sleeping at all. I thought that maybe going for a walk would help me settle down but then I - "
"Why didn't you leave a note?" he asks me, his fingers pressing into my hip slightly.
I stare at him, confused. My head tilts a little to one side, trying to find the meaning in his face.
"But you said you weren't coming home until tomorrow and I - "
"Next time leave a note," he interrupts.
I hear the annoyance in his voice but his eyes give him away. He's missed me too and wanted to surprise me. In bed, perhaps, having lacked the comforts of home during his trip. My ache finds his own and I want to touch it.
"Mmm... I want my Master. You've been gone so long..." I whisper in his ear, kissing it. I shift my hips against him, hoping to rub against his cock. I've been deprived.
Master grabs my wrists suddenly, making me gasp. I squirm in frustration as he holds me away from him, not letting me touch. My fire is stoked by my impatience. I thrust my hips forward and struggle to take back my hands.
"Behave, now. You'll get what you want when I give it to you."
My eyes grow wide as the ache bursts out of its temporary hiding, demanding to be soothed. I'm losing control over myself. My aggression scares and excites me.
"No! Fuck me!" I cry suddenly.
"No?" Master repeats, raising an eyebrow. I can tell he's also amused. I've surprised myself, too.
I can't help myself. I break one of my wrists free and dig my nails into his shoulder, leaning in and biting his neck at the same time. He tastes delicious and I want to swallow him whole. Master grabs me around the waist and throws me on the sofa. I feel his knee separate my legs and he regains power, holding my hands above my head. I thrash, feeling feisty.