Disclaimer!!!!! This story talks about religion, and sexual acts being committed in a church setting with a pastor. If this offends you, please do not read any further! I just watch the show "Fleabag" and thought that this would be a cool fantasy to write about!
Everyone in this story is over the age of 18! Remember, no judgement and consent is key!!
"Come on Emily! We have to go." Judy yelled out as she stood by the front door. I sighed before groaning and walking down the stairs.
"Why do we have to go to church? I'm not even religious!" I cried out. She grabbed me by my arm and pulled me out of the door. The sun was hot and the long sleeve dress she forced me to wear was causing me to sweat. I told her that I'm sweating a ton and showed her the sweat stains and she told me I could change into another dress, but one that was appropriate to wear in church. I grinned to myself as I walked back into the house, up the stairs, and picked out another dress.
I quickly cleaned myself up, put on extra amounts of deodorant and slipped on the dress, it was a short, fitted dress, that hugged every curve of my body and showed all of my good spots off. It hugged my waist and made me feel sexy, even though I shouldn't feel sexy going to church.
I put on my heels by the door and quickly walked outside.
"Em, this isn't a dress you should be wearing to church! Pastor James and my parents will say something!" Judy yelled out to me, just as I was about to say something her mother called asking where she was, she groaned after she hung up the phone and motioned for me to get into the car.
I had a silent victory and couldn't help but smile as we pulled out of the driveway and made our way to church.
I haven't been to one since I was around the age of 13, nothing made me want to go, I didn't care about God or what Jesus did. Nothing spoke to me.
We pulled into the church parking lot and let out a sigh before turning to Judy. "Why do you even want me here? You know I don't do things like this." I said.
"I know you don't, but I wanted you to be involved in this part of my life as well. You're my best friend and if I get married to Ryan, I want you to be my maid of honour, and that requires you coming to church with me." She said with a laugh. She had been dating this guy named Ryan for years, and she's head over heel for him. She is already planning their wedding even though she has no ring on her finger. I like her ambition though.
We got out of the car and walked towards the entrance, I could feel eyes on me, and I got excited, I loved being the rebellious one. We sat beside her parents who looked at me up and down before asking if there wasn't anything else that I could wear. Her parents are like my parents, they took me in on nights when my house was a wreck, they fed me, clothed me, and was always there for me. If you were to see them outside of church, you'd never know they were religious, but once they step foot inside of a church, all they can talk about is God.
"Emily, we arranged that you do a confession with the pastor afterwards, okay?" Judy's mom said. I couldn't object as the service was just about to begin. I kept my head down until I felt Judy nudge me slightly. I looked up and saw the sexiest man ever, I almost began to drool.
All throughout the service I couldn't take my eyes off of him, when the service was done Judy pulled on my arm for us to leave. We walked outside into the hall, and I waited as Judy was talking to some of the people there. I began to wander and walk around. Curious to see what was there.
"Are you lost?" I heard a voice ask me; I turned around to see the voice was the pastor. "I haven't seen you around here before. Are you new to the church?" he asked. I found it hard to find my own voice.
"Oh, um, no I'm not lost. I was just wandering around. I'm not a member of this church, I'm not much of a "church girl", but I was brought here by Judy and her parents" I muttered out.
I heard him chuckle, "Was my service not good enough for you to return? Also, are you Emily? I think we have a confession arranged." He asked with a grin on his face
"I am Emily, not going to lie, I was kind of hoping to get out of this confession." I said with a slight laugh.
"You're not getting out of it, come on. Let's go." He said before leading the way to his office. Once we got in there he pointed to a chair and told me to sit while he got the confession booth set up. I texted Judy to let her know where I was and what I was doing. She said that she would wait in the parking lot for me and then scolded me for wearing the dress I was wearing. When everything was ready, he told me to come, and I sat down inside of the booth. Inside had this little sign that told me what to say. "Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. It's been [however many days/months/years] since my last confession."
I cleared my throat before saying, "Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. It has been 10 years since my last confession."
He told me that God will forgive me, yada, yada, yada. And then told me to tell him all of my sins.
I laughed slightly as I couldn't think of anything, "Uh, I guess one thing that most people consider a sin is that I have sex and I'm not married."
I heard him clear his throat, "Tell me more about that." He said.
"Well, there isn't much to it, other than I like it when I'm having sex with someone. It makes me feel really good inside, I like being used and dominated and all of those things. I don't think it makes me a bad person, but other people do." I said
I told him a few other things and he told me to get on my knees, ask God for forgiveness and say the prayer, "Hail Mary, and Our Father" three times and that'll be all.
He left the booth, and I sat there waiting, I didn't say any prayer. I got out and walked to where his desk was.
"Take a seat." He told me, and I sat down. "How was it?" he asked.
I shrugged, "I don't feel any different."
He sighed and began rolling his sleeves up. My breath quickened and he revealed tattoos on his arms. I looked at them in a puzzling way, he noticed and answered the question in my head. "I got them before I became a pastor, I feel like I would've still gotten them despite being one." He paused for a moment before getting back to the confession. "So, you feel nothing at all? You don't feel better knowing that God has forgiven your sins?" he asked.
I shook my head, "I didn't think they were sins in the first place. Just like how you didn't think these tattoos were sins either." I said before changing the subject, "I have a few tattoos myself, but no one can see them with clothes on, unless the stuff I'm wearing is revealing." I muttered the end bit, in hopes he didn't hear it
"So, like what you're wearing right now?" he asked.
I looked down at my dress and looked back up at him. "I'm not wearing anything revealing!" I exclaimed. I stood up in such a haste that the chair almost fell back. "Is that why you wanted me to come to confession, Father? So, you can slut shame me without anyone hearing?" I scoffed.