Getting to serve Mistress Susan had been an amazing experience. She had indicated that she would like to continue using me, and I was anxious to be in her commanding, dominant, sexy presence again. A full week went by before I heard from her again. That week seemed like an eternity to me, but I kept reminding myself to be patient and not seem pushy.
The last thing I wanted was to try and push my way into their lives. For Susan and Robert this was a lifestyle and part of their loving marriage. I was just another BDSM toy to be used by Mistress Susan, and I was excited at that opportunity.
Mistress Susan's email was polite and straightforward as all my communication with her had been. In this email she gave me new guidelines to follow on how to correspond with them. The email address I had been using was just one they shared and used for forums and message boards. She now provided me with her personal email. This was fine with me as in most of our previous emails, it was her doing the talking and not Robert.
She made it clear that even though Robert didn't access her personal email account that she did not keep secrets from him, and she would show him any emails from me that he wanted to read. She also explained that I should not contact her on her cell phone unless otherwise told to do so by her.
Responding to her email using the new address, I told her I understood her new instructions and thanked her again for letting me serve her. She replied that same day and she gave me an assignment to complete by the end of the week. I was to simply email her back and give her my honest opinion of how are evening together had gone from my point of view. She wanted me to review hers, Roberts, and my performance.
This seemed a strange request coming from a woman that had been dominant in her personal life for many years. This was my first experience serving a couple, and actually my first experience serving a woman that is truly a Dominatrix. Since this was what she ordered me to do, I would of course obey her. It seemed impossible for me to refuse anything she commanded.
This seemed more than just a simple exercise in obedience. So, I took my time writing up several drafts before emailing Mistress Susan with my view of that wonderful night. I started with my evaluation of Robert. Trying to get off on the right foot I began by pointing out the positives I had noticed in her husband.
"Robert seems very obedient and well trained. Even though we did not speak to each other I would often look at what he was doing while awaiting your next order. How was he standing? where was he looking? where were his hands and things like that. He seemed to instinctively know what you wanted by simple glances or short commands from you."
Not knowing if I should get to personal from my limited exposure to them, I decided to risk it and just be honest. "I also thought how much he cares for you and loves you was very obvious. Not only in the way he obeyed you, but that he consented and watched you use another submissive man. That is a real testament to the strength and commitment to your marriage and D/s relationship."
Now was the part where I had to be somewhat negative, but I didn't want it to seem like I was putting her husband down. "Robert also seemed to have a great deal of stamina and self control with the one exception being when he came without permission when you had him penetrating me anally. He does seem to take quite some time to get to full erection and needs almost constant stimulation to remain erect."
The next opinions I expressed were towards Mistress Susan.
"Mistress Susan you were everything and more I dreamed a dominant woman could be. Not just because of your beauty and sex appeal. I could go on and on about your gorgeous and irresistible physical beauty. From the tips of your petite toes, slim ankles, shapely calves, wonderful thighs, and your delicate pussy. Your curvy hips and large breasts all work perfectly together. Your captivating smile and warm, natural beauty are hypnotic. You had me physically and emotionally excited the entire time I was lucky enough to be in your presence."
This seemed like I was just gushing over her and sucking up, but it was all the truth. Continuing my email, "Your ability to show your dominance and caring personality all at the same time was unexpected, but incredibly remarkable." I went on to give examples when she showed her love for Robert, or showed she cared about my well being, and that had made it easier to trust and obey her. "Even when showing that softer side of yourself, it was always abundantly clear that you were in complete control of me and Robert."
Doing my best to show my appreciation for all the things she used me for I explained how it was a tremendous privilege, and even though some activities were not things that excited me. It was exciting to be controlled by her while doing all the things I had been allowed to do or have done to me.
The next part of the email was the most difficult to write. It is not easy to evaluate yourself. Especially considering all the of the excitement and newness for me. Again being honest and straightforward seemed the best approach.
"As for my part in that amazing night, I can only say it was better than I fantasized about. However, I wish I could have performed better, and wasn't as naive about all the nuances of being a submissive. More experience would have let me serve you better. I was very nervous and wish I could blame my lack of control on that fact, but in truth it has always been a problem for me"
"Honestly being physically involved with Robert was not a turn on for me. Being ordered to do it was a tremendous turn on though. I couldn't refuse you. My visible excitement throughout the night is irrefutable proof of how much I enjoyed everything I was allowed to do or was used for."
"Robert's stamina did put me to shame though. My opinion is that I was hard for you and always ready to go and he was not, but when he was ready he was better able to serve you. Watching you ride him I knew I would've never lasted that long. There is obviously more to a submissive than the size of his penis, but when I was standing next to Robert and we were both erect it did make me feel like less of a man. Less of a good toy for you Mistress Susan."
The email continued with an apology for cumming without permission and how humiliated I was to have ejaculated all over the bed when she hadn't even touched my cock. I was worried that I would be sent home right then and there, or would not get invited back because of my loss of control.
Finishing the email, I thanked her again for letting me serve her, for her wearing nylons and high heels throughout the night, and that I hoped she would use me again to fulfill any of her needs or fantasies. Mistress Susan did not reply back for two weeks. That long of a wait was torture.
Her response back was very detailed about what she thought of my ability to serve her. She did not evaluate herself or Robert. Although she did mention a few things about him to compare us and show me areas I need to improve in to be a good submissive. She appreciated that I had noticed her caring side, and pointed out a few instances where she had tried to express it that I had missed. All of her criticism of me was constructive and polite.
On the positives she enjoyed how eager I was, how she was able to turn me on so much, and how I submitted to her orders no matter how kinky or new. Her fantasy of making Robert fuck another man while she watched was a dream come true for her and it fueled her excitement throughout our play time. With her dominant nature showing she explained she liked how I felt like less of a man because her submissive husband's dick was bigger than mine, and also how I was humiliated by cumming while being fucked in the ass.
Mistress Susan also liked that I was only 24, and that a 49 year old woman could make me submit to her. She explained that even though it was vain on her part, it made her feel good that a much younger man was so turned on by her. She of course still appreciated Robert's arousal for her, but having someone new show that desire, was a boost to her ergo.
As for the nights activities they had gone exactly as she had planned. She was worried neither Robert or I would be able to go through with things. She explained that even though she was not a sadist, that Robert is a "pain slut". Everything abusive she did to him was fairly mild compared to other things he has endured. Mistress Susan was worried I would be scared away if she really laid into him.
She also explained she thought having me give him a blow job, and that I was the one who was in her words "to take a real cock in his ass" was an easier initiation into it for Robert. She knew he would obey, but might never want another man involved if our positions were reversed. Especially as this was their first time with me involved.
Mistress Susan explained that Robert felt much the same as I did after the experience. There was no physical attraction to another man, but obeying her, pleasing her, is what drove our submission. She told me to wait to hear from her again.