Lazy Afternoon
Melissa walked back into the house, the screen door banging shut behind her. As her eyes adjusted to the dimness of the house, she wandered over to Erik's study on the top level, to see if he was there. In the yellow pool of light from his desk lamp, she could see that he was sitting in his chair, talking quietly with a woman standing next to his desk. She wore high heels and a pencil skirt, and she stood with a hand on her hip.
The woman was facing away from Melissa, and the situation felt a little tense, so Melissa started to step back, to give them some privacy. Erik looked over at her, however, and smiled, "Back already?"
The woman turned, and Melissa suddenly realized that it was Mistress Amy. Melissa hadn't ever seen her dressed in non-exercise clothes before. Without thinking, Melissa immediately dropped to her knees, head bowed, hands resting on her thighs. "Mistress Amy," she said in greeting.
Through her lowered gaze, Melissa saw Amy legs as she walked over to her. She noted that Amy's shoes had a built-up platform of at least an inch and heels that must have been over six inches. Melissa wondered if Amy was compensating for being shorter.
Amy stopped in front of her and reached down with one hand to stroke her cheek. Melissa steeled herself not to flinch or pull away. Amy's hand slipped under her chin and lifted her head. As Melissa looked up, she could see Amy closely inspecting her.
Then Amy turned her head and told Erik, "I suppose she
is
capable of learning."
Turning back to Melissa, Amy suddenly slapped her hard across the face, "But she still thinks she owns you."
The side of Melissa's face stung. She was shocked, unsure what to do. It took her a moment to realize that Amy had walked past her, headed toward the front door.
Melissa looked over to Erik. He shook his head softly at her, so she waited quietly until she heard the screen door bang shut again.
Erik grimaced apologetically and shrugged his shoulders in frustration. "I'm sorry. By making her officially your trainer, she has the right to do that... at least according to the rules she lives under. I don't like it."
"Then why..."
"Amy really likes you. I know that sounds weird, and trust me, she'd be really upset if she knew I told you that, but the truth is that she thinks you're doing well. You're doing a good job of learning what she's trying to teach you."
"What the hell?"
"She's worried for you. When she looks at you, she sees someone who's a natural submissive, with enormous potential. But she thinks I'm not teaching you any of the skills and rules you need to function in the larger BDSM world, and she probably has a point. There are many people out there in the larger BDSM community with more formal expectations."
Erik sighed, grimacing as he continued, "Amy has little faith in my... track record of maintaining relationships. She's worried that I'll bring you into this world in a half-assed sort of way, then abandon you. Her fear is that on your own, you'll get into trouble because I'll have taught you such bad habits. That's why she's being such a hard ass to you. She's trying to compensate for my... softer approach to being a dominant."
"Okay, that's all pretty... uncomfortable. But... I guess I understand." Melissa said, not very happy. She reached up to gingerly probe her check.
Erik stood to walk in front of her. He bent down to look at the reddening of her cheek, then straightened again, thoughtfully. "You don't have to continue with Amy. I can find someone else to help you work-out in the morning."
Melissa felt an enormous weight lifted off her. Gratefully relaxing, she took a depth breath. Before she could agree, however, she stopped to think about what he had said. It was true that in just a couple of days, Mistress Amy had taught her an amazing amount about how a formal submissive behaves, in addition to giving her some of the weirdest and most punishing workouts she could ever imagine.
Finally, Melissa asked, "Can you let that offer stand open?"
Erik thought for a moment, then nodded, "Sure. Any relationship between dom and sub has to be mutual. So, even though I told you that you had to accept Mistress Amy's instruction, it wasn't really fair. I shouldn't have implied it was a condition of our relationship... our agreement. You can decide whether or not to continue with Mistress Amy at any time."
Melissa took another deep breath to steady herself. "Alright, I'll stay with her for now. I know she can teach me a lot, mostly though, I think I'll learn what kinds of doms to avoid."
Erik laughed at her observation, but after a moment, shook his head in caution, "In truth, Mistress Amy is a good dom, at least for subs who are into that sort of obedience. The doms you really want to avoid are the posers, creeps, and wannabes. They're bad news. That's the scuzzy underside of kink, which is a lot of why I asked Mike to teach you how to defend yourself.
He cocked his head, "How's that going, anyway? I didn't ask you after your second day with him."
"Yeah, we were a little busy last night."
"You were sort of 'tied-up.'" He reached down to caress her other cheek.
This time, Melissa did flinch a little bit. She trembled for a moment under his gentle stroking. As she took a deep breath to calm herself, the pull of her dress fabric against her expanding rib cage suddenly made her aware of how taut her nipples had become. In puzzlement, she slightly shifted her hips. The movement confirmed her suspicion that she was thoroughly wet.
Her eyes flew open. "You're doing that on purpose! You knew... God, it really is like I'm some kind of sex toy, and you know where my fucking goddamn on/off switch is. Shit!"
Erik knelt down in front of her, taking her hands in his. "I'm guilty, as charged. But truly, this is a game we play together. A couple of days ago, you wouldn't have wondered if what I was doing was... keying off your mental state. Now, you can see it. In awhile, you'll also be able to play with these sorts of... reactions. Then the fun escalates."
Melissa looked at him, not sure whether to be angry or excited. "Okay... I guess I get that you just got me all turned on, but... what the fuck? How?"
"When Mistress Amy slapped you, was that arousing?"
"No Goddamn way! It hurt!"
"That's good. It means you're not a total pain slut."
"But you spank and whip me."
"And it feels good?"
She hung her head a little and hesitantly answered, "Yes."
"But not when it's too intense, too fast?"
"Sure."
"When Mistress Amy slapped you, though, that was meant to hurt. That was supposed to be a punishment, not fun."
"Right. Bitch."
"Ah, if you're going to keep working with her, remember to be respectful, even when she's not around. Those are her rules -- the rules of formal dominance and submission."
"Bullshhh..." Melissa's voice trailed off. After a moment, she reluctantly nodded and said, "Well, okay. I suppose so."
"Anyway, a hardcore masochist would have loved being slapped like that."
"Oh."
"When I spank you or whip you, I try to be careful to keep in a zone where the sensation is more of a growing intensity of submission and stimulation, rather than just outright pain."
"What about Monday afternoon? With Serena and me? That was... kind of on the edge."
"Yeah. I don't do that often. It was more about submission, reminding you that I'm your Master. But even then, I was watching your responses carefully, calibrating my intensity. And, as I recall, you both came pretty quickly. But that's what makes you a sub, not a hardcore pain slut. You didn't get aroused by the pain; it was submitting to your Master that was arousing."
"I guess so..."
"And that's sort of what I was playing with here."
She cocked her head at him, unsure of his meaning.
"I caressed your cheek, knowing it was scary, because of what Mistress Amy had just done, but also knowing that you would submit to me because you would ultimately trust me not to hurt you. That fear, though, your fear, and then overcoming that fear to submit, that what was so powerful for you. That was the rush."
"God, do you just sit there the whole time and figure this shit out? I mean, don't you sometimes just, I don't know, go with your feelings?"
"By now, most of what I do operates at the level of instinct. I don't have to think about it a whole lot. At the same time, though, it's my responsibility to be the Dom -- to always be watching and making sure that you're safe. Of course, that doesn't mean that I can't just go with my feelings sometimes."