Chapter Sixteen
It's Monday, the week after my tenure as a cat. I had gone home to Renton over the weekend. For the first time since I met Beatrix, I had to go more than a day without feeling like myself in my own body. I knew that being in my feminine form eliminated my gender dysphoria, but I had forgotten just how much it sucks. That, of course, was exacerbated by my parents' refusal to use my name and how they constantly misgendered me.
Don't they see how disrespectful and hateful that is?
I angrily think not for the first time. Needless to say, I was not in the best mood when I got home via train and bus ride yesterday evening.
Bea--who had been hanging out with Gabi, teaching her the finer points of how to lose at Super Mario Party--and Gabi made short work of cheering me up. Being groped can have that effect, especially when your hands are bound by invisible cuffs to the bottom of the top bunk, and the two women doing the groping are as beautiful and talented and horny as Gabi and Beatrix.
I'm between classes right now, sitting in the CS lab on the fourth floor of the CF, killing time.
After narrowly losing a game of ping pong, I get a text from Beatrix.
Chapter 16 Appendix
Entry 16.1
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Bea đŠčđŒââïž
Hey, are you hanging around this weekend? Will you be busy?
Sarah
I plan to stay, and no, I don't have any plans. I figured I'd be kissing you or Babs or both. Why?
Bea đŠčđŒââïž
We're having dinner with Gabs's parents.
Sarah
I sense I have no choice in the matter
Bea đŠčđŒââïž
Good girl
Sarah
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Wonder why she's compelling me to go,
I think.
I'd have gone regardless.
I shrug to myself, which probably looks a bit strange to anyone watching me. I shrug again. Bea's compulsion, unnecessary though it was, sends a shiver down my spine. I do so much thinking; it's always noisy in my head. It's nice when someone takes over and thinks for me sometimes.
* * *
Gabi walks into our room Thursday evening. I'd spent the afternoon and evening of my favorite holiday--Groundhog's Day, naturally--head down on an assignment for my Automata Theory class due Friday morning. "How was your date?" I ask her.
She's glowing. "Mmm. It's been a long time since I had a date with someone so engaging. Selfishly, I am grateful that you're a good little sub. Otherwise, Trixy and I wouldn't be dating."
"'Trixy'?" I ask, bemused.
"Yep! She hates it." I snort. "You almost done with your project?"
"I've got about twenty minutes left." She nods and boots up Mario Kart 8 Deluxe.
I finish my program forty-five minutes later, having forgotten Hofstadter's law when giving my twenty minute estimate:
"It always takes longer than you expect, even when you take into account Hofstadter's law."
Gabi aborts her game of Mario Kart mid-race and opens Super Smash Bros. Ultimate. "So what did you two do?" I ask her.
"A lady never tells," she says enigmatically.
"Then it's a good thing there are no ladies here."
"It is, isn't it?" she says, amused.
"We didn't do anything too exciting," Gabi says with a finishing move to Yoshi's face. "We had dinner together, talked, did some smoochin'. I had no idea she liked to be spanked so much, did you?"
I pause the game and violently jerk my head to look at her, mouth agape.
"Just kidding, Babes. We didn't do anything sexier than tongue wrestling."
I unpause the game and a long second passes. "You know I wouldn't have minded if you had, right?" I say softly.
"I didn't, but I'm glad I do now. Thanks, Sarah. I appreciate you being willing to open your relationship with her to me. Not a lot of people wouldn't get jealous."
"No doubt I will from time to time, but, from what I've read, open communication can mitigate that. Same goes for you, okay? If you're ever jealous, it's important to me--both for your sake and for the sake of our polycule--that we be able to talk it out."
She smiles and gives me a nod. "Will do."
"I'm glad you had fun, though." After a quiet moment of thought, I ask, "Did you give Bea consent to play with you like she does me?"
"No, why?"
"Wednesday last week, when we picked Bea up from her class before you two made me
chase
a hecking
laser pointer
, we were a couple minutes late--you're welcome, by the way--and it looked like Bea gave you the same punishment she gave me."
"She did."
"But you never consented to that?"
"No, I guess I didn't. Not explicitly anyway."
"Hmm. Okay," I mumble, perplexed.
"Is that important?"
"Very. It means we don't understand the rules of her ability like we thought we did. I shouldn't have been able to affect Claire. Bea shouldn't have been able to affect you. We're missing something."
"Is it your skill at Smash Bros?" she teases. "I don't usually kick your cute patootie this badly." Babs suddenly looks stricken. "Trixy isn't affecting you somehow, is she?"
I chuckle. "Nope, this is just good ol' fashioned absentmindedness. I'm still thinking a bit about the project I just finished and this thing about Beatrix's ability. I'll refocus."
I take the next four matches.
"Maybe you could focus a little less," Gabi suggests.
"How about we play a game we can both win?" I say, looking at her.
She turns to me. "Wha--" I wag my eyebrows. "Oh, you perv," she says affectionately. "Come here." We kiss long and soft until I'm good and heady. "A girl could get used to this," Gabi says softly. "Go shut the door."
I do as commanded and she lies down on the bed on her back. I climb over her to lie by her side. "That's not exactly what I had in mind, Darlin'."
I smile and then roll over to straddle her. I bend down to kiss her, but she holds my lips back with a finger. "Are you sure you want to do this?" I nod slowly, thoughtfully. "This can mean as much or as little as you want it to, okay? I know that it will mean something different to me, and I don't expect you to meet me at my level of infatuation."
"Thanks, Gabi. I appreciate that. Now kindly hush and let me kiss you."
"If I were a lady, I'd be offended by that kind of talk." She sits up to kiss me, betraying ab muscles I didn't know she had.
"Wait," I say before she sits all the way up. "Just how much are you missing dick?"
A mischievous smirk tugs at her lips. "That depends. How's your gender dysphoria?"
"It's settled down since this weekend. Four days straight with a vag will do that."
"In that case, I'm missing dick quite a lot."
I start a text to Beatrix: "Would you return my penis until..." I look at Gabi. "How much energy do you have?"
She snorts, and looks at my phone. "How about 'until we're done mashing our bodies together into a mindless pulp?'"