"What's your deepest, darkest fantasy?"
I turned my head towards Him and blushed. There was one thing I enjoyed but I had never told Him. I had always felt that it was a secret best kept hidden. I squirmed and turned away from Him as I was picturing my kink in my mind. He seemed to enjoy seeing me so uncomfortable and persisted with His question.
"Princess...Tell. Me."
His tone told me that I couldn't evade His questioning any longer and I stuttered as I replied.
"Ummm, well, I kind of, sort of enjoy feeling, ummmm stretched."
There. I had said it and there was no going back. My dirty little secret was exposed for Him to see. I could only hope He wouldn't have a change of heart about our new found relationship. Looking back, I smile to myself as I realize how unfounded my worries were.
"Stretched, you say? I think I could make your fantasy a reality for you" He said as He got up off the bed and went to the closet where all the toys were kept. I was still somewhat of a novice when it came to all things kink. All I knew then was that I felt a very real need to submit. It wasn't something I could explain back then, but I craved giving myself up entirely to something greater than I. I needed to relinquish all control and I loved pain more than anything. Before I found Him all I could think about was what it would feel like to be on the receiving end of a crop or whip or paddle. How exquisite the sharp sting would feel on my backside and I wondered how far I could be pushed before I broke.
These were things I would learn about in time. His time. With an uncanny ability to peer into my mind, He knew what I needed and when I needed it. This insight is what made it so easy for me to trust Him, quite literally, with my life.