Amy is such a brat.
Pure and simple.
No actually, I take that back to an extent. (
Sorry Sir
). Why, you ask? Well, because, as was pounded into my poor, sore bottom with CB (Cracker Barrel Paddle),
I
am responsible for
me
. Never mind that she deliberately tells fibs and gets people in trouble. Never mind that she kept IM'ing me when she knew I had a paper due. Never mind that she kept posting to taunt me and then informing me of it in IM, knowing that I can't resist.
But back to that in a moment.
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"I think," I told him on the phone when we had started to talk about arranging a meeting for the following week. "that I may actually want to try the...ummm....a strap. You said you had one, right? For horses?"
"Oh yes!" he said.
I laughed nervously, hoping I'd not regret what I'd just started. Leather straps frighten me, they are actually my most feared implement, yet I also had some kind of morbid fascination with them. It sent my pulse racing to think about having one used on me. I love to read harsh, detailed strap stories and I get all bothered when I do. But I am also a big chicken. The reality scared me, as in fantasy form it is safe cuz ......well, it's not
me
.
My last encounter with the leather strap was at 17 and it left quite an impression in my head. To be honest, it was not an overly harsh spanking although it was done in the heat of the moment, an argument with my father, but I remember it all the same. It was a highly charged time and I guess that's why I remember it more vividly and detailed than any other spanking I ever received growing up. He had only given me three (very hard) strokes but I remember that it was most excruciating.
Anyway, so he started to joke with me, talking about some things we could maybe try.
"Well, I only said
maybe
," I told him, trying to make sure that I had some kind of way out if I should need it. And I know myself. When the time arrived I would chicken out big time.
"There's no maybe about it," he said. "It's my prerogative to decide."
I stayed silent.
"Right?"
Ha! Now he was asking for validation! I mumbled something in response and then duty called so I had to hang up.
Well, at least the play date wasn't carved in stone anyway.
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"I have the perfect thing!" he announced a couple of days before our scheduled meeting date.
"Nooooow, I didn't say I
wanted
to try the strap! It was just an inquiry!"
"We've already been through this," he said.
Later on, on yim, I complained to Amy about it.
"Good," she typed in. "You deserve it. I think I'll send him an e mail telling him how you've been on the computer instead of doing your schoolwork."
Grrrrrrrrrrr!
In the meantime, she sent me a file of her 'Experiment' story with different straps. Girths, safety belts, tawses...you know,
straps
.
"Send it to him to read," she ordered.
Damn her and her Mistress mode. I told her to kiss my ass and did she think I had a death wish?
Needless to say, he ended up getting it in his e mail and found it most interesting. He went on to describe that the girth in her pictures resembled one that he had as well and should he bring that?
NO!
Oh yes, he had said. He thought that might be a good strap to use.. I had butterflies galore and honestly was more nervous than I was on our very first meeting. More nervous than my very first real punishment with him.
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The Day arrived. Okay, so I had that deep anticipation feeling that is actually very pleasant. You know, where your belly feels hollow and is doing flips all day, just wondering what actually is in store?
I found that the strap he had laid out to bring with him was accidentally left at home. My heart jumped in relief but at the same time sunk in disappointment. No worry though, he had said. Since he was running early on time he informed me that he would make a little side trip to find one.
"I'll bet you won't find one comparable," I told him very smugly.
"I'll bet I will," he retorted.
"Nope, don't think so!"
"You care to wager on that?" he asked.
Actually, no I didn't. I am not stupid you know!
Half an hour later he called back to gloat.
"I just wanted to let you know," he told me, sounding quite satisfied with himself. "that I found two very nice straps. They are perfect, really and let me tell you..."
"Where did you get them??" I demanded.
He laughed at me. "That's for me to know and for you to maybe know. If you're good that is."
"I am always good." I said.
"That's not what Amy thinks."
My blood boiled. "Yeah, well she
lies!
" I was starting to get annoyed. He was
really
gonna spank me cuz of her! She would be the focal point of my revenge, as I would be meeting her soon in person.
"Now, let me tell you sarah," he continued on regarding his find. "These are some very well made straps. If you were to find them on the `Net you would pay at least five times more than I did. These are the kind that you may have found back in that day and I am sure they blistered many a bottom."
I was appalled. "You don't wanna
blister
me!"
Again he laughed. "No. Correction my dear.
You
don't want me to blister you."
Again I was nervously silent. What had I gotten myself into?
"You there?" he asked, sounding amused. "You've gone awful quiet."
Dammit! "Yes." Time for a subject change, I think. "Sooooo...how was your trip? Did you stop in the town square?"
"No," he said. "But I was thinking...if you're not wanting to go out to get dinner, pizza is just fine with me."
"Okay, that's fine with me too," I said. After going through what toppings were banned, we hung up. I was more nervous now than ever and started biting my nails, a habit I have had since childhood. I put my yim AWAY status as,
VERY nervous and biting my fingernails
.