Notes
1. All characters portrayed are adults (18+)
2. Story doesn't involve whips, chains or leather
After an hour of teasing and denial I knew my stepsister Jen couldn't take it anymore, so just as she was about to blurt out the code word, I finally agreed to let her climax. We cuddled together after I unstrapped her and before switching roles so she could return the favor on me, we recounted the origins of our wonderful orgasm control dynamic and how we started engaging in it with each other before even knowing what it was.
Ten years earlier, we had both entered our senior year of high school and though not biological siblings, built a tight emotional bond within the first year of living in the same house. One late October Friday evening I came home and slammed the door, not caring if I startled her. I knew she was home alone because our parents worked at their restaurant each evening and Jen's car was out front.
She came downstairs with a look of frightened concern and asked me what was wrong, but I was too upset and embarrassed to talk at the moment.
"NOTHING. I don't want to talk right now."
You see, being somewhat reclusive, I had never experience real sex with someone, not even close until earlier that evening. I had just blown my chance to score with Becca Sloan, one of the more promiscuous girls in our class. The problem? I was too nervous to get an erection, and no amount of foreplay solved the dilemma. Couldn't bone up enough to even get a condom on. Worse yet, Becca thought it was funny.
I went to my bedroom and closed the door, praying for death to take me away. After about an hour Jen knocked on my door and came in holding her mobile phone, and sat next to me on the bed. She wore red gym shorts and was in her bare feet, her long blonde hair matching her cream-colored T-shirt. She wasn't wearing a bra; she usually didn't around me this time of night, and I couldn't help staring at her nipples.
"I got some texts from Becca Sloan a few minutes ago" she said.
Jen's blank expression said it all: she knew. By now probably everyone knew what had happened. Or maybe I should say had not happened.
"Did she send it to just you or were others copied on it?"
"Yes, just me. And, I texted back that I would brutalize her if she told anyone else. She says she didn't tell anyone and wouldn't. And that she feels bad that she laughed and wants to know if you are okay."
"Just tell her I'm fine."
"Ok, I'll do it right now." She composed the text, hit send and then said "Come here, Max, you need a hug."
Man did I ever, and the hug felt great. I had the hots for Jen and I think she knew it although neither of us had acted on it. We hugged a lot and sometimes I'd pop a boner from it, but not tonight. Jen knew I was a virgin and no doubt realized the devastation I felt.
I kept my face buried on her shoulder and felt her turn her lips to my ear. "I panicked my first time and hated it, but all I had to do was lay there. Guys have it so tough, needing to perform right from the start, the first time."
I nodded in agreement but didn't answer. Kinda liked her whispering to me like this.
"Once you feel how great actually having sex with someone is, this will never happen again. You'll be rock hard from the beginning, trust me."
Again I didn't answer.
"You don't have any physical problems so it's just that you're anxious," she continued.
"How do you know?" I asked.
She let go of me and sat back, and then said, "I've seen you tent up a couple of times. So, you know, it can't be broken or whatever."
"When?"
"Sometimes when we hug I notice it, and then if I come out of the bathroom wearing just a towel. Oh, and also when we hug and I start licking your ear just to goof around. Or when you stare at my nipples, like you're doing now."
I didn't feel a bit embarrassed by her saying this and Jen's face remained expressionless, her blue eyes twinkling. As I said, we were close. We talked a lot, about many topics including sex, although this discussion tonight was venturing a little further out on the branch.
Finally after a few moments, I said, "Yeah, whatever. I guess I should be thankful that it's not because I have a busted package."
Jen smiled. "What you need is the experience of a girl arousing you with her touch. It's a whole different ballpark than beating off β don't be embarrassed, we all do it β because once you feel that and you have an orgasm from her, even just once, you're going to want it so bad each time that you'll get a boner whenever you're with her."
"Yeah," I said, "I'm sure you're right. But I'm not going to be Becca's lab rat, I'm done with her no matter if she apologizes or whatever, and as much action as she gets it's not like she's going to waste time training me."
"I know, I know," said Jen, "I'd feel the same way if I were you. Anyone else you might like to ask out?"
"None. If you hadn't fixed me up with Becca this wouldn't have even happened. Not that I'm blaming you or anything."
"There are girls who would love to go out with you."
"Sure, the bible belters saving themselves for marriage. You know, or the sick and the dead. Or maybe the hard cores and crack whores with diseases that would penetrate an iron rubber and make my dick look like --" I hesitated, trying to find a way to end the rant and since I was staring at her bare right one, said "like your foot".
Jen laughed. "Yeah, okay, okay, I get it. You're so funny."
"I'm funny, huh. My cock doesn't work right but I'm funny. So at least I got that going for me."
"You're more crazy than funny, but at least you can laugh about all this dysfunctional penis stuff or whatever it's called. Let me sleep on it and maybe we can figure it out."
"Sleep on it, you mean you want to sleep on my limp useless dick?"
Jen sighed at my weak attempt at humor and then said, "Tomorrow's Saturday so between the two of us we should be able to come up with some possible solutions, if not by end of day then on Sunday."
"It's my problem though, so you shouldn't waste your weekend on it."
Jen hugged me again and let out a sigh. "Max, I don't think of it that way. You've had my back so many times in the past year that I'd do almost anything to help you. You're so unbelievably kind and supportive."
With that, we said our goodnights and pecked each other on the cheek. Thus ended the night before what would become one of the most incredible days of my life, a day that would change so many things in a profound manner.
I woke up the next morning and went to Jen's room but she was gone. The whole house was empty. Our parents' restaurant kept them occupied from dusk to dawn on the weekends and then I remembered that Jen was at the school's football game. She was a cheerleader and hated the games, especially on cold mornings like this one, but kept at it because the guidance counselor said it would help her get accepted at more colleges. I think he just liked the way she looked in her uniform but what the heck, the guy was only human.
After my night of little sleep, awakened by nightmares of dying as a virgin and being taunted by classmates, being alone in the house worsened my bitter mood. Jen didn't return until three that afternoon. When she came in and I asked her how the game was, she said "It SUCKED. We got killed as usual. And I froze my nipples off."
"Well, at least there's just one more game," I said as she put her stuff down. "I've been racking my brain trying to think of someone I could ask out, but β "
"Hold that thought," Jen interrupted. "I have an idea but I'm not sure you'll be into it because it's kinda out there, but give me a bit to shower and then come upstairs to my bedroom. I also want to re-read one article I found online last night."
I couldn't imagine what she was talking about. Perhaps a battery-powered dick sucker or something but in my troubled emotional state I would take any suggestions. I waited about thirty minutes and when I heard her finish drying her hair, waited fifteen minutes more.
I went upstairs and knocked on her bedroom door. She had her white bathrobe on, a terrycloth robe with a thick belt around it tied in a loose knot across her waist, the robe reaching a few inches below her knees. I imagined she was nude underneath but that wouldn't be unusual. We often sat together with her wearing just her robe.
I sat down beside her on her bed and said, "So, you have the magic answer to my woes? Can't wait to hear it."
Jen smiled and then blushed, and said "Oh, yeah? Well, you just wait." She paused and stared into my eyes and sighed.
"And?" I asked.
"Okay, here's the deal. I've read a ton of stuff about this and while there are all sorts of crazy suggestions in chat rooms, I found one article that makes some sense."
"My ears are all yours. Go on."
She smiled. "From what I've read, the reason first-timers your age have this problem is that they feel guilty about still being a virgin and want to get past it, but when they go out with a girl and think they're going to go all the way, they start getting nervous right from the start. Even days before the date. And, when they can't perform, it just keeps getting worse each time. Is that sounding like what β"
"Yeah, yeah, slow down. It's familiar all right. That's not too enlightening though. I already know all that." Jen beamed but didn't say anything, so I continued. "And you don't have to even ask. Yes, before the date I worried about it for days, and I wish I'd taken care of this milestone years ago, and yes I got more anxious as the night went on, blah blah blah."
"So," Jen said, "this sex therapist who wrote it says the best way to solve this involves little increments, working with a girlfriend, or maybe a close female friend with a helpful open mind, someone who won't criticize. You go in with both parties knowing that there's not going to be any full-on sex at first, and you just do little stuff each time until the guy gets anxious, and then you add to it until he maintains an erection, and ultimately you're able go all the way and have intercourse. Or, at least until the guy has an orgasm depending on their relationship with one another."
She paused and looked at me, awaiting my reaction.
"And?" I asked once more.
"That way, you know it's like I said yesterday, the guy experiences how great real sex feels, so the anxiety gets replaced by anticipation. Makes sense, doesn't it?"
"Yeah, that does make sense," I answered. There's still a problem though."
"You don't have a partner yet."
"Right. That's a minor complication to say the least so while I appreciate that you looked into all this for me, aren't we right where we left off last night? Oh, and I'm not going to Becca or any --"