I can see your window from here.
Not that there is much to see, the left window is always open, the right closed, the curtains forever drawn.
I can even smell you from here, the house does not smell too pleasant, but I never could stand the smell of smoke! It isn't the houses smell that interests me, it's your smell, the smell of sexual tension radiates from your inner soul. You life your life day to day bored stiff with your girlfriend.
Inside you long for someone to take you over, to dominate and order you into submission. Every time you have the same old sex in the same old missionary, fantasising about me is the only thing that makes you come.
Then comes the pillow talk, the questions that you and all other men dread. More than anything.
"Mmm," she says in her little mousy voice, "that was good." Then comes the pause, where she contemplates asking you. Knowing inside that you're at your most vulnerable when you have just orgasmed. But she asks anyway. "Where do you see us in a year's time?" You're never one to shy away from commitment are you Andrew? But today seems better than ever to shy away. Inside you scream at her. The sex is boring, I am a carnal soul, and I cannot live without feeling fulfilled. The one time we branched out into anything exciting you thought I was crazy.
"I don't know." Escapes your lips, and you regret saying it instantly, her face drops and she gets off he bed, dragging the sheet around her body, still pink from sex. You swear under your breath, at this point I switch off and try to focus in on you, it's funny very time I enter your mind you wince, you close your eyes and bite your lip.
You feel torn, you have just had sex, and now something is making you so horny your cock stiffens and you thank Christ for the blanket that keeps your hard on hidden. I see your thoughts, your wishes for a dominant woman, gifted and able to tie you to your bed, your wrists and ankles shackled. When I smile at the thoughts, you moan outwardly. Slowly you drop your barriers and let your hand wander down to your throbbing cock.
Your thoughts move on again, now you are tied up tightly, your arms bound together behind your back, and you are bent over on a bed, some faceless woman is sodomizing you with her fingers, holding a dildo, waiting to plunge it into your ravaged ass. Again you moan out loud as your hands begin their work.
I pick up your thoughts in my hands, mould them around a little, now you see my face, your mind connects me with your ideal dom. Although I am not a great deal to look at, my enthusiasm for fulfilling your every desire makes you want me all the more.
As I manipulate your thoughts, your hand works up and down methodically bringing you ever closer to a point of no return where you spew a little more come into some tissue over the thought of being used. You feel empty as you head downstairs for the first smoke and coffee of another long and monotonous day.
Emily pecks you on your cheek before she leaves for work, but you have already seen her holdall packed by the door. Unsure how to react you smile and tell her to have a good day. She leaves, crying audibly, to me. You feel her tears. Shortly after a blunt message confirms it. 'It's over Andrew, I cant stand you anymore. I am in love with someone else. Emily'
You throw your phone at the wall, half crazy with anger half desperate with depression. Your life has a tendency to throw things at you doesn't it, Andrew?
In front of me I have your life mapped out on my coffee table, bills, birth certificate, photographs, copies of pages from old journals. Mostly things that you do not spend a lot of time thinking about, so I cant get them from your mind. It would take longer than breaking in and stealing all the papers.
Your dog Fred likes me.
You sit a lot at your computer, mulling over the past, or the pieces you can stand to think about. On the whole you seem pretty average, tall, slim, long black hair. A goth type, just the one tattoo, and a lip and tongue stud. Your mind tells me otherwise. You don't know your father, you have had a nasty encounter with a babysitter, your car accident at 13 has left you with a lot of scars, both internal and external, these are just some of the things that add to your high barriers. But I will always have a way in because of your fascination with being dominated and now with me.
I sip at my water, planning. I know you sleep during the day, and I want to slip in before you are in too deep a sleep to come around fast. Knowing that Emily won't be paying a surprise visit is good news. Today will be the day where you realise your fantasies can be fulfilled.
Several coffees later, you are tired. Helped on a little by my mind hopping. Easing your weary body from your chair, Fred in tow you clamber up the stairs, puling away your Guns n Roses t shirt as you go, and slumping still half dressed, face down onto bed.
Before long, a gentle sleep takes hold, as Fred rushes downstairs to greet me. I glide up the stairs soundlessly and into your room via the closed doors, I materialise wearing nothing but a pair of black panties and a pink and black chemise/dress. You hear nothing, but feel my weight pressing down on your lower back and ass.
You slowly raise through layers of sleep, as I lean in and bite your ear lobe, your first reaction is that Emily has changed her mind, but when I whisper, "hello there Andrew." In my gentile voice, your mind panics and you struggle.