Some Kind of Spell -- Chapter 07
The Vows
That day he had taken her shopping was days ago but she still remembered almost every detail and word spoken. She still didn't know Pierre's reasons or at least the full reasons for his championing her cause and protecting her but she knew now it was real and he was ready to commit himself to her for however long she wanted him to. The contract that had been negotiated was clear on that point.
For almost a week, Pierre drilled her about her dance, her moves and her behavior for an upcoming event. He would not disclose many aspects of it, or too many specifics about it. Only that she would be required to dance and entertain him and four other men and their girls. He was strict and wouldn't allow her release either. He said she would need to be primed and ready for the event and was going to make sure it was "memorable" for her and the others present as it would be a formal Collaring event.
At this point he began to teach her some finer points of Dominance and submission. He taught her about the Vows that would be exchanged at this event. It was a formal offering and acceptance of Dominants and the submissive of their choice. It was a mutual choosing.
"Ma petite" he began. "This is an important event for you as well. I will formalize our bond and our commitment to each other, with you. It is called the Collaring ceremony and although I have already put a collar on you, that was not "formal" This will be."
"In many respects some say, this is like a wedding between a Dominant and their submissive. And there IS symbolism in it. The collar is like a ring being placed around your neck."
"I will simplify the vows and parts of this ceremony for you. You will be asked to say your vows to me on this occasion. They should incorporate the main four pillars of a D/s relationship.
"The first is Respect. Respect for both Dominant and submissive is a key element upon which trust, honesty and free open communication is based. It is a matter of human nature that respect must be in place for true growth and trust to be gained."
"Respect, if you use the definitions commonly found in dictionaries will reveal words to describe respect such as, a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements."
"High regard." "High esteem" "Veneration" "Deference" "Reverence" "homage"
"Thoughtfulness" "Consideration" Politeness" "Civility" "acclaim" "Admiration" "Cherish" "Value" "to prize or treasure" "Lionize" "idolize" Praise" "Appreciate"
"All of these words help you understand the meaning of "RESPECT." It begins the foundation of any good and durable relationship, and its importance grows more apparent as time goes by."
"I truly believe, ma petite, that if you truly respect me and I you, that we will be able to build a bond of such depth and scope that it will change both of our lives, forever. I am willing to take this step with you when you believe its what you wish. "
"The bond I speak of, is the true bond of a Dominant and submissive. It's a bond of love, and many other things. It encompasses everything we are, everything we hope to be and everything we can be. "
"This is a relationship that is filled with Caring. That is the second vow one takes with each other in a D/s relationship. Caring as in the taking care of one another. Tending to each others needs. Making sure that the thoughts and feelings of both parties are considered and spoken of openly and honestly. Making sure that everything is spoken of, including dreams, hopes, fears, triggers, etc."
"The third vow, is split as one part is mine and the other part is yours. My part is to guide, direct, teach, discipline and be totally responsible for your life. All the decisions concerning you, even the tiniest ones, are mine to make if I deem it necessary. When you give me that precious gift of submission I vow to honor you and care for every aspect of your life."
"You, in turn, vow to obey me and listen when I teach and give you things upon which to think of and be willing to do as I tell you, with trust and faith it is for your own good. I will be in complete control of myself so as not to lose sight of your needs as my sub. My part is to make sure you are free to explore safely, the outside world and the inner world of your own body, mind and soul."
"And the Fourth vow, I promise and commit to your protection at all times. To put your safety above my own and protect you with my life, keeping you safe from all harm. This means you will find me doing things you may not understand, or giving you orders at a moments notice that do not seem to make sense. Your part in this is obedience. To have FAITH in me to the extent you completely put your life in my hands and obey without question as it may save your life one day."
"Now this is not a dictatorship nor should you be a doormat. However, there are times when your swift obedience is not just a sign of respect, but also a needed part of full submission. Without your obedience, all else is moot."
"Now, ma petite, do you understand what I have just told you?"
"Yes, Sir. I do."
"Any questions?"
"Yes, Sir. Is there reading material on these things that I might read and study further?"
"Yes, there is ma petite. I will have books and links on the computer that you may read and study immediately. Anything else?"
"No Sir. Thank you Sir."
"You are welcome Mine."
Over the course of the next days she studied many things that Pierre gave her to read and look up. One of them was the Dominants Creed and one was the Submissives Creed. She read each one aloud. This was one thing that helped confirm to her in her own mind, what her role was and what Pierre's was.
Angela read these things over many times. There was so much to learn and Pierre believed in her, thought her worth his time. This was no pretend relationship. Pierre actually intended to commit to her and this relationship. She could hardly take it all in. Everything had happened so fast. Her head was still spinning.
From the moment she had met him, he had been somehow determined to make her see him. He went so far as to come to her place of work and try to invite her out on a simple lunch meeting. But that was only a ruse. She realized now that their chemistry was powerful enough to keep him coming back to her, to pursue her and even find her through means she had no understanding of after the safe house cover was blown and the agents either killed or kidnapped.
The events of five years ago still haunted her and she trembled as images flitted through her mind that moment. She would never forget seeing her brother and his wife shot. All that blood that flowed to the ground. And now, she was in hiding with Pierre, a man who seemed abundantly wealthy and more than capable of keeping her out of harms way it would appear. But why take on this very large commitment to her?
Maybe he would end it after the trial. She had no answers to so many questions. Perhaps she should ask him? She was still shy to speak of the future or issues to do with their relationship, but she realized she could not be a timid mouse either. She was still herself, still in jeopardy and still needed to know what was real, and what was not.
Her handler always told her to trust no one. She knew he meant no one else but him. Still, it was very hard these past five years, a hard way to live. Surely sometime, someone would be trustworthy? Was Pierre someone she could really fully trust?
Here she was with a man she barely knew, whose sexual dominance left her in awe and craving his touch, his kisses and his body taking hers. Yet, what did she really know? She intended to ask him once he was available and not in meetings. He was a businessman she knew. Wealthy businessman by the looks and sounds of things. Still she would really like to know more and be sure her fate, her life, was in safe hands. Yet, on some deep level she DID trust him. For some unknown inexplicable reason, he instilled her trust. Even from that first meeting where she had such a strong feeling of Déjà vu.