Completely mastered and unmanned, I was the submissive slave of my wife and her young lover, my own nephew by my brother's marriage to a divorced woman. Fifteen years of what I had thought to be a healthy, happy marriage was in an instant of discovery revealed to be pure illusion. Claire, my wife, had in a single stroke proven my inadequacy to stand as her equal in our marriage and I had accepted the proof. I had always been attracted to Claire. From the very beginning she had commanded my desire. Now I had to accept that in all of our years together I had never satisfied her needs so well as I did now by standing aside to let another service her in my place while I served them both. She gloried not only in the natural prowess and youthful endurance of Matthew which forced her to withstand extended and powerful orgasms, the boy who was now my master, but almost equally in my degradation before them.
And God help me, I gloried in the gutter of my servitude as much as she did.
I can't say I am proud of the things I have done these past several months. The man in me hates the submissive tool I have become in the service of the wife who has betrayed our marriage vows and the boy who has cuckolded me. I should be avenging these injuries against my pride, not being aroused to mind-blowing orgasms by them. I have been forced to watch over and over again as the Master has taken the Mistress (as I am bound to refer to my wife) in every way imaginable, including several that were never allowed me when I was her equal. I have been forced to lick his sperm out of her cunt and to swallow every drop while they mock my servility. I have been forced to permit my own violation with intrusive sex toys in ways that a heterosexual man should never allow.
Well, I say I have been forced, but how can I say it with any conviction? The truth is worse. I have been commanded and I have obeyed. No force was required. God forgive me if I forgive myself, but I offered no resistance, was too aroused by all I saw and endured to do anything but cum, usually all over myself and even into my own mouth upon request.
Over the months, a dread has risen in me of what kind of man I must be to allow this to continue, even to anticipate what humiliation will follow the last. When I watched another man fucking my wife and was turned on by it, I tried to tell myself it was a voyeuristic thrill. When I licked the semen of another man out of Mistress' pussy, I told myself I was getting off on the act of submission alone, an extreme fetish. But now that I had been violated by the Mistress' sex toys, thrust into my ass and mouth and repeatedly climaxed in mind-numbing waves of pleasure, to Claire's accusations that I was gay to get off so on imitation dicks, I had begun to truly wonder what I was. Was I a man at all?
Most recently she had been making me suck on her dildo and take it up my ass and tell her how much I liked it, how much I really wanted to please cocks instead of cunts and that it was for this reason that I never could please her enough. Now, this did please her, got her off. But worse, it got me off too. Hard and fast and frequently.
I had never had any hint of homosexual thoughts before, but now at her instigation I had begun to truly crave cock. Was it merely that I was so susceptible to suggestion, so sexually submissive, that she could turn me into anything she wanted, even change my sexual nature completely? I didn't know. What I did know was that now I had entered a new phase of my submissiveness. Not only did I enjoy my Mistress getting off from the Master's ministrations, but now I found I enjoyed watching the Master just as much.
The question was, what could I do about fulfilling my new desire, satisfy this unexpected appetite? And could I even do it?
I should have known that the matter was not for me to decide.
One of our afternoon sessions was in full progress. It was one of those days when the Master was particularly keen on my humiliation, something he enjoyed and frenzied the Mistress with lust for his dominance. I had been commanded to simply sit in a chair and watch as my wife pleasured him in a variety of ways. I knew that this usually began with her giving him a tongue bath, followed by oral and if he didn't finish in her mouth, he would drill her pussy until he filled it with his cum before commanding me to lick her pussy clean. This excited me considerably despite the fact that it should rather have infuriated and disgusted me.
Today would prove out a bit different.
I sat and watched, forbidden to relieve my sexual tension in any way while the Master enjoyed a sloppy blowjob from the Mistress. I was only to watch as Claire's beautiful head bobbed over the Master's loins, to listen to her longing moans of desire and pleasure as she stroked her own pussy. Matthew himself was looking at me, telling me to watch how my wife could please a real man strong enough to break her to his will. In itself this was not so unusual; they often made me watch while reminding me of my weakness. But the difference was in what happened next. Claire suddenly stopped blowing the Master and looked at me over her shoulder. She smiled and said, "you've watched enough." Matthew was as surprised as I was when she said, "now, do!"
I could not believe my ears. She wanted me to blow another man. I had been dreading this as much as anticipating it. Matthew was swift in overcoming his surprise; very little seemed to shock him. He and the Mistress shared a mischievous look. He smiled at her, obviously admiring this latest ploy to humiliate and un-man me further. "Well," he said authoritatively, "you heard the mistress, didn't you? Come over here and blow me!"
"I can't," I said weakly.
"Oh, but our little worm," Claire said, "You can and you will. And you know that you want to." To prove her point, she jumped off the bed and came over to me, grabbing the cushion out of my grasp, the cushion I had been using to hide my hard-on. A full erection that had only stiffened at the suggestion of being ordered to suck the Master's dick for the Mistress. "Ha," she laughed. "You see, Matt? I told you he wants to serve you personally."
I was humiliated, blood in my face as in my rigid cock. But I could not deny to myself that this latest humiliation had the usual effect of all their humiliations. I was aroused beyond desperation. I wanted to suck the Master's cock and I knew it. Why, I asked myself even now. Was I a closeted gay? Or was it simply that humiliation was my sexuality, subservience my greatest aphrodisiac?
Of course, Claire would never leave me alone with my thoughts. She told me to say it out loud and I could not fail the Mistress. "Yes, I want to suck his cock. I want his cock in my mouth. I want to make it feel so good that he can't stand it. I want to swallow his delicious cum." Matthew was amused. But the Mistress did not let me off that easily.
"Oh, so you want it, do you?"
"Yes, Mistress," I answered dutifully.
"Well, maybe we shouldn't let you then." I looked up at the Mistress in shock as she stood over me, slouched down in my chair. This chance of a reprieve had a strange effect on me. I knew I would be disappointed not to have a chance to please the Master in this way and I knew how sick that made me. But as ever, I should have known there would be no reprieve.
She laughed out loud. "It shouldn't be this easy, you little worm!" She looked back at Matthew, who was enjoying the sight of my wife humiliating me in his presence. He was keeping hard without effort. "I guess he'd better beg for it, don't you think, Master?" Matt only nodded.
She addressed me again. "Do you want it, Worm?"
"Yes, Mistress," I replied.
"Want what?" she asked.
"His cock," I said.
"What do you want with it?"
"To suck it."
"Do you think you deserve to suck the Master's cock?"
I wasn't sure how to answer this. Any answer could be wrong.