Self Discipline

Author’s Note:

The book mentioned in this story doesn’t actually exist. Neither do the characters. It’s just a fantasy.

Where we left off:

My name is Dominia Sax and I’m a best-selling author of a female domination book called, “Self Discipline-The Femdom's 12 Step Guide to Domination Freedom.”

Step One - Self Spanking Mastery

Patsive’s (Patsy) bi-weekly spanking was his first step.

“I think you could spank yourself harder than I can spank you,” I posited. “I’d like to watch and see for myself.”

The transition of him learning to apply his punishment to himself would begin with spanking. A perfect place to begin. Right here; right now. I’d build the steps of self discipline on the foundation of self-spanking.

It couldn’t have gone any better! I sat in the chair watching while my husband spanked his own ass to a deep red color. All by himself, from his own hand, arm and wooden spoon. It was incredible! His eyes were pointing down the entire time. It was perfectly embarrassing and humiliating for him to spank his own ass. And to do it in front of me while I called my trusted friend SuzyQ was mortifying for him. She begged me to let her watch after hearing the swats through her phone. Since he’d been getting spanked for weeks now, I wanted his first solo experience to have a special ending.

I’d read about sphincter spanking. His tight little hole was being neglected, I pointed out. So I got out of the chair and showed him how to hold the wooden spanking spoon by the ladle. This allowed for him to use the handle as a swatting stick. His other hand was used to spread open his butt cheeks.

There was a popping sound when he connected with his sphincter perfectly. It was like a tiny bit of air was dispersed on impact. That, and he’d let out a little yelp. This was really fun! I told him he needs to increase his spanking regimen to 3x a week and he will add swatting his butt hole to his new solo routine. I wouldn’t be spanking him anymore. Three times a week, he must spank himself.

He wasn’t sure when to stop hitting his tender sphincter hole with the stick. A final outcome wasn’t measurable like a crimson red ass. And he didn’t ‘pop’ it perfectly with each attempt. I sensed that he was afraid to ask if he was done, so he just kept smacking his asshole with the stick end of his wooden spanking spoon. Maybe he liked it.

He must have. Because Patsy asked if he could eat his cum after. A request that normally hadn’t cum after a butt spanking. This time would be okay. Because it was the perfect opportunity to test out step two: the yoga plow, the self-facial, the roll up into a ball and eat his own cum next step of the self discipline plan.

Step Two - Cumeat Self Facial Mastery

I demonstrated for Patsy how to maneuver the yoga plow. He was to be in this position naked and rolled up into a ball the entire time he stroked. I stood over him. His submissive position was glorious!

“Open your mouth. Don’t wait for the cum. Always have your mouth open. Practice swallowing with me.”

And with that I spit a nice long saliva stream directly into his mouth. He swallowed. I spit again. And again. Landing streams of a new wet intrusion into his open mouth for him to swallow. It was like spurts of cum, but it was saliva for practice.

Then I surprised myself. I think because my mouth was dry I accidentally hocked a loogee. This was unplanned, by the way. A huge ball of unexpected snot was suddenly in my mouth. There was only one place it should go next. Yup. Gross, I know. Not proud of it. But I have to keep him guessing. Patsy eats cum; snot is practically the same thing.

He must not have heard it, gut when the thick chewy goo landed in his mouth, he certainly tasted it. Weirdly though, the slimy chunk triggered his brain...and his penis. Because as soon as he swallowed my snot load, he exploded squirt after impressive squirt of cloudy whitish cock snot directly into his open mouth.

Having never jacked off into his open mouth, he didn’t immediately swallow; he was still in his upside down position. An impressive load of milky cum formed a sizable pool in his mouth. It was exciting to see his discomfort and indecision about his pending snack. With one huge gulp-like downing of a shot, he swallowed all his own sperm like a proper submissive husband.

My self discipline program was going along perfectly. As Patsy got up to pee--while still naked--I redirected him to step into the bathtub.

Step Three - Golden Shower Self Facial Mastery

“I really need to pee,” Patsive whined.

“I know. Lay down in the tub.”

He assumed I was going to straddle him to pee on him. But this is self discipline, remember. He was about to learn his third step in solo self discipline. Besides, I don’t like urine play. So, this was the perfect solution.

“Yoga Plow position,” I instructed.

He still thought I was going to pee on him. Silly. He was about to pee on himself, while I watched! He couldn’t believe it. His eyes opened real wide when he realized he was about to give himself a golden shower. What did he need me for? I didn’t see what the difference was from me peeing on him versus him peeing on himself. Urine is urine. If he wanted to be peed on so badly, he could learn to do this everyday. (Not to mention that my best girlfriend SuzyQ has offered several times to shower him, too.)

Patsy unleashed a torrent of hot piss right at his face. He didn’t have any choice. His mouth was buttoned shut. I didn't make him open it. Another time. I did take out my phone to take a short snapchat video. SuzieQ roared seeing the short clip of my submissive husband rolled up into a ball while his penis pointed his own hot piss stream right at his face. You could hear the drain trickling as the urine splashed off his face.

“After your shower you need to go shopping. Your new sex life is about to drastically become way more submissive,” I teased.

My husband was going out to buy panties. I was throwing out all his male underwear while he showered. AND he was to buy a full set of bras. My expectation was that if he wanted to wear panties so much, he needed to wear a matching bra each day, too. This was the first time he showed any defiance, but that didn’t last long. He’d just need to figure out how many layers of clothes he’d have to wear to hide his new feminine ensemble. I wasn’t in the mood to tell him about the stockings and garters that would be required attire next month.

I wrote down his shopping list. This would be the moment he discovers the extent of my research and the intensely submissive and humiliating sex life he was about to live. It would be possible for him to predict future steps of his self discipline program by just mentally interacting with the shopping list. If he doesn’t walk out of this relationship now, he is truly going to get fucked. And I don’t only mean this literally.

The list: 15 panties, 15 bras, 3 varying sized butt plugs, a locking male chastity device (like a cb2000), 6 inch suction cup dildo, 18 inch two headed dildo.

“Don’t come home until everything on the list has been purchased,” I told him.

See! See! Boy is he going to get it. And get it good. He asked for it.

Step Four - Chastity Mastery

Since I decided on our wedding night my husband was never going to fuck me, it seemed logical to place his penis in permanent chastity. You know, to make sure he didn’t try and fuck anyone else. And when I went out to get laid, I didn’t want him masturbating at home. Orgasm denial is an important part of submission.

And if he got to watch me get fucked, I wanted it to be clear to my boyfriends that my cuckolded husband passively watches with his penis locked in his chastity device. So step four was permanent chastity. Patsy locked himself up in this silly looking device and gave me the keys. It was quickly and easily done.

Step Five - Date Night - Cuckold Cumeat Mastery

Every Friday night, my goal was to get laid. If I was dating someone, it was easy; if I wasn’t, I needed a fuck partner for the night. I’d have Patsy go through his phone contacts starting with Simon and then going down the list from there.

Whoever got lucky, Patsy got to eat their cum from my pussy once a week. This met one of his requests from his initial list. To keep our femdom marriage strong, I wanted to make sure his initial requests were met. It was also the only night he might get to see me nude--if I felt like it--mainly to get a taste of my butt hole (and what a surprise he’d get the first time his tongue digs a load of fresh cum from my ass.)

I’m often asked on my book tour how step five is self discipline. I challenge my audience to think of all the ways their submissive partner can and will eat cuckold cum in a solo environment. I watch pensive hands go up.

“From a condom? He could eat cuckold cum from a condom,” one woman offers.

Anytime, I concur. By himself anytime...I giggle.

“He could eat cuckold cum left over from a previous night,” a blushing sub male suggests.

Excellent idea I say smiling.

“What about straight from the source? What if the bull jacked off into his open mouth?”

Even though the third example isn’t solo, I can see my audience getting a grip on step five.

Step Six - Solo Assfuck Mastery

This step is my personal favorite. Patsy has two toys to reach fulfillment. An 18 inch two headed dildo and a 6 inch suction cup dildo. One is for when he goes real deep; the other is for just a plain ole good assfuck ride. Mastery is a minimum of 15 minutes of riding; or I let Patsy count depth strokes. 1000 is the minimum. This might sound like a lot, but it’s really not.

Nothing speaks louder of true submission than a straight male taking a cock up his ass for his woman. And to perform solo, while I watch, is just one of the most entertaining sites ever. Patsy’s tiny penis in chastity flopping uselessly while he fucks his own ass doggy style is a pleasure to watch.

Mastery is easily reached here. Of course, longer time limits can be expected. I’ve enjoyed watching Patsy for over an hour. Patsive fucked his own silly little ass for so long his legs were trembling and he could barely hold himself up. Another time, he forced himself so deep onto the 18 incher his eyes would roll back into his head. He would fuck himself so deep it was like he was in his own world and all outside stimuli was ambivalent to him.

I think one reason he excels at step six is due to his love of butt plugs. His ass is always ready. And even though Patsy wouldn't admit it, he likes getting assfucked, though I’d bet he’d prefer it be with me and my strapon. Oh well, ya can’t have everything. Because he requested the butt plugs at engagement, I let him have them whenever he wants.

Step Seven - Nipple Pinch Mastery

The goal here is for him to learn how to eroticize his nipples. To turn his nipples into sexual organs. To have each self pinch and tweak become a pipeline to his penis.

I’m often asked why step seven isn’t higher up the list. The truth is, it could be as high as two. Readers who are implementing the steps of my book could certainly change the order and tailor my program to their desires. I’ve placed it here for a very specific reason. Not all submissive straight men take to getting fucked in the ass right away.

For this reason, I introduce nipple pinching right after ass fucking. With Patsy’s penis locked in chastity, he needs to learn how to get turned on through other stimuli. Men often don’t realize how great it feels to have nipple stimulation because they are too focused on their penis all this time. The nipples are addition through subtraction. Take away the obvious stimuli by denying the penis any contact and the sub learns to respond more to his sensitive anus and his feminized nipples.

This is why nipple tweaking during assfucking is so powerful. Imagine a reluctant sub learning to fuck his own ass who learns to pinch and tweak his eroticized nipples during his self discipline. Guess what happens? His brain connects the dots. The two experiences become interconnected. He pinches his nipples and thinks he needs something up his ass. Or he’s fucking his ass and thinks, I need my nipples pinched.

And for the sub who enjoys the butt fuck, watch out! Add nipple tweaking to their self discipline and they’ll uncontrollably moan. All without any penis bullshit. What you have now is a sub male riding a dildo like a woman, tweaking his own nipples to awaken his locked penis. If he wasn’t wasn’t already dripping pre cum from the ass fuck, add step seven at this stage and I’ll guarantee you that the sub will have some serious penis drool. Guaranteed.

Step Eight - Interracial Gay Porn Addiction

Dudes watch porn. They beat off while watching porn. If you didn’t know that, now you do. It’s self and it’s time to stop. Or let him watch the porn you choose. From this point forward, the only porn your sub will get to watch is gay porn. Specifically, big black cocks (BBC) fucking sissy men’s butts.

It’s not that far of a stretch to expect your sub to actually learn to enjoy watching gay sex. Think about this. Men get turned on watching another man...when he fucks a woman. And many enjoy watching a man...fuck a woman in the butt. You see where this is headed? Their brain has already been programmed to beat off and cum watching men have sex. Even though it’s heterosexual sex, there are balls and a cock in the video.

So the only difference in converting his viewing to all gay porn is that the butt that is getting fucked is another man, instead of a woman. That’s the only difference. The interracial part is the dominating part. A black man sexually dominating a white man is real fun stuff for self discipline porn viewing. It’s easy to find good material. Just type, “interracial” “sissy” “breeding” in a web search and you’ll find big strong black men with huge cocks pummeling the butts of skinny little white dudes. As a sub watches this over and over he will begin to identify with the white sissy in each video; he becomes addicted to his role. And then addicted to watching interracial gay porn as part of his solo ass fuck self discipline program. You’ll have to start by setting this limit; over time it will be his viewing preference. He’ll become addicted.

Step Nine - Cock Suck Mastery

Real or fake, it’s time for your cuckold to completely transition to the ultimate step of self subjugation. He needs to suck a cock. It can be a dildo or it can be your boyfriend. It doesn't matter, he just needs to suck cock.

Of course, it’s much better if it’s real and he gets a cum snack reward on completion. But it doesn't matter. He has the toys. He can suck cock by himself anytime. Step nine requires this mastery. It’s clear how subservient a man is when he is home alone in chastity practicing giving a blowjob to a rubber phallus.

Step Ten - Prostate Milking Mastery

I can still remember when Patsy opened this present. The confused look on his face. The complete unknowing of how this little tool would own him.

Every cuckold in chastity should eventually fall prey to one of these tools. Doms often use these on subs; my program calls for the sissy sub male to learn how to use it on himself.

Clarence was laughing in disbelief when I told him about step 10. He was so excited to see this I invited him over to watch. SuzyQ wanted in, too. Our audience of three would watch Patsy learn how to use his aneros.

I made him read the instructions out loud:

“Insert the aneros completely into the male anus leaving just the two loops exposed.”

“One: Grasp loops to perform a left to right sweeping motion while applying downward pressure.”

“Two: Repeat maneuver several times.”

“Three: The press down hard and pull the aneros slightly out in a brisk ‘snap-like’ action.”

“Once flow begins, continue the three maneuvers for twenty minutes or until spermal draining is complete.”

This hard plastic contoured butt toy was a prostate massager.

Patsy was genuinely worried. Especially when he read aloud in front of his audience the phrase: ‘drainage complete.’ SuzyQ had fetched a dinner plate from the kitchen. He knew this meant the audience would also watch him eat.

Patsy performed the left to right sweeping motion using the aneros to massage his prostate. He admitted to himself that this felt pretty good. However, the snap motion was humiliating. Okay, let’s be honest here: very humiliating. Because when the ‘flow begins’ that means his sperm is being coaxed from deep within his plumbing and springing a massive leak without any real sexual satisfaction.

Everybody saw it: Clarence, SuzyQ, Dominia. He looked down to see a sizable bead of milky white sperm at the tip of his caged penis. It wasn’t pre cum; it wasn’t clear. It was sperm. Patsy didn’t know that the idea of forcing actual sperm from his balls--without an orgasm--was even possible. He realized what was coming. Each time he performed the snap-like action the flow would go.

Shit. He didn’t like this. What was about to happen was horrendously embarrassing. A chunk of sperm dribbled out of his flaccid caged penis onto the dinner plate because he made his penis cough it up. It was like the first squirt of an orgasm, except he wasn’t having an orgasm.

With each subsequent snap-like action, another dollop of cum was coaxed out of his own body. With no other stimuli of his penis or anywhere else. Clarence and SuzyQ were laughing. Patsy felt queasy with the realization that he wasn’t going to have an orgasm tonight. But yet his sperm was ‘cumming’ out for all to see.

This prostate massage sexualized Patsy’s entire groin area. He was admittedly very horny. It was a heightened sexual experience without a climax.

Every new dollop of thick oozing sperm took several attempts to rise from his region up through his soft cage shaft. It reminded him of digging into the bottom of a peanut butter jar with a spoon. You have to work it several times to get any results and then a chuck is available to eat. His sperm dribbled out the tip, through the chastity slit and onto the plate each time after several swipes at the bottom of his rectum.

Six thick chunks sat on the dinner plate. Each ejaculation was thicker in consistency than the spurts that fly out when Patsy actually cums. He knew he’d have to continue his probing until his ejaculation resembled a real orgasm. And then, of course, he’d have to eat it.

Patsy worked hard to extract all the cum from his body using only the aneros. He knew a precedent was being set. If he could drain himself of all his sperm in chastity--without having an orgasm--then why would he ever be allowed to have an actual orgasm? Which would lead to the question: Why would Dominia ever let him out of his penis cage again?

The load on the plate turned out to be almost twice the size of what was Patsy’s normal ejaculation. And after about twenty minutes--ironically--the beads that were surfacing from his probing and snapping efforts were now clear, signalling the end of testicle drainage. He was done. Patsy had milked all his cum from his body using only the toy in his butt.

Now, it was time to eat. He’d lick the plate clean in front of SuzyQ, Clarence and his wife, Dominia. A huge fresh load of his own cum ingested by tongue-lapping through the chunks of sperm he’d ejaculated--without having the enjoyment of an orgasm

Mastery of Step Ten = achieved!