My awakening to D/s came many years ago. Since then I have realized that it never left me. The desire never changed, it only lay sleeping for a bit. I didn't know then that it had a name. I just knew that it was a total turn on and was part of me.
I met him in a class that I was taking. The attraction was instant and intense. I remember the stolen kisses and hugs that led to intimate body parts being groped and squeezed. He said once, "You don't know me well." All I could reply was, "ohhhhh, but I want to." I should have known from the look in his eyes that I needed to know him.
When the class was over, we made arrangements to meet two weeks from that Saturday. He told me what to wear, and somehow I knew not to even question his direction. I asked if he wanted me to cook dinner that evening or what the plans would be.
His reply was that I should only worry about being there and dressed as he wanted. A little shudder ran through my body. I had in the past (and since that time) had men force me to do things. But I knew something about this way was very different. I don't remember what I asked him at that point, I only remember that he leaned close and whispered, "shhhhhhh," sending a shiver through my body.
The day of the meet finally arrived. I spent all day cleaning and fixing up the house; my mind totally engulfed in what the night could have in store. I took a long bath letting my mind wander and found my hands also wandering along my body. I had to laugh when I realized this man did these things to me. I took my time getting ready. Applying my make-up just so. Making sure my hair looked perfect. I picked up the hair spray and thought, "No way. Not going to have him touch my hair and get stuck." I giggled as I thought about the strange things that went through one's mind at times.
I remember little after that except pacing the door and nearly jumping out of my skin when he knocked on the door. His knock was solid. Again, funny things that one's mind remembers. I opened the door, and again a slight shiver ran through me. He handed me a bag of groceries and as I started to babble he said, "shhhhhhh." He told me to turn around.