Written by Sarah to Alex:
There wasn't any good reason for me to get up and leave the table, other than I could see your comments with the brunette sitting next to you we're getting a little more frequent and a little more probing. I left because I was scared of her, of talking to her, looking at her, but I also left knowing that by leaving, I was locking in the course of the evening.
As I must have know, when I came back, this slight woman had turned in her chair to face you, one of her legs casually brushing against his. She was about your age, maybe a year or two older in her mid 30's, dressed in a dark, thin slip that barely held her curves in as she leaned close to you. Her partner, an almost impossibly tall man, a good few years younger than her, was completely excluded from the conversation.
As I stepped up to the bar, you ran your hand over my hair and finished up your sentence with, "and this is mine. "You pulled an arm around me, slipping your hand down the inside of my leg and leaned in, whispering to me, "you don't have to speak" as I looked over your shoulder at this woman. She was appraising me, without a doubt. Her eyes met mine and I refused to look away, although she stared at me for the longest time and I could feel myself blushing. I knew this was going to be hard.
It was clear at that point that in my brief absence, the details had been arranged and before I knew it, you and this woman were standing to go. She looked at her tall date and I realized for the first time how attentive he was to her. He moved when she gestured for him, he stood slightly hunched, tense, ready to react to her. She clearly said to him, "Follow" as she wrapped her arm around yours and began to walk off, her boy moving without hesitation. I froze completely, unable to accept that the command was for me too, unable to move without a moment of connection with you. You saw me still standing and slipped your hand in mine, you understood. You and her walked arm in arm, with me at your side clinging to your hand, as her boy followed behind, unnoticed. You were engaged in your conversation with her, but I could feel you tensing your grip on my hand, either because you were excited or you wanted me to be assured.
Your kindness had it's limits; we walked into their hotel suite and before she could say anything you ordered me to the ready position, facing the wall. It was time for me to slip in, to let go of my uneasiness, my reluctance, my stubbornness. You didn't give me the opportunity to react, you turned your back on me and left me to climb down onto my hands and knees and start to focus. I was scared, not of anything in particular, it was the feeling you get before you go off the high dive. You know you're safe, but it's a long way down from the edge. You have to stop thinking, just for a split second, just enough to launch yourself. And that was exactly what I willed myself to do. I lowered myself to the floor, overwhelmed for a minute with the shame of doing it in front of others, but especially in front of another woman. But I was in the water; I was ok.
Her boy needed no command and took a kneeling position beside the chair. You and the woman continued to speak, and it was about me. About how you and I met, how we learned, how you trained me as your sub. I slipped from astonished embarrassment to pride, at hearing you speak of me, of us, so happily. I want her to know how much I please you. The conversation goes on and I keep my eyes low, holding on to the idea that you were watching me. It made me feel safer. I almost forgot where I was, I started sinking into my thoughts, feeling and sensing my body -- the stretch of muscles in my arched back, the ache in my locked shoulders, and a noticeable wetness, probably more noticeable to you from your view up my skirt.
I hear her say to him, "You're going to explore her for me. Stand now, go to her." The giant boy came over to me and as I stood up in front of him, I got a better look at him, his warm tan skin, awkward frame, muscular, but very slender limbs. Despite the fact that he towered over me, something in the way he refused to meet my gaze made me feel stronger. Not for long though. She moved him through the motions.
"Pull her hair from her face, touch her face, open her mouth." Starting with my face was excruciating and jarring, I didn't expect his hands to touch me so intimately. "Run your fingers in her mouth." His fingers were long and he firmly pressed around the inside of my mouth. Embarrassed, I could feel spit starting to drip out as he held open my lips. "In her throat now, one at first."