my Master is amazing. The short time i've been with Him has been more than i could have imagined. He's made me feel like His princess, and He truly is my Sterling Knight. The first time i looked up into His dark eyes i was a helpless moth hovering dangerously within the glow of His commanding spirit. When He looks at me, my will is consumed. His touch is a soft bite of electric velvet arcing into forever; a whisper stroking my soul like a feather on fine sand.
Life's first breath touched my lips with His first kiss, and after two days i can't imagine life without breath; without devotion; without my Master.
This morning while i was fixing His breakfast He stood tauntingly close behind me; His tongue painting the back of my neck as i squeezed oranges. He told me that we have an appointment today.
"We do, Master? With whom?" i filled His glass from the juicer.
"Yes, at 11 o'clock. A friend of mine is an M.D. and we are going to get you pierced, pet." His fingernail scratched the tip of my nipple.
Pierced? My mind jumped to hyper-speed. i bit my lip to keep from questioning or balking. i had an idea of what he planned: nipples definitely, and probably the hood of 'His' clit.
i felt myself lean backward as my knees gave a little. How am i going to survive this? i was petrified to say the least. My hands were shaking as i squashed another orange half onto the juicer and pushed down hard, too hard .
"Are you frightened, pet?" His lips kissed below my ear softly. "Don't be. I wouldn't let anything happen to you, love, that's why we're going to the doctor's office. I'll be right with you, don't fret."
He turned me around, lifting my quivering chin and kissing me softly. "Talk to me, pet. Tell me about it."
"Master, Sir, i…" my dry tongue couldn't find the courage to speak.
"You're afraid?" His intense gaze darted between my wet eyes quickly.
"Yes, Master." Oh, God. i didn't want to disappoint him .
"What are you afraid of, pet?" He scooped me up and sat on the chair nearby, holding me on His lap like a child, brushing my bangs aside and kissing my forehead.
"Pain, Master." i moaned, pressing my face to his chest. "It's gonna hurt so bad!" That was it, i couldn't stop the tears and i leaned against Him heavily, sobbing and trembling.
"Listen to me," He held my head against His chest, "you've given birth, what could possibly hurt more than that? And you survived, right?" He lifted my face and kissed my reddened eyes. "Right?"
"Yes, Master." i sighed as my stomach pulled itself into a knot.
"And do you think I would let anyone hurt you?" He kissed my cheeks, His tongue dabbing at the tears.
"No, Sir." That was the truth. i knew He would protect me, and as He said, a doctor would do it.
"What time again, Master?" i tired to keep my voice from shaking.
"Two hours, baby. We'll leave here at ten, the appointment is at 11." He stroked my cheek. "Don't fret, love, it will only hurt for a moment, and then just think of all the enjoyment I will get." He grinned as He pinched my nipple.
His words hit me like a line drive between the eyes. i had willingly given myself to Him. Given permission for Him to do anything short of killing me. i wondered at the man within the Master; the one that few (if any) have really seen. He's a determined, intelligent man, and i know in my heart that He truly can do anything He sets His mind to. And then, i wondered at my own wisdom and courage. my eyes darted to His face and i feared they betrayed my thoughts.
"Aiden, do you believe in your Master?" His look was serious but not threatening.
i looked blatantly into His eyes without speaking and He held my stare, piercing the shell of my conscious fear. Truth rolled from my heart and i smiled shyly, looking down respectfully then matching His gaze again. "Yes, Master." Tears stung me, "i trust You with my life, Master, and more; i trust You with my heart."
my Master smiled at me softly. "I know, baby. I know you're scared. Hell, I would be too. If you want to cancel then I will. You are most important to Me, Aiden. If I ask too much, all you have to do is say so, I told you that way back when, didn't I?"
Now, i was ashamed. "Yes, Master, You did. And i believe You. i'm just…scared, nervous."
"Tell you what, We'll go talk to him and if you decide not to then fine, we'll leave and nothing more will be said." i could see disappointment in His eyes and it stabbed me.
"Master, please understand, i want so very much to please You." i kissed Him and wrapped my arms around His neck. i looked into His eyes trying to be convincing; trying to hide my terror. "If You want it done, then it will be done."
His smile was an opiate, and i decided then that i would endure whatever it would take to bring that smile to my Master's face.
Master unbuttoned the sundress He'd selected for me, tossed it on the hook and threaded my arms into the paper gown. Then He sat on the chair, pulling me to His lap. His hand slipped inside the gown and He cupped my breast as He kissed me fully, His mouth surrounding mine as His love surrounds me, breathing His strength into me, consuming my fears. i clung to Him tightly as His arms embraced me firmly, hugging tight as His tongue reached into me. Then He held my heart to His and spoke with complete confidence.
"Aiden, I would fight, kill or die to protect you. Believe that if you believe anything of love at all." His hands caressed my face as His lips touched my forehead. my Master; my Love, carried me to the exam table and stood between my legs holding me tightly.
The door opened and my heart stopped.
"Hey, John." The tall man wearing a white coat and presenting a wide smile that framed perfectly even, white teeth shook my Master's hand familiarly. "Long time, huh? How's your handicap?" He chuckled.
"Hey, John, yourself," Master chuckled. "My handicap has gone to the hazard zone." Master laughed as He wrapped His arm around my shoulders. "This is Aiden, My most precious pet." He nodded to me smiling lovingly.
The doctor smiled knowingly. "Well, shall we get started?" He looked directly at me, "Do you have any questions, Aiden?"
"No, Sir." i looked respectfully toward the floor. i wanted my Master to be proud of His pet.
"And you agree to what we are doing here today?" Dr. John looked at my Master, "What exactly are we doing by the way?" He chuckled lightly.
"Well, nipples and hood that much for sure," He paused, "oh, and belly button. Any other suggestions?"
The physician looked at me directly as my Master spoke. i forced my gaze to the floor but i could feel the heat of a blush rise over my face.
"John, I need for you to leave the room for just a few minutes. I want to talk to..." He paused, looking puzzled for a second.
"Her name is Aiden. I promised her I would be with her."
"That's fine, just give us two minutes to talk privately, then I'll call you back in."
"Is that alright with you, love?" Master looked at me concernedly.
"Yes, Sir." i whispered not wanting Him to leave.
Master sighed, looked at His friend the doctor then at me as He left the small room. He stood right outside. i could see the shadow of His feet in the space below the door and i smiled to myself.
When the door shut Dr. John sat on the counter across from me and looked at the paper on his clipboard.
"I don't have any questions about your history, Aiden, may I call you Aiden?"
"That would be fine, thank you , Sir." i looked at the floor.
"Aiden, look at me."
i obeyed.
"This is what you want, is that correct? I wanted you to be free to speak without your master present." He leaned forward looking intently at me.
"Yes, Sir, it's what my Master wants, and i want what He wants."
"And you're sure?" He lifted an eyebrow.
"Yes, Sir, i am sure." i wondered if he could see my knees shaking under the paper gown.
"Alright, then we will make sure things are done properly and safely." He wrote something on the paper then looked at me again. "What is your safety word?"
"Mud pie." i replied in a whisper.
"Then keep that word on the tip of your tongue, and use it if you need me to stop, agreed?"
"Yes, Sir." i sighed, looking into myself for strength, then toward the shadow beneath the door.
"i want you to take this pill, it's diazepam. Do you know what that is?"
"Yes, Sir, valium." i took the pill gladly, swallowing it with the water he offered.
"Sir, i do have a question." The promise of the valium gave me a little courage.
"Yes?" He smiled slightly, listening attentively.
i stammered, not sure how to proceed. "Would it be possible to…" i looked at the floor again, blushing, "to make me …like a virgin …for my Master?" i felt silly, but i wanted to be 'new' for Him. i wanted to feel Him open me, but most importantly, i wanted to give Him the pleasure of opening me.
Dr. John thought for a moment, then he nodded slowly, "Yes, more or less, and you want this?"
"Yes, Sir, please, for my Master's pleasure."
"And for mine," i thought to myself.