I sighed the instant I walked through the door. Some women are upset because their boyfriendâs donât do enough housework. I was upset because mine was doing too much. He knelt on the carpet in front of me; his head bent low, the back of his neck exposed. Usually I placed a thick black collar around that neck, but this morning I had taken it off before going to work.
"I want you to have a day off," I said to Wesley, stroking his neck and lifting his face to look up at mine. "You are doing a great job, and you deserve a break."
"Yes, Mistress," he had replied, his voice meek, as always. When I had first met him, the meek demeanor and submissive behavior had driven me wild with desire. Iâd loved the way he lowered his eyes and worshiped my body, not hesitating at all to complete an order I gave him. In my few years as a would-be-Domme Iâd never encountered such an obedient submissive, and Wes was a treasure. Great body, great kissable lips, sexy voice.
"Good boy," Iâd smiled, leaning in and kissing his lips. As always, he hardly kissed back, seeming to hold something inside. The passion that I always felt when I kissed him didnât seem to be returned. His lips allowed mine to ravish them, but did no kissing of their own.
So, happy that my live-in boyfriend slash submissive was going to relax for the day, I had left for work. But upon walking inside, I could see that he had not taken my request seriously at all. It looked like Wes had scrubbed the entire house with a toothbrush, the way it shined.
I didnât know what to make of this. On one hand I felt terrible that he hadnât taken the day off. Wes had been living with me and serving me for over a month; it was time for him to have a break. On the other hand I felt angry that he had disobeyed me. I choked on my emotions and turned my attention back towards Wes, his bent head, and his curved back. His skin seemed to shimmer in the dim light, and I was tempted to take him upstairs and allow him to pleasure me. Shaking myself off again I lifted my arms, slipping my coat off my body and hanging it on the coat rack.
"Wes," I said, softly, "You did a lot today."
"Yes, Mistress," he murmured. I could see his lips curving into a small smile. He was happy that he had pleased me.
Walking over towards him again I sank to my knees, taking his face in my hands.
"Wesley," I said, keeping my voice soft and at what I hoped was a comforting tone. "I didnât want you to do any work today. I just wanted you to relax."
Wesleyâs eyes met mine, a mixture of fear and excitement flashing across them. "Iâm sorry, Mistress," he said, looking at my face as I frowned at him. "I wanted to please you."
"Thereâs more to life than pleasing me, baby," I said, sitting down on the floor next to him. "Will you stop kneeling and talk to me seriously for a minute?"
Wes didnât move, his brow furrowed with puzzlement.
"Sit down. Now." I said, a bit sternly.
This time there was no hesitation. Wesley moved gracefully from his knees, sitting down next to me. He crossed his ankles and held his arms behind his back, thrusting his chest out towards me as if I had bound him in the position. Sighing with frustration I put my arm around him, hugging him towards me almost motherly.
"Wesley," I said, "I know that we have an odd relationship. But it is a relationship, and I want to be able to be something other than your Domme sometimes. I want to be your girlfriend. Is that possible?"
"If you wish, Mistress," Wesley said, his body held tight against mine.
"Will you hold me?" I asked, tenderly. But he didnât move, his arms remaining tight around his back and his legs crossed in front of him. "Please, Wes," I murmured. "I have never been in the dominant role for this long before, I need to slip out."
"May I speak, Mistress?" Wesley asked softly. I nodded furiously, wanting more than anything for him to speak. "I want to serve you," he said. "I donât mind if you want to slip out of your positionâŚjust let me take care of you. Iâll draw you a bath, wash you, cook you dinnerâŚ"
I sighed in exasperation.
"That isnât what I wanted," I said, taking my arms away from him. Shoulders drooping I walked out of the room, towards the stairs and up to my bedroom. I didnât know what to do. Was Wesley so far gone in the fantasy that he couldnât snap into reality again?
I shut my door and sat down on my bed, my head in my hands. This wasnât a three-hour session that I was used to; this was an every day situation that Iâd walked in to. Perhaps when Wesley and I had discussed what we were looking for in our relationship I hadnât understood what he meant by twenty-four-seven. Maybe he actually did mean nonstop. But this was too intense; if I wanted to keep our relationship going I would have to find some way to make him relax, to take some time for himself, and to get some of his own pleasure back.
By the time I was ready to leave my room I had a plan.
"Wesley," I said. "I would like to see you in the bedroom at once."
Obedient as always Wes came walking down the hallway, his arms at his side, and his blonde shaggy hair nearly in his eyes. When he came to me he halted, his hands clasped behind his head and his eyes downcast as usual. Most days this aroused me, but today it almost frightened me. I wasnât ready for this responsibility; I was barely twenty-five years old, not old enough to have another human life to look after.
Without saying a word I pointed to the bed, and Wes positioned himself in the middle on his stomach, his hands and legs stretched out spread-eagled for anything I might want to do.