I stand outside Newark Airport and wait to see his truck arrive. My Mistress' words repeat again in my head as they did throughout the flight and I once again get butterflies in my stomach.
"I want you to find a no strings attached blowjob friend so you can practice sucking a real cock. I want you to practice deep-throating, sucking on balls, and of course cock. And I want you to always eat their cum like the cum slut you are. If they cum on your face, eat it. If they cum on your tits, eat it. If they cum on the floor, suck it off and eat it. The first time they cum on your face though, I want you to take a photo and leave it there for at least half an hour so you can think about the slut you are. What you'll do is talk with a male friend about how your Mistress wants you to practice sucking a real cock instead of just your dildo. Oh, and while sucking cock you'll be in your underwear or naked like a slut should. You could start with getting a facial, but I want my slut sucking cock at least twice a week, then -"
I see his truck pulling up to the curb, breaking my train of thought.
"Hey!" I say while opening the door, "Thank you so much for the ride. You're a lifesaver."
"No problem, happy to help!" He says pulling away from the curb, "How was visiting home?"
"Much better than I was worried about! It was nice seeing family again after time away, and it wasn't really negative or anything. And I reconnected with a friend at undergrad and we're kinda dating, kinda not?"
I pause, the add, "We had some fun together though."
"Watcha mean fun?" he asks.
"Oh, you know..." I trail off, "When's the last time you've been with a sexual partner?"
He blushes and is quiet a moment, "Ummm..."
"Sorry if that was direct, you don't have to answer!"
"No it's okay," He says signaling and changing lanes to join up with the highway as we exit the airport, "It's just been a while. There was this girl I hooked up with at work for a bit before we started school..."
"Wasn't that like a while over a year ago?"
"Yeah..."
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring it up for sad reasons. We've just talked about dating and being lonely all the woes and now that I kinda found someone I'm comparable with I guess I'm wondering what you're looking for in a potential girlfriend."
"What do you mean by looking for?" He asks.
"I don't know..." I say and pause as I marshal the nervous butterflies in my stomach, "I've been thinking a lot about what kind of relationship I'm looking for. I know at school you've seen me as very direct and take charge and all that, but in a relationship with someone, sexually..., I'm really the opposite."
We pause in silence for a moment and watch the highway fly past.
"What do you mean opposite?" He asks.
"It feels so stereotypical, but in public life I'm very take charge, but in the bedroom I'm very submissive. Because I know this it changes the type of relationship I'm looking for, if that makes sense? Like if the person I'm with isn't down to be commanding sexually it doesn't work too well. I've experienced that in prior relationships too where the non-sexual connection is great but we just didn't work in the bedroom."
"Huh, really? It's hard to picture you like that."
"I know, that's one of the issues I have dating," I laugh, "But yeah, that's what got me curious to ask you what you're looking for in a girlfriend."
We both pause again and watch as you drive by a truck.
"I'm not sure I know what you mean." He says.
"We've talked about how you've had a crush on people, so I guess I'm asking how you see a relationship going when you think about it? Like what do you think about in terms of a sexual partner?"
He shifts in his seat," I mean...
"I'm sorry for being so direct, but I'm so curious now. Have you had sex?"
I can tell he's blushing in the light from passing cars across the highway.
Quietly, he says, "I haven't found the right girl yet."
"That's okay, you'll find her. What about when your last blowjob was?"
"It's been a while..."
"I know the feeling, before I got together with my Mistress over break it had been more than a year since doing anything sexual with someone, so trust me I know the feeling."
"Why do you want to know when my last..." He again pauses, "blowjob was?"
It's my turn to pause, Mistress's words echoing in my head.
"Talk with a male friend about how your Mistress wants you to practice sucking a real cock instead of just your dildo."
"I uhhh," It's my turn to by shy, "Back home who I talked about, my Mistress, wants me to find a no strings attached male friend to practice sucking a real cock. I don't really have many male friends here, and I feel closest with you about this stuff, so I guess I'd thought to ask if you wanted to cum on my face."