Authors Note: Due to the timing of the completion of this series, this chapter has not, as yet, been through the careful hands of my wonderful proof-reader and friend AisieLynn. I will endeavour to replace it as she has time to work on it for me. I hope you will forgive my eagerness to bring you the conclusion to this long running series and bear with the few bumps in the writing. ~ellie.
Possessing Bella Ch. 24
Rob had gone up to check on Bella late on Sunday night and found her asleep on the couch in front of the television that was replaying the start sequence of an old movie over again. She woke as he turned off the television and he smiled.
"You had a good time I trust," he said coming to sit beside her and she snuggled into his side.
"Mmhmm," she murmured sleepily. "It was exciting and very umm, satisfying but I am still trying to work out exactly how I feel about the whole scene. It was different," she said thoughtfully becoming more awake as she thought about it. "Thank you, Master," she said remembering why she had been with Josie and Gian in the first place.
"How you feel about what exactly?" Rob repeated her words with a frown.
"I got the feeling she was more interested in what she had heard about me than she was in the real me," Bella said her thoughts rolling around the scene in her sleepy mind. "It wasn't what I expected, not that I knew what to expect but," she paused trying to frame her thoughts.
"Can you tell me about it?" Rob asked and after looking at him for a long moment told him about the scene, skimming over some parts and giving details in others. As she spoke, it became clearer in her mind that Josie was more interested in her reputation and the cache she would feel at having used the girl who was intimate with the most powerful of men in their elitist world.
"She wasn't cruel," Bella said quickly realising how she must sound. "She was perfectly lovely," she smiled using Josie's favoured word when describing her, "It was just, different. Like it was a test of what she had heard about me, at least in the beginning, maybe, in the end, it was more about showing me what she enjoyed."
"It's understandable," Rob mused. "Given all that has occurred in the last year if you tried to write it into a book it would seem incredulous to anyone who lives this lifestyle." He pulled her onto his lap. "I think even I have fallen into the misperception of the girl who can do everything." He wrapped his arms around her.
Bella chewed her lip and looked up at him. She felt a shift in his mood to one of regret and she felt guilty of having made him feel that way. She wasn't sure what to say, so she snuggled into his chest and listened to the strong heartbeat of the man who loved her and cared for her so well.
"It was unfair of me to disregard how much your business means to you. My expectations and needs could never be met by a girl with such a demanding career," Bella gasped and looked up at him. She opened her mouth to apologise, but he put a finger to her lips. "I love you, and that will never change, but we both need more in a relationship. We barely see each other for more than breakfast and dinner." He smiled sadly "You need a man who will is there when you wake with night terrors and will soothe you back to sleep."
"It's rare these days that I wake like that," Bella protested.
"The club is my life," Rob continued brushing aside her comment, "I work all night and sleep most days, I need a girl who can keep those hours and can be there with me, warm my bed and serve me when I need not when it is convenient for us both."
"Am I such a spoilt brat?" Bella asked tears forming in her eyes.
"Yes," Rob chuckled. "but I love you little brat, there is no other like you, and you bring me great joy, but if you are honest with yourself, you need more too. You need someone tall, dark and brooding, who will watch over you while giving you the freedom to be the corporate giant you are becoming. There is another man meeting that description that you once considered begging the collar of," he said meaningfully.
Bella knew what he was saying, but she felt so conflicted when it came to Stephen now. He confused her with his attention and statements that he still loved her while keeping a distance between them. She wasn't sure if she could commit to him yet. She worried about being caged and kept away from the people she loved. He had been adamant about not sharing her once she took his collar.
"I think after the opening Kurt, and I will free you to date whom you like," Rob watched her as she stared at him teary eyed taking in his words. "We will always be here for you. We are now and will always be your guardians regardless of the collar you may take. We are a family of sorts, and we know you have the skills necessary to choose your own path. There will be many like Josie, who wish to test your legend as the girl who survived," he warned. "Trust those close to you already, Stephen is a good man, and he loves you deeply despite his mood this last month."
"He would keep me caged," Bella said quietly. "I am not sure I could give up the few freedoms I have."
"I think you might be exaggerating that slightly," Rob chuckled. "Be honest with him and you will find things are not always as they seem."
Bella said nothing else as Rob picked her up and carried her to her bedroom. "Get ready for bed, I will trust you from now on to look after yourself properly. If I find you have lapsed in any routine we will have to start the process all over again," he kissed her forehead and smiled. "Sleep well little brat."
Bella went to bed feeling saddened by her conversation with Rob. She had learned so much and gained confidence in her choices and abilities under his and Kurt's guiding hands. She knew that without them she would probably be in one of Binatang's cages hoping for rescue. She knew he was right in what he said but she was disappointed that she didn't try harder to make him happy, there must have been something else she could have done to make it work. Her thoughts tangled in her mind making sleep elusive for her. Eventually, she got up and wrote in her journal.
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Dorothea walked into the Marcol Building and rode the elevator up intent on being there for Bella during this week when she was anxious about the opening. She wandered through the newly appointed offices of Bella's team enjoying the splashes of colour she had Natalie had implemented. This was division was definitely run by a woman, Dorothea grinned. A year ago she would have laughed if someone had told her that this bastion of Male dominance could have been infiltrated by a woman and a submissive woman at that.
She'd taken her medications and was feeling good, a few hours of light work would be good for her despite her doctor's orders to rest more. She smiled at Chelsea as she walked past her desk not stopping to interrupt the phone call that kept her from greeting the old woman.
"Dorothea!" Bella exclaimed delightedly looking up from her desk as she entered the office. "I'm so glad you're here today. We are going over to the store to see how the refit is coming along. Owen says the alarm system should be finished today, and we can start moving the display stock in."
"That sounds exciting," Dorothea moved forward to hug Bella, who had come out from behind her desk as she spoke. "I can't wait to see how it all looks, knowing Natalie it is perfection."
"She's just been fabulous," Bella said, "I don't know what I will do without her when the outlet is finished."
"So keep her on. You will need her expertise again for the next outlet," Dorothea said nonchalantly and took a seat in a bright floral chair.
"Gosh, do you think I could? What if it's not the success we all hope it will be?" Bella said considering what sort of a position could be created for Natalie. "My team is already much bigger than I expected and while Kurt hasn't said anything, I think he might if I kept Natalie on full time when a second outlet is still a dream."
The new team she had here at the company were wonderful. Owen had suggested strongly two young men from his former department who had good knowledge of the trade and were more than eager to take the up the opportunity to work in the new division. Getting in on the ground floor meant that they would be on the fast track to promotions as the division grew and they were working as hard as everyone else to make sure it was a success. She had also hired six girls to work in the outlet and in addition to Owen she had hired two other jewellers. It was a large staff for one outlet, but she hoped it wouldn't stop at just one.