Bach Concerto No. 2 plays into my ears as I wait for the A. My feet tap, moving slowly with the beat. Only in New York can I feel comfortable enough being this strange in public. I stop after a bit, my muscles aching after my long walk in the city in my new boots.
A medium-sized rat skirts in and out between the tracks, dragging a bread piece in its mouth just as Cello Suite No 1 begins. The weirdness of NYC pairs perfectly with western classical music.
My attention shifts to a white man walking confidently across the platform, on the yellow line that demarcates safety and danger. His footsteps feel timed with the music that only I can hear, and I immediately step back, making room for him, an automatic move on my part. As our eyes make brief contact, I feel his piercing blue eyes linger.
-Please be my dom-
This sexual unexpected thought surprises me so much that I force my eyes to hold onto the grimy white tiled walls of the station ahead of me.
That's a fucking first.
I carefully sneak a glance at the man - he's shorter than most, dressed sleekly in a smart black Fall coat, a black cloth mask, and in polished dress shoes. He spots me watching him, and I quickly turn away, blushing behind my mask.
The A arrives mercifully just then and I get into a car. As I sit down, I notice he's there too. For some reason, I don't feel panicked, mostly just aroused.
Another first.
I sneak a quick glance at him, and feel my heart pick up pace. I turn off my music, putting it away, savoring the thud of my heart, noticing the soft wetness between my legs.
I smile, remembering what I'm wearing - sometimes laundry day leads to the least sexy or the most sexy underwear - this week it was the most.
The train lurches to a stop and people begin to leave and enter, clockwork bee-like behavior telling me we're just going to get more crowded. Before I know it, he's found a way to sit next to me, his leg pressed up against my thigh.
"I saw you looking," he says discreetly as he leans into the hard plastic backrest. "What's your name?"
I'm both glad and embarrassed to be caught, to be read so easily even behind my mask. I look around and no one else is looking. The perks of a New Yorker audience. I could be dressed like the Cookie Monster and no one would bat an eyelash.
"What's your name?" he says, his tone slightly more authoritative.
I look briefly at him before lowering my eyes. In that glimpse, I see the depth of his lust for me, I smile.
Countless subway rides without ever having this feeling, maybe that's why my answer rolls so easily off my tongue.
"It's Nyra, sir."
"Do you want this?" He asks, as he places a gloved hand on my thigh. I feel warmer, even though his leather glove is cool through my panty hose. I resist the urge to spread my legs, to give him more access.
"Yes, sir."
"Good, Nyra. Do you have a friend who you share your location with?"
My heart beats faster, leaning closer to panic.
"Yes, sir. Why?"
"Text them and tell them you're with Matthew Broker. And that your location will be on, and you'll be home in 2 hours. And this is my phone number."
He rattles off a number and I type quickly, letting my best friend know all the details. I then go rogue for a second, googling his name and I see a professional headshot. Steely blue eyes, dark blonde hair with grey, and a mouth that I wanted to kiss. Outside this context, I'd have called him a douche, but not now. Not while I feel this electricity running through me.
I look up and he has an eyebrow raised.
"I didn't tell you to do that. But I understand. I will have to punish you though later. Screenshot that to your friend, and call my number to make sure it's mine."
I follow both commands, getting wetter with each number I type in. We pull into a station and I make the call. As I see his phone light up, I realize he now has my number.
The doors close, and his hands starts to rub slowly up and down my thigh, his nails sometimes getting caught in the fishnet. God, I want him to slip past my coat, but so far he's being appropriate.
The train lurches to a stop again and now he grabs my hand, pulling me to the door. I follow him, holding my purse, as we walk fast through the corridor, through the turnstiles, up the stairs to be greeted by the fresher air above us.
"Take your mask off," he says, as he pulls us against the wall of one of the many commercial buildings in midtown.
I do slowly, a different kind of strip. He lifts my chin and smiles in appreciation.
"I knew those beautiful eyes belonged to a beautiful face, pet. Do you want to be kissed, Nyra?"
"Yes please, sir." I stand straight, like a school girl, looking up at him.
"Soon, let's go to my apartment first."
As we walk, he begins to discuss safety. He offers the traffic light system, which I'm familiar with. He asks about sex acts I'm comfortable with, what I'm not. And I answer, getting wetter with each word that makes this experience closer into reality.
He turns briefly, "Anything else?"
"No calling me a cunt and no race stuff," I say, this time looking him firmly in the eye, watching his reaction. He nods in understanding.
As we walk into a doorman building, he slows down his pace so we enter together.
"Hi Mr. Broker!" an elderly white man smiles at both of us.
"Hi Peter," He says as he nods in response.
We get into the elevator. As the door closes, I turn facing him. He seems to be smiling and has his arms crossed.
"Strip," he says.
I am now terrified at my choice and also deeply aroused, a confusing combination. I'm even more terrified Matt will see the confusing evidence in my panties.
Matt. Matt. Reminding myself of his name and his choices about safety make me calm down and I decide to smile at him, a way to regain some power, some comfort. He smiles back encouragingly or at least I think he does - I can still only see his eyes.
I slowly take my scarf and fall coat off, placing both on my arm. I unzip my boots, savoring the sexy click of the metal along my calf and step out of them. Just when I reach for the buttons on my shorts, the elevator door dings open on the 14th floor.
"Let's go, pet. Grab your things."
I grab all my stuff and follow him through a warmly lit hallway. He opens the door to an apartment overlooking the park.
"Keep stripping until I tell you to stop." he says, as he puts his keys down and takes off his mask.
His face, I want to caress that jawline, touch every feature on his face, hover on his lips.
Instead I play my role, asking,"where would you like me to keep my clothes, sir?"
"Fold them and place them on the floor, pet."
I kneel facing him and begin to fold my clothes into a neat pile. The cool stone floors and the submissive act of being on my knees is deeply arousing. The folding, not so much. A little too domestic. Plus folding clothes neatly always made me think of my mom and her precision, and that does not do much for me.
I shake my head a bit and I pull my shirt off to reveal my black lacy bra. Silky textures slip through my fingers as I fold my blouse, and I kneel again. As I straighten up, I go back to my shorts.
His face moves from shock to lust before settling into calm. My crotchless pantyhose, the only clean pair I had, and my red panties, also the only clean pair, have an impact. I decide to step in front of my clothes pile and turn, facing away from him as I kneel to put down my shorts, giving him a full view of my ass.
"Stay there, Nyra." He says, and I hear his shoes on the hardwood floor.
"This is what you were wearing today when you went out in public?" he asks, as I feel the warmth of his fingers slide through my panties onto my ass. No more gloves. He caresses each cheek gently, his thumbs moving along the sides of my ass crack.
I moan in response, and I feel a soft pat on my ass, followed by a heavier sting of a slap.
I get wetter and feel close to being overwhelmed even though we have just begun. Or maybe we began when we made eye contact, when he walked that yellow line.
"Answer me."
"Yes sir, I wore this."
"What a slutty outfit underneath your coat."
He slips his finger into the wetness held in the crotch of my panties and I groan again.
"What a slut," he croons, and then slaps my ass once more with his free hand. I feel a familiar tingling, my abs contracting, and I ask desperately, "May I cum, sir?"
"Already?"
"Yes, sir."
"After I punish you for googling my name without my permission. Take off your bra and count to three."
I unclasp my bra, folding it neatly before going back to a kneeling position with my ass raised.
"One."
A stinging slap of my left cheek accompanied with goosebumps erupting all over my body.
"Two."