Copyright Mind Imperator 2005. All Rights Reserved.
Part One
I have decided to take you for a while to the Château d´Eperon in the region of Reims.
The owners are friends there from my time in Paris. They are also in the hierarchy of the commissariat and I share some leisure interests with them.
Our car pulls up along the stable-flanked gravel entrance road, in front of the oaken main door. Getting out, you notice a fishpond full of large yellow carp attracted to the surface by the gentle falling rain and by fish feed slowly sprinkled by a hefty, rough-featured gardener.
We are soon inside and I bring in two large suitcases and your own. We are the only guests this warm May night, and the
intendants
feed us efficiently and convivially, imbuing us with mature red Bordeaux Rouge, and then, perhaps uncannily, they melt away into the long corridors. I lead you up the back stairs into a large sequestered, well-appointed, warm, ancient attic bedroom under bare black rafters.
I uncork
Schreiner
champagne from the bar and pour two glasses. You sit quietly and somewhat self-consciously on the dark red sofa, sipping the sharp white wine, the ephemeral bubbles tingling on the roof of your mouth. I arrange a few things in the bedroom next door, and then come to sit by you. We toast together and you see I am starting to look at you in a more concentrated, single-minded way. I put my hand on your jeans, on your right thigh.
"Wait. What are you doing?" you blurt. I do not remove my hand but gently stroke your forehead with the other one. You respond immediately, as you always do, arching your neck back, following the caress of my fingers as they travel over your forehead. This response is automatic, one of your stirring dances. It testifies only to your subordination before the rule of Eros and carnal pleasure, no more than that. Many men have taken you only in this way, eventually jading the thrill for you.
The hand on your thigh moves further up. You issue a soft, preliminary, gentle "No" into thin air. But the hand is now at the top of your thigh and the other has taken hold of your hair, turning your face towards me. You think that maybe you can see the first light of desire somewhere in the depths of my eyes. We have now taken the first tiny step in the long journey towards my ultimate goal this week.
You snap out of it. "Not yet. Let's talk a bit, first" you say. And many men stop there, not recognising your well-camouflaged desires, this quintessential behavioural self-contradiction
a la Japonaise
. But this time you know it there will be no stopping, that in coming here with me you have already irrevocably crossed some threshold...
Still holding your hair I speak to you, for the first time softly but firmly. "Listen, now, Pia. You are pretty and intelligent. But you have much to learn, so much to understand about the structural truths of heterosexual interaction, the raw nature that was seared into our souls long before the advent of significant human consciousness. But you will learn here with me."
You feel uncomfortable with this demeanour of mine, which resembles that of a doctor, a teacher, even a priest. Is he trying to belittle me? Does he respect me? But I am anxious to persuade and explain, and you are, naturally, curious. "What do you mean, learn?" you retort.
"You will learn here slowly as our time together elapses. But firstly, you must understand that I will have zero tolerance of resistance this week. And I mean absolutely zero."
I pull your head towards me, kiss your lips softly, then more forcefully, relishing your sweet femininity, your vibrant youth. For an instant your previous thoughts and doubts disappear and you yield, luxuriating in being kissed in this way.
"Now, take off your clothes."
"What..?" You had hoped things would go more slowly, idyllically...
"Pia, either you take off your clothes now or I will have to do it. And if I have to do it I can assure you that neither you nor your clothes will like it one bit."
"No. Not yet. I don't want to. Not yet...I want to go for a walk outside." You move to get up.
I assert myself in my usual and practiced manner. Slow and controlled, I take hold of your wrists, the first clear act of physical domination, then take out handcuffs from my pocket and clip your wrists behind your back. You do not resist but look straight ahead and agitatedly but softly, almost under your breath, exclaim "What do you think you are doing!?"
I do not answer but take hold of your hair again and carefully pull you up onto your feet and over to a wooden post in the centre of the room. I unfasten the handcuffs and refasten them with your hands cuffed behind the post.
I leave you wedded to the post and go back into the bedroom. Because I am gone you feel a strong reality check, a swell of shame at having allowed this to happen, then waves of defiance invade you. You grapple for the safety catches on the handcuffs, but there are none. These are different from the ones in Heidelberg. There is no way of opening them without the key. The first pangs of frustration.