Permanent Slavery Journey
Upon owner's order what follows is the story of this slave's (age 60) path to permanent slavery. And the life, 7 years in May 2020, of slavery.
Owner's Order: Write the story of your history with female domination. How it led to my taking permanent ownership of you. What your life of slavery has been. This one time you are released to be, and must be, totally open and honest in the details, and expressions of your thoughts and feelings.
My reaction to the Order
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Thrilled owner assigned me this duty. Determined to follow it to the letter. Fearful of owner's reaction to my honest thoughts and feelings. Scared she will abandon or sell me.
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Slavery is any system in which principles of property law are applied to people, allowing individuals to own, buy and sell other individuals, as a de jure form of property. A slave is unable to withdraw unilaterally from such an arrangement and works without remuneration.
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----- Chapter 5 : Crash & Burn, Dark Ages, Resurrection -----
1987 was first year of being dominated. Mistress Julie was wonderful. My limits were stretched. By November had even eaten her out in public at a BDSM club. Life seemed set.
Holidays were a high, till her daughter Laurie acted up. More assertive and pushy by the week. Last few months she had started to really boss me around. Not simple things like get a drink. Cleaning up her room. Had me do her homework once when Mistress Julie was out shopping with Betty. Constantly testing my obedience.
She was staying with us Christmas week. Her Dad was visiting his ailing Mom. Mistress Julie was getting cranky. She had gotten into the routine of receiving four to six hours of head a day. With Laurie here full time that was cut down to two or three.
While she was there ate dinner with them. Only time ever sitting at the table. One night she really acted up. Clearly mad at her Mom. Big argument.
From closet could not make out words. But it was a long loud argument. On and on. Finally got quiet. Tried to relax but was too charged up. Hours passed before I heard Mistress Julie enter.
She ignored me. Heard her vibrator. She occasionally used it while being eaten. But never solely while I lived with her. Bothered me greatly. Getting to be 10 PM or so.
Light came on. Door to closet opened and she opened the cage door. Said nothing. Clipped on collar and leash. Yanked me out toward the bed. Cuffed hands behind my back.
"Stand up and spread." She cuffed my ankles to the feet of the bed. Shoved my head onto the bed. Spread, cuffed, collared, and bent over. Never had all of those at the same time.
Made a show of getting out the short braided leather whip. We bought it from Tim. Had used it on me before. But only lightly. She came around behind me. First few hurt like hell. Tried to muffle myself in the bed. She paused and got a gag. Used it to mute me.
Could not count the strokes. Brain just went white hot. Just tried to survive. Ass and upper thighs started to give out with the pain. Bed held me up. She kept going.
Finally it stopped. She went out to the bathroom. Came back. A couple of towels put under me. Something dripped onto the wounds. Stung like holy hell. Kept on stinging.
Was released from all the bondage. Crawled into the cage and she threw a towel in with me. Padlocked me in. That usually was not done anymore.
Next morning heard her get up and get dressed. Sounds of them getting breakfast. Outer door opened and closed. A while later she returned. Opened up the closet and unlocked the cage. Dropped a bag on the floor.
"Wear one of those. You are on your own today." She left again. On her way out heard some words between them again. No shouting. Was not nice though.
Bag contained package of adult diapers. Put one on. Got jeans on, painfully. Threw a shirt on. Came out headed toward the bathroom.
Julie returned around 7 PM. Was still in the bedroom on the floor. She came in and kicked me in the ass.
"What are you doing? Why isn't my dinner ready? Laurie said you wouldn't make her lunch. Dishes are still in the sink."
Knelt in front of her. "Please this is not right."
"It is what I want. Leave if you do not like it."
Took a minute to decide. Left. Could not handle her daughter around. All she allowed me to take were the clothes on my back and my coat.
Depressed. Walked a little. No money. Just had my drivers license. Realized it was Christmas Eve. No way was I going to spoil Betty's holiday. Couldn't walk too far. Butt and legs were killing me. Decided to go spend the night in Penn Station with the homeless.
-- Dark Ages --
Will not recount here. Just a synopsis. Betty and Randy took me in and got me back on my feet. Quit my job. Found an IT job in New Jersey.
Vowed to never try again. For twenty seven years did not date. Internet made the porn easier and cheaper. Moved several times for new jobs. Did well financially. Not going out helps save money.
NJ to Tampa then Fort Lauderdale Florida. End of 2010 got laid off. Decided to just hang out a while. Walked on the beach most early mornings. Lot's of reflection.
Turned out to be two years. Burned through much of my savings. But had a small New York State pension. And had two small 401K accounts.
2012 got a job offer in Atlanta. Took it. Real nice big city but with a more relaxed southern lifestyle. People there are nice and polite. Move was easy. Had few personal items. Everything fit in my Honda Accord.
That year was great. Found a nice apartment on the outer loop. Rode MARTA to work. Buried myself in work. Was a contract to hire. They were thrilled with me. Three months in had a nice deal paying me more than any other IT Senior Admin there. Was set.
Betty Randy and I had drifted apart over the last fifteen years. They had two kids now. Hikes and play were in the past. But Betty and I still talked on the phone every few weeks.
Christmas call 2012. Betty tried again. She was sad I was alone. Had not visited them in over ten years. No friends outside work. Had settled into my solitary existence.
She got me to agree to try. And made a suggestion. Asked me if I knew what a Sugar Baby was. Laughed at that. Atlanta was Sugar Baby central. She encouraged me to look at sugar baby dating sites. Find a regular girl, have a date and sex every week or two. Making good money so could afford it.
Promised I would. Old dogs do learn new tricks. Maybe.
-- Resurrection --
Tried a couple of the SB sites in January. Most looked like college girls. At 53 not sure how I felt about that. Did search for BDSM. Most of those were Pro Dominatrixes looking for new customers. Found out after some messages that there were a lot of vanilla looking ads from prostitutes.
Talked to a few on the phone. Met one for dinner. Nice but not interesting in any way.
Tried a few more over the month. None of them seemed plausible. Met a couple more. No spark. Yes know I am stupid. Expecting or wanting a spark. But if not why pay? Vanilla sex was no better for me than masturbation to porn.
March rolled around and decided to try a hookup site. Yes Ashley Madison. Sent out several messages. Not really expecting much. One response from a pretty African American women listed as 35. Went back and forth a couple of weeks. Told her was really looking only for a traditional sugar baby. Seems that clicked with her. Gave her my cell.