I couldn't believe it, after all these months there he was. Striding in through the glass door of the bar in just his shirt and slacks - he must've come straight from the office. My heart pumped hard in my chest and for a minute I am sure I lost my vision. Pathetic really. I tried my best to focus on my friends' words, but I couldn't hear anything but my heart beating and my breath shortening.
"Alice, I am sorry, but Adrian just walked in." I said quickly and quietly, my eyes lowering to my drink.
"What!? Where?" She looked around puzzled.
"He's at the bar, don't look round so obviously!" I rolled my eyes at her and laughed.
"Penny you have to go up there," She looked back at me.
"-And say what!?" My hand in the air, asking the question too.
"Hey, miss this?" She pointed at her ass,
"isn't it cute?" she giggled and stuck her tongue out at me.
My mouth was so dry. Fuck. He looked so good, all stubble and had ordered his usual on the rocks.
"Penny you really loved him, it's natural to feel so flustered" She touched my hand, her massive blue eyes looking at me with so much affection. I cleared my throat,
"I know, but he broke our trust, not me. He won't be interested in talking to me now anyway." as the words left my lips he caught eyes with me, smiled and raised his hand to wave. I panicked and smiled widely, then suddenly looked away back to Alice.
"Girl, what the fuck am I doing?" I gasped into my drink, clutching the stem of the glass and swallowing down the rest of it too fast.
"I don't know but he's on his way over-" She smiled & waved over her shoulder at him.
"FUCK! FUCK FUCK, NO! I am not ready" I gasped again.
"Babe, it's too late, or we can leave right now?" She looked at me, faking a smile as if getting ready to face the enemy.
"Penny! I wasn't expecting to see you here! Alice, how are you?" Adrian asked. Fuck. It was too late. He was already at the table. I couldn't speak, I just smiled, a moment ran by and as I opened my mouth to attempt uttering a word, Alice helped me out.
"I am SO good thanks Adrian, how are you? Long time no see!" She chirped at him. My mind went into overdrive as they chit chatted for a minute, Jesus, I had to snap out of this! What was wrong with me? My thoughts raced and I suddenly sparked! If I went to the bar I could get more alcohol (which was now clearly very needed) and I could calm myself.
"Alice, do you want the same again?" I stood up abruptly, adjusting my skirt down and smiling at them both as I reached across in front of him to pick up her glass. Close enough, but I didn't actually touch him.
"Can I get you one?" I asked, looking up at him. Trying to keep eye contact - god his eyes were so fucking intense. I felt my legs weaken. It felt like an eternity for him to answer and all the time I held eye contact waiting for his response.
"Let me get this round, I am pushing myself into your evening after all." He smiled - my legs weakened further.
"Oh you're joining us now?" I laughed, raising an eyebrow at him, feeling a little more like myself,
"I'll go with you as you don't know what we've been having". He picked up the glasses and gestured for me to lead. I felt quite powerful going first. He was getting a nice view of my ass and I made sure to flick my hair back over my shoulders so he could see how silky it was. Did I want to make him think about regretting cheating and dumping me? Yeah, I did, forgive me for being a little desperate in my actions. Was it working? Who can tell with him. I tried to sway my hips a little (I know, I am honestly rolling my eyes at myself too, in my own head, but I kept doing it nonetheless!). As I reached the bar the server asked me if I wanted the same again I smiled sweetly and said,
"Yes please, but can I also order 4 extra shots?whatever is cheapest". Adrian interjected physically with a raised hand and verbally;
"No, not whatever is cheapest, I am buying these, the ladies will have a top shelf bottle." He smiled as he stood next to me, his hip leaning on the bar, facing me. Fuck. He's been keeping up with his workouts, he looked so fit under his clothes. I loved how he always made sure his clothes actually fitted him, a lot of guys wear clothing too baggy.
"So how have you been Penny, you didn't answer me before, is it OK I came over? You smiled so I thought it would be OK?" He seemed genuinely concerned.
"It's no problem at all, I am actually doing OK thank you, I got a promotion recently and have been in the gym consistently the last few months-" He took my hands in his and lifted them apart, looking me up and down, as if I was choosing to present myself to him.
"You honestly look amazing, I can see you've been hard at work" He smirked whilst his eyes softened. My heart restarted jumping. I blushed and looked away.
"Oh stop it!" I took my hands away from his, giggling. I felt myself ease and calm slightly.
"How are you?" I asked, recomposing myself and smiling up at him. He used to love my big brown eyes looking up at him.
"I am doing really well, better than ever in fact. I also got that promotion I was hunting down." He almost seemed to flex all of his muscles at the same time, he had every right to be proud he always worked extremely hard both in the boardroom and the gym.
"Congratulations, so well deserved for you..." I looked away to check on Alice who was now being chatted up by some cute guy with curly hair, a bit young for my taste - can't have been much over 21.
The barman started to assemble our tray of shots and then shook the cocktail mixer. Adrian took both my hands again and started to rub small soft circles with his thumbs over the backs of them. That felt nice. Maybe he was still interested in me? I couldn't lie and say I hadn't been able to masturbate without thinking of him until maybe the last couple of months. Our relationship had been fast, hot, and intense. We had a LOT of incredible sex. Nobody fucked me like he did, nobody could keep up with me normally, he was the only one that on occasion I'd have to beg to stop before he caused me damage and I really missed that. Not to mention when we started getting kinkier. Fuck! I could feel my needy little clit start to stir between my legs and my heart suddenly felt confused.
"Penelope, I have to say, whilst I have this opportunity of having you alone quickly, I am sorry for how things ended between us," He kept caressing the backs of my hands whilst his gaze remained fixed on my face. My heart dropped to my feet and I couldn't look him in the eye anymore. He did seem authentic. I dropped my shoulders back and down as I breathed out and looked back up at him, as if resetting myself.
"Hey, it's Friday night, let's not get weighed down by dragging up the past... I am sorry it ended that way too." I smiled. He pulled my right hand up to his lips and kissed it.
"You really are a diamond, you have nothing to be sorry for, I was the assho-" He started when,
"All ready for you, that'll be 45.50" the barman interrupted abruptly, and I was actually grateful for the pressure to be off for a second.
Back at the table Alice had started getting quite friendly with her new found 22 year old friend, Jim.
"Penny, you need to meet Jim!" She grabbed my hand as I approached the table and sat me next to her and introduced us all.
"This is Penny, my bestie & Adrian her... err... ex." She took the pause to fire me a look that made me aware she'd seen the hand holding etc. I shot her a look back and smiled at Jim, shook his hand and made polite conversation whilst Adrian handed out the drinks.