SENT: Friday, 13. November at 5:18 AM
FROM: Curator TO: Emily SUBJECT: Re: following instructions
Hi Emily,
It took me some time to fall asleep. I spent a long time thinking about you and how you would reply which made me horny. I'm happy to say that my expectations were more than surpassed.
Yes, I live in central Europe and a 6-hour time difference restrains our interactions. When its bed time in D.C. and you are horny, I'll annoyingly be asleep. Consequently, I'll have to instruct you as detailed as possible to carry out one complete session a day.
Yesterday after work I went for a run and then had dinner with the daughter of my lately passed away cousin. I would have liked to spend more time writing you and further discuss boundaries and other pressing issues. It is hard for me to switch between languages and reply straightforward without reviewing what I wrote, checking grammar and spelling, often twice, because If anything I don't want to sound sloppy. I know I will get better in time though.
I do very much care for you. Usually I keep my distance to people, even those I like, maybe because I am afraid to get hurt. But you shared your intimate thoughts and made me a part of your submission when you followed the instructions. I would have liked to be present with you in the shower, to cuddle you at the end and hold you in my arms until you fell asleep. I feel deprived not being with you, holding you, and gently and slowly teasing you all the way to new levels of ecstasy. The barriers between us are daring for our future but I like a good challenge and want to see how much of the walls keeping us apart I can tear down.
Initially I thought it nice to have someone to try out the follow up on the Online slave training instructions No. 1, which, by the way, I have had little time to write (now finally I am taking my sparse free time to work on the next submission). But you are not a project. You are becoming my submissive. I feel responsible to guide you and give instructions to make you a happy slave.
Go ahead and write as long as you want to. I'm happy to read anything you want to share with me. Loved all the naughty parts so far and I would like to get to know you better. I want to stress out that buy things is not a must. You agreed to serve me as a slave, but I leave it up to you to consent to further invasions into your life. Like eventually doing a webchat or using a camera once there is enough trust on both sides. Let me stress this out again: If you don't want to, it's fine. No hard feelings. On our friendship level, I don't want any pressure from both sides, neither to please me nor to "behave like a true submissive". I want your informed and educated consent free from pressure and lust.
I find nothing more repulsive than persuasion and mental pressure from a self-proclaimed dom. And I'm not the kind of know-it-all über-dom demanding complete submission. I know how to distinguish fantasy from what you can live up to in real life, though the limits can be pushed to great extent. And so I ask of you only to submit to me on a level you can deal with at the moment. Should you want to go deeper, I'll see to it to take the lead. Remember that the rules are up for renegotiations and change as we play along and if you are uncomfortable with something, tell me in the vanilla section.
I was tempted to allow you more free vanilla space, but you should be able to tell me anything private in the non-vanilla part as well ultimately. Anything you want to share with a friend I want my aspiring slave to be able to share with her Master. The vanilla part is to speak out freely, to voice objections and express concern. And no judgement for such or from your quirks and shortcomings as a person, I promise. Growing a meaningful friendship, built on trust and honesty, makes it real and meaningful. And therefore, I need to be aware of how you feel about what I ask of you as a friend and as a slave. I would like to listens to your worries and troubles and can make you forget the world and let yourself fall into my domination every once in a while.
While we are at it: Since you liked the training instructions that much you are ok with having to ask for permission to come. This will often mean having to wait for the next day. Again, are you ok with that? (Just checking to make sure ) If you feel that this is not how you imagine yourself submitting to me than tell me.
For a start, I would like you to buy some cuffs, preferably in leather. Cuffs that can be locked with small padlocks. How do you feel about this? As mentioned, I would help you with finding a good set that is within your budget. In the end, it's up to you.
How do you feel about being monitored? I want to check how you carried out my orders. Normally, without the time difference, I would require you to ask for each orgasm separately. But since there is a 6-hour time delay, I sense it is reasonable to relax this rule about coming. Once I gave you permission, you have half an hour to come as often as you can after your first orgasm. I understand that when you are extremely horny it would be a harsh to deny you coming again when you were obedient and well-behaved and still crave to come after a first orgasm, especially when the experience is really intense.
As to my hobbies: I go running and do stretching and yoga. Love to read anything from old literature to textbooks. Scripture is awesome, but math can be pretty decent as well. At least once you got the hang of it. When I'm not writing (you), I am torn between doodling on my whiteboard to manipulate lipids and diving into small and big worlds created by narratives.
This summer I read the Martian and Starship troopers and Lean in and Ready Player One and other books for research on a non-fiction book I was trying to write, but sadly had no time to finish. I intend to work on it next semester when I have less work to do and can better focus. Work and my dissertation are taking up most of my time and there are social obligations and xxx.
Two years ago I broke my elbow and can't do any sports with a racket or anything that puts too much pressure on my arms any more. Still, I can carry a full twenty-piece crate of beer bottles and can lift weights without any problems as long as I am careful. For a time after the accident I was handicapped, but now I can use my whips, canes and stuff again. It was frustrating not being able to dish out pain with my right hand and my aim on the left only gradually improved ;). Btw you should find two more kink related photos of me attached, I think after your very good after-action report you more than deserve to receive them.
Hopefully, I made myself clear and got the subtleties right. I can be very picky about words. I would love to know more words and have a richer understanding of the nuances each carries along. But that's another reason why I like writing to you so much. Can you give me a short feedback on my use of English and where improvement is due? That would help me a lot.
Please note: I don't like being sugarcoated. I want my shortcomings pointed out so I can work on them. Working on my pronunciation will be tougher though. Imagine me reading this letter with a thick musky accent that resembles more Russian than German origin, a guttural flexing when I speak. Now you must think of my accent as being horrible and intimidating. I'm pointing no fingers, but my childhood English teachers overemphasized writing to cover their own deficiencies. It's pretty hard to unlearn pronunciations once it sank in. My French and Italian pronunciations in contrast are better. More passionate teachers and being in the country where you want to emulate the language helps it turns out. Ok boasting part over, my English pronunciation is terrible, point.
Now it is me wondering if I wrote you too much; I felt I owe you a longer reply of what is on my mind when I am thinking about you. I kindly ask you to be patient when I have other duties preventing me from replying fast or giving a more thorough response.
You will receive your instructions for today later. I need some time to come up with thorough instructions for a proper training (what I want to become Slave Training Instructions No.2). Once I've sent them to you, tell me if you can perform the tasks properly.
Back to work, some chemicals need to be tended to in a minute or the sample might yet again be ruined.
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When I wrote you the instructions yesterday I was already excited and felt horny the rest of the day at work even though you haven't replied yet. It's the thrill of dominating you, literally, not merely suggesting a game. To be honest, I could not stop thinking how you will deal with my commands. Will they make you as horny and craving as I intended? To my delight, I read your response and appreciated the details how my orders were carried out and what was happening in your mind and body while doing so. Especially laudable is that you imagined me being the one who fondled with your breasts and toyed with your pussy. Even though this is a lot of praise, you did an excellent job and I think you deserve a reward, but more on that later.
Sincerely,
Your Master
SENT: Friday, 13. November at 08:05 AM
FROM: Emily TO: Curator SUBJECT: distance and proximity
I like the Vanilla part - and also the length of it. It lets me write in my usual tone, let some of my other personality quirks out. But limiting it means that I pick each word a little more carefully. Your English is good! I understand about pronunciation, took Latin so I wouldn't have to talk! The things I have noticed don't pop out until I reread your emails. Occasionally there is a plural where it should be singular, or the subject/verb don't agree - so a plural subject but singular verb. And a few times you mix up words that sound the same but are spelled differently, or words that are similar. (Were/where. Quiet/quite). And a few idiomatic things, like where extra words are unnecessary (eg "two dozen of other books" The "of" isn't needed). I am truly terrible at learning foreign languages. And English is a stupid language that doesn't even follow its own rules! (158 is close, ish)
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Dear Curator,
Good morning! (I guess it is your afternoon, so good afternoon!). I'm going to try to respond to the rest of your email here, working on phrasing correctly for your slave. Please let me know where I might miss the mark.
I am glad you liked the story Master! That is a relief - I was worried and It took me a long time to fall asleep last night as well. I was too wound up thinking of you and if you were up and reading it. And I woke up before my alarm! I never do that, Curator. I'm not so much a morning person. Needless to say, I was excited to read your response. And it's good because now I have some down time before I have to go to work.
Master, I'm sorry about your cousin. Losing family is hard, I know, I was recently at my Grandmother's funeral. This reminds me that I need to call my Grandpa. Thank you for sharing, I appreciate getting to know you better. And it made me happy to know that you spend time with your family. I hope dinner was enjoyable, Curator. And I hope you weren't too distracted by thoughts of me (okay, maybe a little distracted!).
I care for you too Master, I am so very glad I reached out after reading, and so much more glad you followed up. I'm excited to see where this goes. I am proud of myself for being open and honest and am very, very grateful that you are so receptive and understanding. I also wish you had been there when I followed your instructions. I want to make you happy by being good and following where you lead. And learning also by being myself.
I'm happy to buy things, and happy for the guidance on the right things to buy! Just nothing too crazy expensive. :) I'm okay with web chats and cameras, but not yet. Eventually as trust and the relationship build. This is something we both need to be careful with. Master, I adore that you want me to be able to talk about anything. I know over time I will. Hopefully that can go both ways.
It is good that you don't demand my submission outside of consented areas, Sir. I wouldn't be able to give any more and with the time difference I think it would be impossible anyway. I am enjoying the exercise of talking about normal things while also trying to be submissive. It is different to my normal writing, but hopefully I'm managing.
Master, I am perfectly okay with waiting for permission to cum. I like having no control in that, although I probably won't always be perfect. Sometimes temptation will be too much. But I'll try! And I will accept any punishment you deem fitting when I inevitably fail. I will let you know if any command is too much or too hard or I have to raise objection in some way. Lying about such things would be a waste of time Master. But you also need to let me know when I'm falling short.
