**All characters in this story are over 18 years of age.**
Get down on your knees. Down on the carpet. You know this floor well, in your childhood bedroom. Keep quiet now.
I know what you would do in here, growing up. I know how you would leave dinner early to come up here. You would shut the door, climb into bed and pull the covers up to your chin, while underneath, unknown to anyone, you were exploring yourself, opening your legs to feel the moisture clinging to your swollen lips, the parts of your hidden from everyone, the parts you had not yet learned to name. Back then, this part of you was before language, was just sensation and feeling and oh god how you were surprised by all that slick syrupy wetness.
You were taught mostly by brightly colored magazines, claiming they were for fashion advice and makeup tips, but that was just a cover. The feel of the slick paper and the smell of the perfume samples inside would make your heart beat just a little bit faster. You knew, as soon as you were alone, you would part their pages and delve into the tips and stories about sex. There you learned, there you found how to touch yourself, how to make your body shake and tremble and cry out in ways that had to be muffled because no one, no not anyone, especially no one in this house could ever, ever know what went on in this bedroom.
Those magazines would pile up on this floor in piles, their glossy pages nearly dripping with secrets about the ways a women could be fucked. You tried to guard them by chasing any family members away from your room β "out, out, out!" Inside you were churning.
Keep quiet now, and listen. No one will hear us. I know all about the experiments that went on in this room, how you angled your mirror so you could lay on the floor and watch yourself as you opened yourself up, so you could see your fingers dance across your shimmery slippery swollen little clit. You gasped and groaned and made quite unladylike noises, didn't you, my little slut? And you were desperate to know what it felt like to be taken, to be filled and fucked like a woman, like a whore, like a tramp.
That desperation led to the clichΓ©s, the substitutes β the cucumber, the hairbrush, the anything that might fit, that might stand in for that warm, hard sensation that you ached for.
And when you finally got it, when you were 20 and your hidden lips were fully, finally parted by someone else, it wasn't here. It could never be here, never at home. And it was rarely good, was it?
All that passion and desire wasted on fumbling boys, too full of themselves to truly fill you, too afraid of themselves to risk really exposing you, to see you. It still amazes me that not one of them made you take your shirt off to revel in those luscious round tits, that are now dangling off of your chest, swollen and ripe, inches from the floor.