Inhale.
Exhale.
Repeat.
The room is silent, and my mind is clear of all thoughts unrelated to serving and worshipping you. This space is our sacred temple. Everything but my instinctual need to serve you is left at the door. You and I are all that exist here. A dance to a meticulously written song that enchants us into another realm.
A realm where you are superior.
A God.
And I your Goddess.
I kneel and wait patiently for you to walk in and receive your worship. You had a hard day and it's the least you deserve. I kneel in a Nadu position, legs spread. I'm exposed and ready, clothed in nothing but my trust for you.
My shoulders instantly relax when you walk into the space, and I feel your presence. I inhale a deep breath to replace the one you metaphorically sucker punched out of me. You never fail to take my breath away.
I look up at you when you stand before me. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to keep a straight composure with you wearing nothing but that pair of gray sweatpants.
You make me weak.
I pull my bottom lip between my teeth and squint my face up at you. The self control to not crawl the distance between us and please you in the most ravenous, whoreish ways is exceptionally impressive. But what can I say? I've learned from the best.
I wait for you to say or do something. Instead, you just stand there making the situation weird. You hold my eyes in an intense stare. I know you're being serious but the need to laugh itches my brain. I know what will happen if I laugh, but I never said my self control was as tip top as yours.
I attempt to bite my lips together and hide the smile that's forcing its way through. You don't budge with your staring, and you definitely do not find any of this amusing.
My cheeks raise in a smile and my eyes widen in hopes that acting cute will counteract any frustrations you may develop.
You widen your eyes back at me and shake your head.
A mocking warning.
I know what I have to lose, and the right now me is willing to sacrifice it and beg you for forgiveness when the time comes. I bust out into an uncontrollable laughter. Leaning forward with my torso hunched over my thighs, my ass is up, and my guard down.
Lost in my senseless acts I don't notice you leave your place in front of me. My laughter contorts into a lustful, moan laced scream when you force your cock into my needy hole. You have a hand in my hair forcing my head down to the floor. The other hand is dug painfully into my hip. I'm pinned.
Bound by you.
Our breaths are in sync as we remain in a silent pause. "You will beg me to cum after I'm done using your holes and filling you with my piss and cum. You probably won't be able to, but you will still beg." You slowly pull out and slam back into me with a force that would've pushed me forward if you didn't have a hold of me. "Tell me you'll be my good little piss whore."
Humiliation. A fun dance. "Master, I'll be your good little piss whore." My voice is distorted by the position of my face against the floor. The shameful words come out like I'm a slurring idiot.
This time you laugh at me. My body blushes with red embarrassment. "I couldn't understand you. Try that again." You push down on my face slightly harder making the efforts to talk even more challenging than before. I say the words again with the confidence of a fool.
You put a pause on the humiliation and roughly fuck me like you are dueling out a revengeful attack where your end game is to split me into two. There is nothing slow and gentle about it. You are using me as if I'm a breathing fuck toy.
A thing.
I'd be worried if this wasn't what you chose to do. You are a sadist after all, and I adore and serve every face you decide to wear. Each one brings a different type of pleasure and connection. A deeper sense of trust and servitude. It would be an egotistical lie if I said some parts of you aren't brutal at times, but I flourish when I hurt for you.
"My High Priestess." You laugh under your breath villainously, and I feel it everywhere like fingertips touching my most sensitive places. "It seems you need to be saved again. A reminder of who it is that you worship since you find my presence amusing." You're close. The cracking in your voice is a dead giveaway.
You stop just before I know you're about to cum, modeling your expectations of me in your dignified actions.
You pull out and stand. "Sit back up into your position." You command.
I gather myself, shake off the lustful bubble I was absorbed in, and kneel in my Nadu position with a composure of respect that you deserve.
I'm no idiot. I laughed at you. Being humiliated and not being able to cum will be the cherry on top of the rest of the hellfire you're about to make me walk through.
Crouching down before me, you push my disheveled hair behind my ear and study me like a masterpiece of a painting that you cherish. This time I don't find the intensity of your stare humorous. I get lost in your brown eyes like they are traps of honey.
My Daddy.
I disassociate into a deep admiration of you.
"Thank me for using you." Like a rude awakening you force my head into your words like they are a tub of water.
Another switch of the stage as you put on a new face for our next dance.
I find and hold your eyes with confidence and genuine gratitude. "Thank you Master for using me like your favorite fuck toy." I muster my best angelic look as if I'm an innocent that isn't begging you with my eyes to fuck me until I can no longer remember my name.
There is no praise that follows. You don't even acknowledge my existence in that moment as you walk away. Rewards are earned, and even when they are earned. They may never come. That was one of the first lessons you taught me. But little do you know, pleasing you is the biggest gift. I still win.
Your rejection ignites a twisted flame inside of my veins that fuels my need to please you further. It's a necessity to my existence.
You take a seat in the armless chair in the corner of the room gesturing me over with a crook of your index finger. "Crawl to me."
One hand in front of the other I make my way to you in a slow, seductive crawl. You're naked and relaxed. Your cock hard. You sit with confidence like you're clothed in a high end Brioni suit. Sat upon a thrown made of gold with a room full of those that serve you. All on their knees saying your name like a prayer. Your Divine Masculinity radiates like a beacon that calls to my soul.
I stop in front of you and fix myself up upon my knees. I reach for your cock, but you swat my hand away. Astonished, I pull my head back and ask so many things with my eyes. I don't dare question you verbally. I'm in enough of a situation. But you've never denied my efforts to please you.
More rejection.
This time you are manipulating a need that you imprinted into my mind. Serve and please you over all things. Nothing gets in the way of that.
This pain sucks. And now that you are aware just how much. You have another advantage in your pocket.
I hate this pain.
I can mask my emotions in front of you all I want. Shuffle through my many faces. But you aren't that easily fooled. I'm feeling the exact emotions you intended for me to feel. You know what you're doing. I trust your lead and follow.
I swallow my shame and await an explanation that may never come.
"Filthy hands of a sinner have no place on my cock." The look of disgust you give me is equivalent to a kick in the tit. Dead on with a steal toed boot. When physical pain feels like home, this is what you get. Metaphorical mental blows that hurt more than anything physical ever could. But just like I find solace in the physical, the mental is a close second home.
I can end this when I want. I hold the key to this temple, but I know you wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle. You insured that. Instilled your trust to get me through when I start to doubt myself.
You bend down and get directly in my face. Nose to nose. Your lips float just above mine. Not touching, but we are stealing breaths. I lean in and kiss your lips, but you don't kiss me back. My tears betray me, but I keep a straight face.
This is intense.