As the days pass, Vaia's life is miserable. But it is, at least, not frightening. Not for now.
When her file transfer got cut off, she thought she would get another stormy telling-off for trying to send the message. But instead, a chat window popped up from the admin. He told her that he'd stopped the transfer when he spotted it, and that she shouldn't try it again. But he also said he wouldn't tell anyone else about it. He even told her that most of the message had got through!
Vaia knew very well that the system didn't work like that. But he even went as far as showing the message logs confirming its receipt at the Spire! He'd helped her out. She thanked him. And again later when she saw him in person in the canteen. He pretended that he had no idea what for.
She'd always liked Fonso. He should be clan boss, she thought. But he wasn't assertive enough.
It was a nice reminder that there were some people in her clan who still liked no matter what. For whom all this nonsense made no difference. They didn't think she was mad, or dirty, or depraved... Or whatever else others thought. Not for a moment.
A nice reminder, yes.
Not that she gets many others.
She continues to be confined to the compound. When her chores take her anywhere near any of its exits, she can tell that she's being watched.
A lot of people don't want to talk to her at all. She tries to strike up conversations in the canteen, to start with, determined to try to combat the gossip. People -- friends, she'd thought! -- actually stand up, and move somewhere else, when she sits down to join them! When people
are
willing to talk to her, it usually turns out to be because they want the chance to throw some barb at her. Some nasty joke about tying her up, mostly.
Her frustration grows, and she finds that she gives up, going to the canteen when it's quiet, and eating alone. She's always been totally happy with algal food, but now it seems tasteless and dull. A chore to eat. Though she knows it's not really the new food she tried that she's missing.
She considers refusing to do her chores in protest at her arbitrary treatment. But she isn't sure how Manfred or Brega would react to that. She doesn't want to give them an excuse to form a common front against her. Especially if it's one that includes Doctor Frank.
Besides, doing her share of tasks around the compound gives her chances to talk to people privately. Most of them still do everything they can to avoid conversations though. At best, they say there's nothing to be done about the situation. She just needs to accept her punishment, deserved or not.
She can't believe it. Is no one willing to be in her corner? Has this place always been like this, and she's just never seen it this way before? In the past, it never seemed to her that her clan was so oppressed. People had been prepared to speak their minds. Hadn't they?
Increasingly, she spends almost all her time in her room. Not an entirely new thing for her, in any case. She refuses to let herself do any studying. It's a futile form of protest, as no one notices, but she does it anyway.
No head-set. No drugs. No hive-wide connection. She feels bereft for a while.
But there's still the internal system.
She fires up
Underhive
.
Fonso put the game on the system. She'd wondered once if he'd made it himself, but he told her that, no, it was a fork of one of the oldest computer games ever made. Almost as old as space flight.
She hasn't touched it in so long. It turns out that it's still fun. Nothing like the real Underhive, but that's not really the point.
It uses the system's standard character set as symbols to represent the spaces, people, objects and creatures of level after randomised level of
Underhive
. She makes a Goliath as a character, and, smiling to herself, names her Rebeck. Of course, she gets her killed in no time. That's just how this game goes, especially when you haven't played it in a long time.
Sash is next.
As Sash, she gets lucky, finding a hand flamer. She burns her way through scavs and easy mutants, until she gets overrun by a horde of Orlock gangers. She needs to pay attention to stealth and detection to get very far, she remembers.
Supposedly, the game ends on its 100th level, where there is a final boss called the Smuggler Queen.
Underhive
was the only place where Vaia had encountered a myth about such a person.
Fonso, assigned to monitor her, or having assigned himself, notices that she's playing it and opens a chat.
F: ( nice to see you playing that again =) )
V: ( maybe by the time i beat the SQ, i'll be allowed out again? )
F: ( there are worse ways to pass your sentence, rite? Better than that headset junk! )
V: ( it's different. I guess i was due a break from head-sets )
F: ( yeah. You've been using those too much, haven't you? Don't go back to them, pls, V )
V: ( well, i just got a taste of real life! Wouldn't care about head-sets at all if they weren't keeping me from it....I gotta get out, Fons )
F: ( some of us have got your back, V. Just stay strong )
V: ( ty, F )
V: ( i need to tell you something. I'm scared that they will send me back to the clinic. I don't want to be alone with Dr Frk )
There's a pause before any reply comes.
F: ( understood, V. I promise, i'll make sure that doesn't happen. I'll bust the guy up myself if i have to! )
Vaia grins at the idea of pudgy Fonso punching someone. But then, one of his hobbies was needle guns... Fonso's promise was actually very reassuring!
F: ( V, if things don't work out like you hope, i can put in a word. Try to get you assigned to sys admin with me )
V: ( i don't know if they'd let me do that. But thank you. That sounds like it would be nice. :) )
V: ( so, got any tips for keeping a Goliath @ alive? )
F: ( i don't remember. I mostly use advanced chars these days. Sometimes a VS to be overpowered ;) )
V: ( there are advanced characters!?!? )
F: ( only once you've beaten the SQ ;) )
V: ( ohhh. Can you tell me what they are? )
F: ( no, my secret society would kill me :P )
V: ( awww :( )
F: ( lemme see. Basics are just the six great houses, yep? )
V: ( yeah. Plus a generic bounty hunter )
F: ( oh. Of course. BH is actually very strong. First char i won with )
F: ( advanced? There's a lot of them. Redemptionist. Ratskin. Ash nomad. Spyrer. Squat. Ratling... )
F: ( you can even be a scav! )
V: ( gross! xP )
F: ( yeah. I think scav is the hardest difficulty. And it's just not fun to play )
F: ( then there's the uber-powerful ones. Space Marine, etc )
V: ( you can be a Space Marine? )
V: ( isn't that a complete walk-over? )
F: ( yeah, well, once you've beaten the game, it can be refreshing to play as something rly powerful )
F: ( plus, it suckers you in. You're not invincible, but you feel like you are )
F: ( then you make a dumb mistake and BOOM! yasd )
YASD. 'Yet another stupid death'. A common phrase among Underhive players.
F: ( there are heresy forks out there too. Play as a genestealer, or whatever )
F: ( but i prefer the main fork. Not censorship. It's just, the game's about loot, rite? And 'stealers can't even hold guns! )
V: ( okay. I want to check this out. I'm gonna try to beat it, F! )
F: ( gl! )
V: ( l8r )
Vaia creates another Rebeck.
***
The next day, when it's her turn in the rota to drain the sump, Vaia finally runs into Manu. He's been avoiding her. Not this time. She grabs him by the shoulder before he can go anywhere.
"Hello, Vaia," he sighs.
"Talk to me, Manu."
"Look, we didn't roll over on you, okay?"
"Then how did Manfred suddenly know so much?"
Manu looks angry for a moment that Vaia really might believe that he'd sold her out. "I'm not certain. But I heard that someone saw your collar. Someone who used to be into that, I suppose. Or still is, for all I know. They knew what it meant, and started telling people. When Manfred heard, he hauled me and Joak in."
"So you did rat me out!"
"No! Well... All I did was say which club we took you to. Unfortunately..."