I wasn't at all surprised that she was right about my feelings. Sunday evening was fine. I was still on a high from the afternoon. I had a couple of beers and slept like a log. The next few days were weird though. I felt slightly divorced from the world and my mind was wondering to places I knew it shouldn't. I wanted that rush again, why would she deny me that? What right did she have? I looked at my chastity cage and resented it for the first time. I tried briefly to remove it but it was hopeless and that made me angry. Ma'am sent a couple of emails and I gave monosyllabic replies. I thought it through logically and our relationship made sense. The chastity, the pain and bondage, they were all things that I wanted. Was I becoming one of those top from the bottom types? I hoped not. I sent her a text on Tuesday evening just saying I needed to talk.
My phone rang 10 seconds later.
"Hey baby, what's happening? How are you?"
I could hear the worry in her voice and felt a little ashamed. I tried to explain but couldn't really. Then I started to apologise for for being needy and stupid.
"Hey hey. Take a second baby. Everything is OK. There's a term for this, you're suffering from a form of sub drop."
She explained that there was quite often a low feeling after a high. It happens to Dommes too. It happened in different ways to all sorts of people. Sports people were a good example. After they had achieved something amazing, won the Olympics or the world cup they often felt empty after the euphoria. She told me that in reality I probably wasn't feeling down, I just wasn't up. I had to find my equilibrium again.
"It will come back baby, don't worry. You are young and you don't have much experience of dealing with strong emotions. I wish I could be there to give you a hug, I really do."
Her words had calmed me down. I was struggling with my own emotions but the sports analogy made sense and I could understand that. I apologised again. She said,
"Don't worry about that. You know I'm here for you, don't you? This is just a little blip. You've been amazing, you've been on such a steep learning curve and handled it brilliantly. I'm so proud of you baby."
I was feeling better now. She understood what I was going through. She cared and wanted to help me. She told me that normality was important. Do normal things and keep to a routine. Keep busy. I thanked her profusely and she told me to let her know how I was doing.
I was back, I woke up on Wednesday feeling good. A combination of her kindness, her training and ultimately my submissive nature brought me back to where I needed to be. Refreshed I threw myself into my studies. Ma'am told me she she very happy that I was doing well.
Ma'am said she could make it back this weekend but that our time together would be strictly limited. She was going to make certain that my time and energy was spent on revising and not on her. She told me to pop around just for a few hours on Saturday afternoon.
It was great to see her again. We kissed and cuddled, and I assured her that I was fine. She knew I had been studying hard of course.
She smiled and said, "I have got a friend staying over for the weekend."
There was a wicked glint in her eye and I realised she must mean Sarah.
"Oh, I see. Lovely." Looking around I couldn't see her.
"Come downstairs to the dungeon, she's down there."
I walked in and saw what I assumed was Sarah but it was hard to tell as she was covered head to toe in tight black latex. It was a stunning sight, I took it all in. She was wearing a latex catsuit that clearly fitted like a glove. Her thigh boots were laced tight and had impossibly high heels, not ballet boots but not far off. There was a tight latex hood over her head with a pony tail of hair protruding from the top. A metal posture collar kept her chin high and facing forward. Her waist was constricted by a very tight corset giving her an amazing hour glass figure. Skin was visible in 3 places. Her lips were contorted around a very large ball gag and there was drool running down her chin onto her chest. Her breasts were clearly held by the shape of the latex into a semi circular shape. There was a metal ring, probably about an inch in diameter through which her large and swollen looking nipples protruded. A crotch rope was tied very tightly between her legs, which were held about a foot apart by more rope.
"Turns out she has a huge fetish for heavy duty bondage along with sensory deprivation. I was more than happy to help her indulge. Quite the view, isn't it? Go and have a closer look, she doesn't know we are here. She's got ear plugs in. I walked over and saw the other embellishments that Ma'am had added. She was standing against the cross but not strapped to it directly, arms bound behind her with her wrists pointing up in a reverse prayer position. Her pony tail had rope intertwined with it and was held taught by the cross beam. Ropes also ran from the top of her corset and from the ropes around her waist to the cross. She could move but very little. If she bent her legs her head would be pulled back and the crotch rope would bite in even harder. A closer look at that revealed three ropes, 2 were on the outside of her exposed pussy, the other ran right through the middle. The effect was to crush her lips between them, They looked swollen although that might have been from arousal as much as the pressure. There was a large knot in the middle rope that was clearly pressed hard on her clit. Attached to the rope was what looked like a vibrator with a small control box hanging from her corset. Her breathing was shallow and she was rocking from side to side, trying to flex hers legs to relieve the strain of standing on such high heels.
Ma'am was beside me and said,
"She's been like that for 2 hours now. It must be hell. I've been popping down every 20 minutes or so to have some fun. I've been pumping her nipples which is why they look so swollen. They look ready for some torture now. Turn the vibe on, low setting."
The effect was profound. She jumped and squealed through the gag causing more drool to run down her chin. She was gasping, taking quick little breaths and making a high pitched whine each time she exhaled. Ma'am explained that as the rope was hard against her exposed clit the vibrations were super intense to the point of pain. She could basically be forced to have a painful orgasm if the vibe was left on. It would be later but not yet. I was stunned. Later? She had already been there for 2 hours! I felt some sympathy for my fellow sub but I was also quite turned on. Ma'am noticed and told me to squeeze her nipples. She was getting more distressed due to the vibe so I gave them a quick squeeze.
"Not like that."
Ma'am reached over and pinched hard down. There was a scream of pain as was did one then the other.
"Try again."
I tried harder this time and there was more screaming but not with quite the same intensity.
"Better boy, but you're probably not cut out to be a sadist."
She turned the vibe off and Sarah slowly calmed down.
"She's got another 2 hours or so before I release her. She's going to be broken. She told me to do my worst. I warned her but what else could I do?"
She laughed, I gulped.
"You will beg me for this sort of treatment won't you boy?"
She had hold of my balls and was squeezing fairly hard. My cock was hard.
"Yes Ma'am, I will."
A harder squeeze and I moaned.
"Ask me nicely boy."
"Please Ma'am torture me like you are torturing her. Keep me in bondage and hurt me please Ma'am."
She smiled. "Not today baby. Maybe later."
She had an evil grin but I could see the humour behind it.
"I need to cum."
She walked to the chair. It was set up for comfort. The back was slightly reclined and the legs were raised and wide apart. Then she remembered something.
"Before you start put the pumps on her nipples. 3 squeezes."
She pointed to 2 plastic cones with rubber bulbs attached. I had seen these before so knew how they worked. They fitted nicely over the metal rings and formed a tight seal with the latex suit. I pumped as instructed and watched as her nipples were sucked out even further by the vacuum. This brought a low moan from Sarah.
Ma'am told me to take my time and I complied. This was my place, my position in life. I felt utterly content as I pleasured her to the best of my ability. She loved it, hers eyes were closed. Little smiles followed by quiet passionate moans. Her body began arching and her head moved from side to side. I saw her nails digging into the padded arms as I brought her to a huge climax. After a minute or so she smiled down at me and said,
"You are just the best at that baby. It's beautiful."
Her head fell back and she just sighed and smiled. Nothing in the world meant more to me than bringing her this sort of satisfaction. I was so happy. She slowly got up and gave me a long hug, her head buried in my neck.
"You know my pussy so well baby. It's like you've got inbuilt knowledge of what I want and when I want it. I might have to employ you as my handyman full time this summer. I can't imagine how many orgasms I'm going to have.