This is the first chapter in the series where I describe how I started getting sucked into the world of Financial Domination (find) before eventually ending up as my wife's cuckold.β¨β¨In this chapter, I meet my online dominatrix, and discover the pleasure of being abused remotely.
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I shifted in my seat, trying to ignore the throbbing coming from between my legs. I wondered what my colleagues sat beside me would think if they knew that I had my balls and cock tightly tied with the shoe laces that I had wrapped around them that morning, before leaving the house? This had all started yesterday, when I had happened across Goddess Raven, while idly flicking through Twitter.
My wife Louise was definitely the controlling one in our relationship, but she had never shown any hint of being interested in domination in our sex life. I knew that she had had several boyfriends before she met me, but she was always very cool when we were in bed, laying prone underneath me while we had missionary sex, and disappearing to the bathroom to clean herself as soon as we finished. I had discovered the vibrator in her drawer a couple of years ago, and had heard it buzzing when she was alone in our bedroom, but had never felt able to discuss it with her.
I had always been excited by the though of domination, and had even had a few visits to professional dommes in London, but had never really found one that I clicked with. I didn't want to just go and be beaten and whipped, I wanted something more psychological.
I had started reading about financial domination, discovering the practice of sending money to a dominatrix to be controlled remotely. Typing 'findom' into Twitter, I been amazed at the host of accounts offering this service. Many of them offered the opportunity to do 'tasks', and I started to wonder down the rabbit hole, linking from post to recommended post, wondering what tasks were on offer.
Raven's account leaped out at me, and I was bewitched by the stern expression on the picture of her perfect face, framed by long blond hair that tumbled down her leather clad body. An added bonus was that she was based in London, so although I realised that I would be unlikely to ever meet her, the thought that I could bump into her in the street instantly aroused me.
Today she was offering 'a task for Β£10.00'. Nervously, I went into her payment links and found a Wishtender page, where she offered a daily task. My heart was pounding as I entered my details and saw the message 'payment complete'. Part of me wondered if it was a scam - I had never done this before, but if it was, then all I had lost was a few pounds.
My phone buzzed, and I saw a new message waiting for me in Twitter. It was blunt, and to the point.
"Punch yourself in the balls 10 times. I want to see video proof. You have 10 minutes. And say 'Thank You Goddess!'"
Luckily I was working from home, and in the house alone. My hands shook as I set the camera up, trying to get the screen positioned so that the camera was focussed on my genitals. I had never entertained the thought of CBT before, but being ordered to do it by this domme that I had never met was unbelievably exciting.
I reached down and gently slapped myself. It didn't hurt as much as I thought, so I hit myself again, this time with my hand closed, seeing my balls swing when my fist struck them. Starting the phone recording, I punched myself 10 times, getting harder each time, as my confidence grew. I sent the video back to Raven, attached to a Twitter reply.
Would that be it? I wasn't sure there would even be a reply, but the throbbing in my balls was a reminder of the task that I had completed. My phone buzzed again, and I read the message that had arrived. It was Raven, and as blunt as the last one.
"Pathetic. Do it again, and this, if you can't punch like a man, then hit yourself with something."
This was a turning point. I could just ignore it, and I was pretty sure that if I did so, I wouldn't hear from her again. From the evidence of what seemed to happen to other subs who ignored their Twitter mistresses, she would probably block my account unless I paid enough to engage again. But of course, I did want to continue. My cock was hard now, with the thought of what I was going to do next.