Yesterday I had dinner with Yuki, my assistant.
It was a long-overdue acknowledgment of the support I have received, as lately she has been so helpful in multiple situations.
Wine flew freely, and by the end of the evening both of us were quite intoxicated.
It was at this moment that she looked at me straight in my eyes and said.:" I saw you watching porn in the office..."
I had always known that this moment would arrive, and my mind for a moment floated, uncertain if it had to race furiously to find excuses and define a plan to contain the damage or savor the freedom of not having to hide my horniness anymore.
I was like the scorpion of the story, biting the frog that was carrying him, unable to control his nature, however damaging that was to him; finally, it had become evident and undeniable.
Yuki's face was scarlet, flushed by the alcohol and probably by the discomfort of having to reveal this unpleasant discovery.
"You like to watch Japanese girls, tied and whipped...humiliated..."
It was pointless to deny:" Yes, I do like it..."
At this point, something strange happened.
Yuki lowered her eyes and whispered:" I know I am not pretty..."
I looked at her surprised: why this remark?
A moment before she had my career in her hands, and now she seemed to look for a cheap gratification.
"It's not true...you are pretty..."
She raised her eyes, injected with blood, looking at me angrily.
"You're a liar!"
"You are slim, with a beautiful smile..."
"That's not the beauty I have in mind!" she insisted.
"I can only imagine that you have a lovely body too..." I offered, moving like a blind man, trying to find a way out, unsure of what this was leading to.
"How do you know, you have never seen me naked! "
"I am not sure if it is appropriate for me..."
"So, is it appropriate for you to watch shibari videos at work?"
"Of course not...I am sorry..."
"Are you sure? Do you truly want to see me naked?" she replied, ignoring my words, "Do you want to tie me? To play with me?"
She stared at me now - her cheeks were even redder, I didn't know if it was because she was drunk, or ashamed and excited.
I remained silent for a moment - honestly, my reply had been as vague as possible, trying to let her say more, now I felt I had nowhere to hide and I blurted:" Yuki-san, do you want to be my toy to play?"
She smiled, fluttering her eyelashes, coquettishly.
"Will you accept me as your...sex slave - I could feel she was trembling while uttering the word - even if I am not so pretty?"
"I will..." I answered, still shocked by that declaration.
Now she laughed happily, raised her glass to toast with me.
As quickly as she had raised that subject, she readily dropped it, and we went to discuss other matters, such as the possibility for our company to relocate to a nicer area and the career move of a colleague who had left a few months before.
That strange conversation seemed to be forgotten, only from time to time I had the impression that her eyes were staring at me, veiled by lust.
We parted at the train station, and I started to assume that the exchange was just a product of my imagination.
Yet, as I was ready to go to bed, I checked my messages one more time.