Always one to have things well planned, I put on a nude bra with a tiny bow in the middle and a pair of little white undies. I knew the bra was always his favorite. On top of it, I wear only a small dark red jacket, unzipped to show my prominent collarbones and what cleavage my B cup tits have to offer.. throw on a little makeup, fix up my short mohawk style hair, and put on a tight pair of ripped jeans and I look like the perfect balance between slutty clothes and an innocent face. Wide eyes and a small jawline with my pouty lips make me look like a baby deer in the headlights, and I know that's exactly what he likes. He wants me to be afraid. He said now that we're not together anymore, he doesn't have to be afraid of how much he hurts me; he doesn't have to hold back when he wraps his arms around my neck, or when he hits me during sex...
Yeah, maybe we got into darker realms of BDSM at a young age, but at least I've got it figured out... I've always taken pride in knowing how much kinkier I am than all the other girls my age - I mean, what other 18 year olds know they're into knife play? Not many. Now that he's not allowed to be afraid to hurt me anymore, it makes the fact that we're about fuck for the first time since we split up so much more exciting, and I can hardly contain myself as I wait outside my house for him to pull up.
After waiting about 10 minutes in the chilly breeze, he drives around the corner and stops in front of me. I remind myself of the rules: No emotions, just sex. No holding back. He doesn't look at me as I climb into the car beside him. We're quiet for a little while, and I start to doubt whether I wanted this or not. Maybe I won't be able to make him feel good enough to want to keep fucking me. Maybe he'll find a girl that will suck his cock better than me...
Then he says something that fills my chest with the slutty excitement that lead me to send that first text asking for this hook up: "Take off your jacket."
I hesitate, nervous but excited.