Sometimes I seriously question my sanity.
I found myself doing just that as I drove to your house, my hands trembling as they clutched the steering wheel tightly. Why on earth would I agree to meet a strange man off the Internet? A man I first encountered on the Literotica web site, at that? A man who had, in no uncertain terms, had made it clear to me that he intended to "punish" me for acting like a dirty slut on the Internet?
Was I crazy? Maybe. Horny? Definitely. And when my hormones take over, they all too often overrule common sense.
I parked outside your house, and then took one final look at myself in the rearview mirror. I hardly recognized myself. Normally, I wear my long blonde hair loose, cascading over my shoulders and down my back. And I usually like to wear a fair bit of makeup. But, you'd instructed me to wear my hair in pigtails, and to limit myself to a little mascara and a dab of clear lip gloss. Oddly enough, I felt vulnerable - naked, even - without my long hair and heavy makeup to hide behind.
I shuffled up to your door somewhat clumsily, not used to the Mary Janes I'd stopped wearing way back in middle school. I tried the front door, and found it unlocked, just as you'd said it would be. I paused. This was it. This was my last chance to change my mind. Did I want to?
I considered this for a moment. My mind screamed for me to get back in my car and hightail it out of there immediately. But my freshly shaven pussy throbbed, dripping in anticipation. While my head was terrified at the prospect of "surrendering" to you and letting you have your way with me, my body was thrilled by the idea. I took a deep breath, steeled myself for whatever fate awaited me, and ventured inside.
Although I'd never been to your house before, I immediately knew where the master bedroom was; it was the only room in the house with the lights on. I walked slowly down the hallway, my Mary Janes tapping loudly on the hardwood floor. I was suddenly aware of my nipples poking through the sheer fabric of my white blouse, erect partly due to the cold night air and partly due to my undeniable arousal. I crossed my arms over my chest self consciously as I entered the room and found you sitting in a sturdy armchair near the fireplace.
Since first communicating on Literotica, we'd sent each other pictures - some of them rather explicit. Although you were every bit as attractive in person as in your photos, I was immediately taken aback by your presence. Even though you were sitting down, I could see that you must be nearly a foot taller than me, and you looked to be in very good shape. Clearly, you were someone who could easily dominate me; you could pin me down and have your way with me if you so desired. I was simultaneously frightened and delighted by the thought.
Would you respect my limits? I guess I was about to find out...
"Arms at your side," you murmured, breaking the silence of the room. Your deep voice was calm; soothing, even. But it also had an air of authority to it, implicitly informing me that you expected me to comply with your orders immediately. So, I did.
As I uncrossed my arms, I was once again painfully aware of my erect nipples, straining against the material of my tight top. And I wasn't the only one who noticed. As your eyes traveled from my face to my full, round breasts, I saw a faint smile of amusement play across your lips. I felt myself begin to blush as you made me stand there in front of you while you undressed me with your eyes.
I tried my hardest to look sexy and confident in a weak attempt to make myself feel sexy and confident, but it was difficult to do in the ridiculous, demeaning schoolgirl outfit. This realization was confirmed when, all of a sudden, one of my white knee socks rolled down. With shaking hands, I quickly moved to pull it back up.
"Leave it."
I obediently straightened up, feeling downright foolish standing there with one knee sock rolled halfway down my leg. Maybe it sounds silly, but I felt more naked standing there, fully clothed, than I ever had before.
Without warning, you reached out and pulled me to you. Your hands were gentle, but insistent as they firmly guided my hips until I was lying down across your lap. You didn't touch me for several long moments, instead leaving me to lie there feeling childish and afraid, violating my vulnerable body with your eyes.