I met John on a BDSM website. He was a big beefy guy and claimed to be a serious sadist. What got me really interested in his profile was his desire to use cigarettes and pipes during play. I had my balls burned before by my ex-girlfriend when we used to play. She is long gone, out of the picture now, but I remember our play times with fond memories. I still get hard thinking about playing with her.
We exchanged messages for a while and finally decided to meet. We decided on a coffee shop next to a motel we could play at if all goes well. I got there early and got a coffee. I sat down at a table in the back. I was very nervous. I wanted to play with him, but part of me was afraid of what I was getting myself into.
John walked in and came straight to my table. His face was serious. He sat down and stared me straight in the eyes. He started talking, "Good, you came, I was afraid you would chicken out and not come. Let me get straight to the point. I don't bullshit around. Everything we talked about online, I was serious about. If you are a little pussy and weren't serious then you can fuck off right now, we are done. So what's it going to be?"
My heart was pounding in my chest. I could still get out of this. Maybe I am not really up to it. I looked John in the face and remembered all of our conversations. I remembered how excited I was each time he sent me a new message. I had been looking forward to this for a long time now. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. When I opened them I looked down at the table. "I am ready Sir. I am ready." My heart beats hard and feels heavy. I am so nervous.
John reached Into his pocket and took out a big smoking pipe. I noticed that about 1/3 of the pipe was missing. The center bowel was open to the front. It had been cut away. He handed it to me.
"Do you know what this is for?" I shook my head. I didn't understand what he had handed me. "I am going to tie this to your balls, fill it and then smoke your balls."
I got a visual in my mind of the pipe attached to my balls and smoke rising from the burning tobacco pushed up against my balls.
"You have two choices right now. You can either hand me that pipe back, fuck off and never contact me again. Or you can but that pipe into your pocket next to your faggot balls where it belongs. THINK CAREFULLY. This is not a joke, this is no bullshit! If you stay I am going to fuck you up. This isn't going to be about what you want. I don't care what you want. I am here to have fun my way. You will hurt. You will be burned. You will end up crying in pain for me to stop. Don't expect me to. Now little fagot, what are you going to do?"
I sat there for a moment. I turned the pipe over and could see some small metal loops fastened to the pipe. Probably there so it can be attached to my balls somehow. This was beyond anything I had ever done before. I should leave. I was hoping for some light BDSM play with John. Just a few little light burns to my balls. This was way beyond what I had been expecting to happen. My balls wouldn't be the same after this. They would be marked and scared forever. My heart was pounding in my ears. My mouth was dry and I felt like I might be sick. But deep down I had this craving. I wanted something. I needed something. If I left I would never get it. I would be forever thinking about this moment. I was shaking. I put the pipe into my pocket.
John looked at me for a few seconds. Then he shook his head and said, "God, you are a dumb fuck. I didn't think you had it in you." He reached over and lifted my head back up so I was looking him in the eyes again. He was smiling. "You need to relax now. Breath slowly and calm yourself down. I am going to have a hell of a lot of fun tonight. You will not. You are just along for the ride. You don't get to make any more decisions. I will decide what happens from here on out. Just calm down and accept that. You finish your coffee and I will get us a room."
I just sat there and tried to calm my shaking. I decided I should just try and accept this. I made a decision. I can't change it. Just relax and experience what is coming. I wanted this experience. I just need to relax and let John tell me what to do. I need to stop thinking about it and just experience it.
John came back a few minutes later, he had a small suitcase and was waving me to the door. "We are 206, upstairs on the end in the back. It is early in the day. They are mostly empty. We won't be disturbed."
John put his arm on my shoulder and spoke in a calm cool voice, "Just relax. You made your choice. I am in control now."
We walked up the stars and went to the door on the end. John opened the door and let me in. It was just like any other cheap motel. One bed. An old tv. An AC below the front window. John closed the door and locked it. He then turned the AC on, it was a little warm in the room. He put his bag on the bed and opened it up. I saw rope and leather.
Johns turned to me and said, "Get undresses".