The Background
He messaged me on another dating site a week ago. Was it really just a week ago? My god. It was a good introductory message -- the rare kind that shows he actually read my profile and connected to specific things in it. He also mentioned his profile on the kink site.
My interest was piqued. I took a chance that he used the same screen name on the kink site as the other dating site and did a search. Sure enough, there he was. Along with a list of his kinks, which included "abduction with the intent to defile" and "anonymous encounters" in the first line and a great deal of other kinky items to follow. There was also a list of stories about anonymous encounters and a disclaimer that this wasn't the only way he played. Wow.
This might make a few people run screaming, but I have to admit I've had a fantasy about getting fucked by a guy I hadn't met/seen since I came across the idea in a purity test in my teens. (The purity test is almost like a bucket list for me. So many things to do. So little time!)
So yeah, wow. Technically, I had seen his face in his profile pictures, but it's never quite the same as meeting someone face to face. And besides, the internet is full of folks who aren't necessarily who they claim to be, so I had no way to know if that was really him.
The idea made me hot. I couldn't stop thinking about it. But it was totally fucking insane. I couldn't do it. My control freak wouldn't let me. Too much risk. Insanity! But how could I pass up this opportunity? Wasn't there a way to mitigate the risk? The angel and devil went at me for a week and, at various points, I was sure that both of them had won.
I checked to see if we knew anyone in common that could vouch for him, but alas... no. I wondered if I could somehow convince a friend to go with me to watch my back or if Mr. Anonymous would even go for it, but then I realized that would create an audience for me too and that brings in another element that I wasn't up for myself. Ok, then, what if I had a friend meet him first to get a gut check? I talked to a friend who agreed to meet him if this was what I really wanted. I said I did. I talked to Mr. Anonymous and he agreed to meet my friend. And then, of course, I'd have safe calls planned before I met him. Best laid plans...
Waiting for stars and schedules to align to make this happen seemed like a not-good torture. I wanted to do it Right Now. But waiting and mitigating some of the risk was the right thing to do. Right? Right. Except, then I was chatting with Mr. Anonymous online and I was getting all hot and bothered again. And guess what? Turns out we were both free for the night. I guess that's when my libido got the best of me. Or certainly the best of my common sense. I messaged my friend and said I was going to go through with it now. He told me not to -- to give him time to follow through with things on his end. I said I wanted to do it anyway and gave him Mr. Anonymous' information. I also told him to send the cops to my house if he didn't hear from me again by a certain time.
The Encounter
Mr. Anonymous gave me some instructions and told me he'd be over in about 45 minutes. My heart was pounding and nausea came in waves. This was a bad plan. Why had I given him my address? This is how people die. What in the fuck was I thinking?
Things to do:
* Shower and shave and whatever else I needed to do to feel ready
* Turn on downstairs lights