(Author's note: For those readers who are not familiar with the MILLVILLE story line, a short explanation of the events leading up to this chapter is necessary. The local BDSM club in Millville, TN, holds an annual fund raiser at which, as entertainment, several anonymous, volunteer submissives are subjected to various BDSM activities. Tom recently had informed his wife, Suzie, and their friends, that he would have to attend a business-related out-of-town conference the same weekend as "The Gala" and would not be able to go with them. His wife and their friends were disappointed, of course...as was he...but he looked forward to hearing about it from his wife afterwards.)
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This sucks,
I think to myself as I sit alone in the dimly lit room.
I didn't have to be here now. Why did I insist to Suzie that I couldn't go with her tonight? Bob and Julie are probably picking her up right about now to take her to The Gala. I should be there with her, sitting in the back of Bob's car, holding Suzie's hand. All four of us would be excited about what we'd be watching later. How did it come to this? How did it all get started?
I remember that night at dinner when Suzie told me about Bob and Julie. How could Suzie and I not have realized that they were into the BDSM lifestyle? They were our best friends. We had known them for years. Suzie and Julie confided everything with each other.
Well, not everything, apparently.
And that first time when Bob showed us his playroom that he had converted into a dungeon. He demonstrated how he tied Julie to a rack and flogged her. How shocked we were. And that first time Suzie and I had sex with Suzie tied up. I used the handcuffs that Bob gave me and went down on her until she had an explosive orgasm. When I entered her, I was so turned on that I came almost immediately as she came for a second time. I think that was the beginning of our journey into the lifestyle.
But that seems like nothing compared to what we know now. What made us continue on that path? Maybe it was that first Munch meeting, where we met Len and Leila. That broadened our interest by meeting new people with the same lifestyle. That's when we accepted that it wasn't such an oddity. It just wasn't publicized.
And then there was that night that Bob and Julie came to our place for dinner, and Bob ended up fastening Julie to the top of a door and spanking her with a wooden spoon. He even let me do it for a while. My first experience hitting someone. And the clothespins. He put one on each of Julie's nipples. I couldn't even imagine doing that at the time. Julie said that she really did enjoy all of that. Suzie and I had a hard time believing her.
Then we went with Bob and Julie to The Gala. First Bob told me how he paddled Julie until her ass was bleeding the night before, and then Suzie and I saw how he tormented her during the whole Gala, making her have a huge orgasm in the middle of the crowded room. The entertainment that night, though, was unbelievable. We couldn't believe our eyes. What was done to those subs freaked us out. We realized then that spanking and clothespins were apparently just the tip of the iceberg when it came to BDSM. We couldn't imagine being involved in anything like what we saw that night. And yet eventually we did. How did this all happen? Where were we headed? What more is to come?
Oh, yeh. The Gala. Lot of urine consumed that night. That's one thing Suzie and I haven't tried. Don't know that we will. Although Leila said that she makes Len do it. I'll bet Julie has to once in a while too.
I remember just a few days after The Gala, Suzie told me to tie her up. That was when it really started for us, I think. I tied her hands behind her back and made her give me a blow job. She'd given me many but none like this. Not having the use of her hands really turned her on, I guess, and she went all out. And then the sex we had with her tied to the bed was out of this world. I think we both knew then that we were hooked.
And then there was that first night at Len and Leila's apartment. What a show she put on. We both felt so sorry for Len, the way she was treating him. But he had an erection the whole time. So did I, as I recall. Something about watching him be subjected to such pain turned me on. Was it because I would enjoy inflicting pain on someone, or because I was living vicariously through Len? And later, when Suzie relayed to me about what Leila had told her about other things she does to Len. It was unbelievable. And he gladly puts up with it.
I remember the first time I gave Suzie a good spanking. She asked me to do it so we could find out if this was really for us. I didn't like hurting her like that, but we had to find out. Her attitude afterward told us both that we should continue. And continue we did! And that time when Suzie turned the tables on me and had me strapped to the spanking bench. We found out that night that some pain on my butt and my nipples gets me real hard and horny. And she got turned on too. This didn't seem to be what I bargained for when we started screwing around with this lifestyle.
Then there was that night when Bob and Julia gave that party where the guests all had to ride the Sybian, with all Bob's devious adaptations that he created. That was downright cruel. But we were lucky, at least, when Suzie won among the women and Len won among the men. Len, Leila, Suzie and I got to go to Bob's and Suzie's cabin in the Smoky Mountains for that weekend last October. God, Don't know how Suzie did it. Riding that thing so long, through all the pain. Len too.
But the weekend was great, so I guess it was worth it. At the cabin those two days, and also at Mildred's and George's summer party, I had to do some things I never dreamt I would do. Didn't matter if you were dom or sub, straight or gay, if you wanted to participate you had to be a little of each. But every time, no matter what my role, I got a hard-on. Without fail. I think everyone was wondering what my true nature was. I know Bob and Suzie did. And I did, too.
When Suzie and I started experimenting with this I was not going to be anybody's sub. I was too macho for that role. My little Suzie was the sub in this relationship. I was her dom. Or so I thought. Was I wrong? Could I, deep down inside, be a sub? Maybe I'm both. What do they call that? A switch?
God, here I am all by myself with all these doubts and fears going through my head while I really should be with Suzie tonight. Right now they're probably pulling up in the parking lot, about to enter The Club for The Gala. She'll have to explain to people why I'm not with her. She'll tell them I had a business meeting and they'll say what a shame that is.
What possessed me to do this? Was it to prove something to myself? Or to others? One thing I did well, though. They all believed my story when I announced at the cabin that I had a meeting this weekend and I couldn't go with them. They bought it alright. If they only knew that I couldn't go with them because I would be one of the sub volunteers here!
What was I thinking? That I could endure what the subs at the other Galas were subjected to? Or maybe worse? I'm sure those subs were into BDSM for a long time. They were used to such stuff. Me? What do I know? Just what Bob has put me through. That was bad enough. Actually, I'm scared shitless right now. Especially after Suzie let me in on her secret as I left the house with my suitcase, supposedly on my way to Dallas for my conference. I'll never forget her words.
"Tom, since you'll be out of town until after the Gala's over, I have something I want to tell you. I've been dying to all week, but I couldn't. They're so secretive about this. You know the entertainment they put on after dinner? Well, this year they asked Mildred to come and show her whipping skills. And she told them she thought it would be more interesting if I was there too. The two of us together showing off our skills. Isn't that great? She thought I was good enough to do that. I just feel sorry for the guy or gal that's the sub. Maybe there'll be one of each. We can take turns with each one. That's why I've been practicing so much the last couple of weeks."
Crap! As if I wasn't nervous enough about doing this all ready. Suppose I'm the one picked for that gig. The way Mildred whipped Charlie at their party. And I bet she was holding back with him.
The only door into the room is opening slowly
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A man is entering the room.