Chapter One
My name is Michele, yeah that's right, one L only. That's the least of my worries now. You see, I got an e-mail the today from an unknown co-worker. In the e-mail it told me that I had left my journal in his office and he have been reading it night and day. I have no idea who it might be, but it has all my secrets in it. Things I wouldn't want anyone to know. Now he's telling me that unless I do exactly as he says, he will make my journal public and I will be ruined.
My journal has all my dark secrets in it. I've been writing it since I was in High School. I don't have much experience. I mean, I only had one boyfriend in school. But I think about sex alot. Who knows when it all started, maybe it was when I found my parents porn stash. I would look at it every now and again when they were out. It intrigued me, made me wonder what it would be like to something sexual.
It seemed to me when I was younger, that I was always daydreaming about sex, role playing in my head. I always seemed to be the damsel in distress, waiting for my good looking prince to come save me and whisk me away to his castle and ravish me. Or taken by a group of pirates, who used me as their sex slave. I know, but I was young then. It did somehow morph into something of a fetish.
You see, I'm a submissive, both in and out of bed. That's someone who conforms to the will of others, in a meekly obedient or passive way. Looking back, I've always been one. I did what my parents told me. I followed what my group of friends said I should do. My journal has all of my submissive thoughts in it. Things I want to try,, people I have fantasized about, some of whom work here.
I couldn't afford college, so I took this job as a night filing clerk was perfect. It lets me take classes during the day and work at night. I live in a very small flat with two roommates. I don't know them well, but got connected to them by the campus directory. We were all looking for a roommates to share in rent and expenses. If I lose my job, I have to leave school, and I have no where else to go. My parents sold their place and moved to Florida once I left for college.
I'm scared of what losing my journal will cost me. I answer the e-mail and ask him (I'm only assuming its a him at this point) what he wants. He quickly responds back and tell me to send him a picture of myself..."naked." I think there was an audible gasp when I read this. I've only been naked in front of someone a couple of times but it was always in the dark, with the lights turned off.
I wouldn't say I'm attractive. But I haven't had too many problems attracting the opposite sex. But Mr. Right has not walked into my life, several Mr. Wrongs have, but who's counting. I just turned 21 a month ago. My measurements are 38D-27-38 or a size 14. I have naturally curly blonde hair. I'm not a model by any stretch of the imagination and I've always felt like I was on the chubby side and kind of plain.
I am torn about what to do. I have no one I ask for help from. No one knows of my secrets or my journal, except this person asking me to send a picture of myself naked. I send an e-mail back and ask if there is anything I can do besides the picture. He texts back saying he will take it under consideration if I send my cell number. I e-mail back my cell number. I get a text a few seconds later.
He tells me that I am going to do everything that he asks or my journal will make it to the local papers and news programs. That I will enjoy all the attention I will receive from them. I can't let that happen. I can't afford to move, or leave school. I have nowhere else to go and no one I can turn to.
I strip down in my room. I move in front of vanity mirror and look at myself. Why would he want to see me like this. I'm nothing special. I take my phone and snap a quick picture of myself. Then send it via text message. He responds quickly, and tells me that I have been a "good girl." I can't help but feel a little tingle at those words. The submissive in me relishes being someone's "good girl."
As ashamed as I am, I still reach down and finger my clit. I close my eyes, as I run a finger through my wet folds. My other hand pulls on my nipple. I feel an electric spark run from my engorged nipple to my clit. I can't believe I'm doing this because someone has forced me to send a picture of me naked. My playing is interrupted when my cell blips with another text. He asks if I am playing with myself.
Oh my god, can he see me? How does he know what I'm doing. I text back "no." I don't know why I lied, but he sends a text back that he knows I'm lying and I will be punished for it. I don't respond. There is nothing for quite a while. I am anxious about what kind of punishment he will make me do.
I have a class this afternoon, so I shower and get ready. When I get out, there is a text for me. He's instructed me to wear the shortest skirt I have and tight blouse, no bra, no panties. I am to send a picture before I leave for class. Wait, how does he know I have a class today? I am so nervous. I can't think straight.
I look through my closet. I don't have many short skirts, but I find a "school girl" outfit I wore for Halloween a few years back. But I can't wear that to school, everyone will laugh at me. But it's all I really have. I put it on and send a pic. He texted right back, suggesting I wear my hair in pigtails to top off the ensemble. I blush with embarrassment. I do as I'm told and send another pic. Again, he follows with a "good girl" text and I'm off to class.
I am totally mortified. My skirt is so short that if I so much as sneeze, everyone will see my sex. And my breasts wobble with my every step. I hold my books against them to hide this. As much as I am complaining about this, I am leaking like a slut in heat and my nipples feel like they are going to poke a hole in my blouse.
I make it to class without anyone talking to me. I sit on the front row as usual but this time I'm there so that fewer people will have the chance to peek up my skirt. Class goes by slowly. It seems like the seconds are ticking like molasses out of jar on a cold day.
I do catch my professor eyeing me more than once. My face flushes. I have no way to cover the obvious excitement of being watched. My nipples are betraying me. When the bell rings, I gather my things quickly, but the professor stops me and asks to speak with me after class in his office. Holy crap, what is he going to do?
I hold back, and follow him to his office. When inside, he has me sit down. He asks if I am feeling alright. I tell him yes and wonder why he is asking. He tells me that I seem a little flushed in class, and maybe I'm coming down with something. I smile meekly, and tell him I have been working nights and have not been getting much sleep, with my studies and all. He offers to tutor me if I fall behind. (I'm carrying an A in his class.) I thank him, and he excuses me.
I'm coming out of the professor's office when I see Matt. I've helped him with a few papers before. He stops me and compliments me on my attire. I blush and tell him it's wash day and I had nothing else clean. I catch him staring at my breasts. My nipples go on full erect mode, and I feel a rush of fluids to my nether region.
Matt walks me back to my apartment, luckily its only a few blocks. I thank him, and head inside, leaving him there standing. I quickly go to my room and slip out of clothes. God, I feel such a rush. I would have never have done anything like that in a million years, but I guess judging from my response I'm something of a reluctant exhibitionist.
I start to lay down for nap so I can go to work later tonight. I get a text, he asks who the guy was walking me home. (Who ever this guy is sees everything I do.) How can that be. I don't answer the text. But he sends another one, asking if I have sucked his cock before. Again I don't answer. Finally, he sends another text that if I continue to not answer, I would regret it.
I answer back that, no, I never have done anything with Matt. He asks why, and I tell him that Matt is out of my league. He's a star baseball player and I just helped with with some of his papers a while back. His text came back that Matt seemed pretty interested in me today. I texted back that I needed to get some sleep so I could go to work later. He told me I had been a "good girl" today and to keep it up.
Chapter Two
I couldn't sleep much. I was restless and kept thinking about what he said about Matt. My body is all a flutter. I toss and turn but finally drift off to sleep. But in my dreams, I get no relief. I dream about a faceless man, who I assume is my tormentor. In my dream, he is in my room watching me as I sleep. He pulls the covers back to find me naked. His hands softly caress my body. He ties me down and I am spread eagle on my bed.