Memoirs of a Master: Prologue

I have decided to share the experiences of my secret life as a Dominant Master of women so others may learn from them. I would very much liked to have had something like this to read and guide me when I was in my early 20s. At that time, I had the mistaken impression that all women wanted to be treated as equals in matters of sex. Since I grew up during the dawning of the feminist movement, it's understandable how I came to this misconception. But the truth that I came to know is this: there are many women that have a deep desire to be submissive to a man.

I will start by giving some background on my life and attitudes in this chapter. Subsequent chapters will focus on individual relationships with slaves.

I have been "interested" in BDSM for a very long time, probably going back as far as second grade in primary school. At that time I obviously didn't know what BDSM was. I just knew that I wanted to capture and restrain all of the little girls on the playground.

I enjoy "all the letters" of BDSM: I like confining my slave (Bondage), although I'm terrible with rope. I like Disciplining my slave (making rules and punishing her if they are broken). I am a Sadist to an extreme. And I do enjoy it if my slave is a Masochist although that is not required. In some ways, it's more exciting to have a slave that hates pain but endures it just for the sake of submitting to me.

I was first exposed to vanilla soft-core porn when I discovered my dad's Playboy magazines. It was some time later that I discovered BDSM porn and I'm not sure when that was. I remember going to watch "The Story of O" (the one with Corinne Clery in it) in the movie theater with my friends (male and female) when I was in college. We were not really prepared for the explicit nature of the movie. During one of the scenes where O was getting whipped, I got an erection so hard that I thought I would burst my jeans.

At some time later than that, I found the movies with Jason Whitman, Renee Baker, and Georgia Van Helsing in them: "Tourist Trap", "Bittersweet Revenge", and "The Experiment" are my favorites and I still have copies of them in my extensive collection of BDSM porn. Those are great videos, in my opinion, and stand the test of time. I really liked how Jason would torture the actresses and wouldn't care if they wanted him to stop. There are multiple scenes where you can see Renee trying to give him a signal that he had gone too far. The scene where Georgia is hung by her wrists and whipped endlessly with a belt is a classic, as is the scene where Renee is forced to spit Jason's cum in a jar to later be poured down Georgia's throat. And that is not to mention the multiple times when Renee's tits are tied up so tight her boobs were like rocks.

Those videos helped clarify what my desires were and my imagination was amplified later with the early BDSM porn web sites. PD's videos are still classic because of his creative mind. I still think he has no equal in modern BDSM porn. Other early sites were notable because of how extreme they were. I still marvel at the variety of tortures that the actresses endure (and enjoy) in those videos. There is one site that notable because the women are all "real", not actresses and all of them have a huge desire to be tortured. Most or all of them get soaking wet pussies when they are being brutalized.

I feel that it is very important for a Master to understand the psychological aspects of the BDSM relationship(s) he is in for them to flourish. That means understand the motivators for both the Master and slave and the dynamics of the relationship, as much as possible.

A Master should also understand his slave's motivation to submit. The most common trait I have experienced in my submissives are "daddy issues": the father was either absent or inattentive or cold. There are other motivations and I intend to cover those in the chapters on the individual relationships.

I think that understanding a slave's psychology can be both defensive and beneficial. For example, if you know that you have a "fence tester" for a slave (an insecure person that needs frequent punishment to reassure her you are strong and in control), you need to prepare for frequent disobedience and not get frustrated. If you have a "good girl" (one that suffers the most from your disapproval or disappointment), you know to be gentle with your correction and be lavish with your praise. If you have one that uses submission to manipulate (one who tries to top from the bottom), you might decide to cut your losses and move on.

If you understand your slave's psyche, you can use it to motivate her or manipulate her. If she had daddy issues, become the daddy she never had. If she needs rules, give her lots of them and enforce them, even if they are boring to you. If she has a naughty side, set her up with a gang bang. In the end, you will be the beneficiary of a well-trained (aka well-manipulated) slave.

Enough background. In my next chapter I'll describe my relationship with linda in detail