Chapter 2 – Lessons and Testing Begin
The days passed quickly. She and her Lord would talk most days when He was not gone. Their conversations covered many topics, from family, friends, work, to sex. He always inquired about her day and what she did, how work went, and how things were going with her daughter. No one had ever taken an interest in her like this before. She was a bit uncomfortable at first, but quickly began to look forward to His questions. The tone of His questions was not that of one prying, rather more like an intimate friend. Sometimes they would play, but more often, they just talked.
Each day, for the first few days, one of her buddies would come online and want to play. She would tell them she could not, she was not allowed. Her Lord had asked if she could, would give up her playmates and she had told Him yes. When her buddies asked why, she would explain that there was someone new. Most times this was sufficient. When it wasn't she would tell them,
"I have to ask Milord for permission before I can play."
Her reference to her Lord would stop all of the questions but two.
"Are you sure?" "Are you happy?"
When they received affirmative answers to both, they would tell her how pleased they were for her and then just talk with her.
A couple of her buddies were shocked. One told her that she had to tell her Lord that she would not do it. He told her she was making a big mistake and did not know what she was doing. Eventually, he quit talking to her when she refused to allow him to tell her what to do. Her other buddy was so shocked he fussed at her. Unlike the first though, he was willing to listen to her. He told her that if she was like that then she was not the person he thought he knew. His statement implied that she was weak and not very intelligent. They talked for a long time and during their conversation, her Lord came online. She explained to her Lord who she was talking to and why. He offered to leave, but she asked Him to stay. She was not sure why, but He agreed to stay online with her.
As she and her buddy talked, she would share bits of the conversation with her Lord. She told her buddy that her Lord was online and talking with her as well. He continued to try and dissuade her from her chosen course of actions while she persisted in trying to get him to understand that she was not changed and she knew what she was doing. Her Lord had been questioning her deeply, and she knew many of His questions were to determine if she was truly aware of what she was doing and sure of her decision. Knowing this she shared those bits of her talk with her buddy that would show Him how she was thinking and feeling.
As the talk progressed, her Lord reassured her that she was still free and could do as she pleased. She told Him she understood, and she was doing as she pleased. At one point He asked her why she did not want to do as her buddy was asking her to do. Why did she continue to talk with him, try to convince him. She explained that this buddy was also a close friend and she valued his friendship, but he was pushing her and she would not allow anyone to push her. Her Lord then pointed out the He pushed her and she allowed it, so what was different with her friend. She told Him,
"I trust you and I gave you control. I have not given my friend control."
After she explained a bit more fully and He asked her why did she not just tell her friend that, so she copied and shared that bit of conversation from her Lord, with her friend. Her friend was silent for several minutes then came back with,
"I am not trying to control you."
"Oh, but you are," she scrolled up and copied part of what he had been saying and pasted it and resent it to him,
"See…"
After several more minutes of silence her friend came back and laughed at her, agreeing that it may have seemed that way, but that was not what he intended. Calmly she asked him,
"Then how do you know it is not the same with Milord?"
This time the silence was even longer. She feared he had left, but finally he came back and asked,
"Are you happy?"
"Yes."
"Then that is all that really matters. I see now what you have been trying to tell me. If you are happy, then I am happy for you. I would still like to talk with you though and remain friends."
Grinning, she told him,
"Certainly. Why do you think I argued with you so hard. I did not want to lose your respect or friendship. I am the same person you first knew, I have not changed."
Not only had she kept a friend and deepened that friendship, she had also been able to show her Lord how and why she felt as she did, and how she was handling the changes in her life. Soon her Lord began playing more online with her, and when He learned she had a cam, He would often tell her to turn it on so He could watch her reactions. So began the training of her mind and body for sex, though at first she was unaware of this.
Playing with her Lord was not like cyber sex. With Him, she was told what to do, and He expected her to do exactly as He said, no more, no less. He learned to read her reactions and would often anticipate her pleas or responses. The command, "Do not cum" was one of the most difficult for her to follow, but her Lord seemed to know this was the case and gave her plenty of warning that she was to wait. As their sessions continued, He would wait longer before telling her, often catching her just in time. She knew she was not allowed to cum without permission, but many times, it was only His voiced command that enabled her to hold back.
As her control grew and she learned to follow instructions, He began giving her commands to follow when their sessions ended. Sometimes, if they had not been able to talk for long or play, she would ask for and receive permission to play with one of her buddies. Other times He would ask her if she wanted to play with them, a few times mentioning that if she could wait, she would not be displeased. Preferring the time with her Lord, she would agree to wait. Her requests for playtime with buddies decreased as her need for her Lord increased.
There was only one buddy who even came close to satisfying her as her Lord did. He knew about her Lord and had already told her that her Lord came first and only with His permission would he play with her. She shared this with her Lord and soon Dar was the only buddy with whom she played. She had shared with her Lord Dar's preference to dominate and master her, but explained that Dar was not truly a Lord or Master. Like her, Dar was just discovering this part of his nature and enjoyed exploring it with her. Dar would always ask if she had permission, and if her Lord were online, would leave and not speak with her.
These changes in her life not only brought her peace and happiness, but also showed her who her true friends were. While she had always considered them all friends, this test showed how they felt. A few of her friendships deepened because of the changes, for now she knew how they truly felt. Was she changing and were these changes apparent to her friends? Was this the reason for the changes in her friendships? She was not sure, but whatever the reason, she was pleased and happier. She must be changing, as those who knew her off line were also treating her differently, even her daughter.
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The other day, she and her Lord talked and He asked her if she was still working on her story. She told Him she was finishing up the section about her father. He asked her about her father. Many of His questions were answered in the narratives so she asked if He would like to read them. She e-mailed the file to Him and waited patiently while He read it. When He finished reading, He told her,
"very good write telling me about yourself, My lady. May I ask more?"
"Sure."
"When was your next sexual contact or encounter after your father,"He asked. She thought back and after a minute, she told Him about her first sexual partner after her father, that she was sixteen and he was her first love. He asked her how it went. She told her Lord that it went very well; her first love was tender and sensitive.
