The sun was shining brightly as I stepped into the driveway. I gazed into the yard and noticed a small bunny sunning himself in the grass. A smile crossed my face as I regarded this as a lucky omen. Rabbits were always my favorites and this one was here to say goodbye as I drove into the great unknown. At least that's what it felt like to me.
At 52 I was beginning a journey into a world that was both exciting and frightening. I was about to explore a hidden side of me and I had no idea what my journey would produce. It would either begin a new and wonderful experience for me or would provide yet another area in which to fail. I slid behind the wheel of the car and took a deep breath. Ready or not I was going to meet my Dom.
I pulled into the parking lot and glanced around. He knew what kind of car I drove and he had instructed me to pull into the lot, choose a space and wait. Convinced I should start up the car and drive away. Well, I told myself, submission is the giving up of your control to another. Why not start now? Why not just decide that the outcome of today was now in the hands of the man, I had chosen to be my Dom? Taking another deep breath, I decided that was just what I was going to do. If he arrived, he would be in charge and if he didn't, then I would just drive home and start again.
I was never very good at waiting and now probably more than ever, my nerves were frazzled. All of the doubts of the last week came rushing back at me at once. Would he be here? Would he like me? Could I be submissive? How would this day end? What should I do next? That part was easy. He already told me I was to remove my panties in the car and bring them in with me. I struggled as I slipped my panties off and dropped them in my purse. Now I really felt vulnerable.
For the first time the total impact of what I was about to do hit me. I closed my eyes and rested my head back on the seat. Taking a deep breath, I tried to calm myself. As my nerves slowly began to settle I thought about what I was about to do, for at least the 1000th time today. I had made up my mind and I was going to see it through, although part of me was still con was totally at ease now...relaxed and feeling safe...all of my fears and concerns of the previous week had evaporated.
The cool wind brushed across my face as the car door opened. I could feel his presence as he climbed in beside me and closed the door. I wanted to open my eyes and look over at him, but my heart was gripped with fear. I was as much afraid of his impressions of me as I was of his power. I could hear the beating of my heart and my pulse raced as I felt his presence beside me. I could smell his cologne fresh and spicy. I could hear his breath soft and steady. My mind was racing. What to do next?
Suddenly I felt a light touch on my shoulder and firm masculine voice in my ear, "Relax. Don't open your eyes, just relax."
His hand moved across my shoulder and I felt it at the back of my neck. His fingers softly massaged my neck and I could feel the tension flowing from my body into his hand. I lowered my head and moved it from side to side as he massaged my shoulders and the top of my back. It was hypnotic. I could almost feel myself drifting away.
I sighed and I felt his lips graze my neck moving softly up to my jaw and across to my lips. His touch was so soft, yet so much in command. I was powerless to stop him and did not want to. I felt myself aware of only him and his touch...lips and hands as they moved over my body. There was no other reality. The world had ceased to exist except in this car with this man.
"Open your eyes for me," he whispered. I opened my eyes to face him. I was confronted by a pair of kind yet forceful eyes, that seemed to see into my soul. He smiled softly.
"Hello" was all he said. "Hello" I responded. "Are you ready?" he asked.
I feared I would have no voice, so enthralled was I. "Yes" I replied.
He just smiled. He got out of the car and closed the door. Moving around to my door, he opened it and reached his hand inside. I placed my hand in his and slide out of the car. He closed the door and turned towards the motel. He never said a word, but never let go of my hand, as he lead me across the parking lot and into the room. He locked the door behind him still holding on to my hand and led me to the bathroom. He gently pushed me inside and closed the door behind me.
I glanced up and saw my reflection in the mirror. My face was filled with doubt and confusion. The calm and serenity I had known briefly in the car quickly deserted me.
I struggled to remember just what I was expected to do next. I moved to the sink and took down a washcloth and soap. Running warm water I soaped the washcloth and began to cleanse myself. He had said I was to refresh myself and since I was new from the shower, I felt clean and renewed. I took out my brush and ran it thru my long hair, brushing it carefully behind my shoulders. I leaned on the counter and looked deep into the mirror. I looked calm on the outside, but my insides were in knots. I just hoped I could make it thru this without making a fool of myself. It meant so much to me. I took one final look at myself in the mirror and tapped on the bathroom door.
Opening the bathroom door, I stepped out with my back to the room, my panties in my hand. I could feel him come up behind me....I could smell him.....I could feel his warmth. He did not say a thing except for the few words we had already exchanged. I felt him move closer to me and suddenly my eyes were covered. He told me he would do this, but I still jumped at his touch.
When the blindfold was in place, he pushed my hair aside and kissed the back of my neck...gentle seductive kisses. I could feel myself begin to relax again. His kisses continue as his hands travel up my back and over my shoulders.
He pulled me back into him and held me, his breath still warm on my neck. I took several deep breaths and felt my entire body relax. One final kiss on my neck and he turned me around to face him. I could feel him slip my panties out of my hand as he lead me forward. I dropped my hands to my sides, palms facing forward as he had instructed me. Taking my hand, he led me back into the bedroom.
My ears seemed to be reaching for every sound...large and small. I heard a car go by in the distance and the faint noise from a TV somewhere near us. I could hear his breathing and mine. I could sense him moving around the room. I stood where he left me and awaited his return. What would come next?
I was beginning to panic again, and he was there. It was as if he sensed my fear and came to remove it. I could feel his hands gently moving over my body - caressing and stroking. I could feel my body reaching out for his touch wanting to feel his warmth. He smelled so wonderful. A mixture of all the things that are so particularly male. His breathing was slow and steady.
Suddenly I could feel his hands on the front of my sweater. He ran his finger across my upper chest just inside the neckline. He bent and gently kissed where is finger had just been. I shivered. I felt him open the first button on my sweater. He kissed my chest as the sweater loosened across my shoulders. His hand moved on down to the next button and as he slipped it open, he kissed the newly exposed skin. His touch was electric. It set me on fire. I could feel my breath quickening, but it was no longer with fear. Now, it was with anticipation and desire.
I could feel my body responding to his touch and his kisses. I felt the moisture start to flow between my legs. I knew my nipples were already hard. I could feel them straining against my bra. What would he think when he realized what was happening to me? His fingers continued on down the front of my sweater until all of the buttons were open. I could feel a gentle chill creep over me as the cool air hit my warm skin. Or was that really the cause?
I could feel him pulling my sweater open. He caressed my shoulders and my chest with his finger . He ran his fingertips across the front of my bra grazing my nipples thru the fabric. The already hard nipples seemed to throb under his touch. Already I could feel them begging for more and my fear of what he would think had vanished.