Her heart was jackhammering in her chest as she made her way slowly down the hall, a brown accordion file crammed with yellow legal pads and printed out case law clutched tightly to her chest. Every step that brought her closer to the conference room only increased the sense of dread that had been building in her stomach all week.
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When she'd gone to law school, she'd never intended to see the inside of a courtroom—she'd just wanted to find a practice area with relatively predictable hours at a large enough firm that she could pay back her student loans while still affording food and rent. The fact that she'd graduated as salutatorian of her class, was co-editor of law review, and had secured a prestigious clerkship after graduation in a federal appellate court had gone a long way toward securing her an associate position at her current firm. She couldn't honestly say that she had any particularly burning passion for zoning issues, or even land use law in general, but it was a relatively stable practice group within her firm and it kept the lights on. One thing was absolutely certain though—she certainly liked her transactional work much more than litigation.
She'd been elbow deep in preparing some draft legislative language for one of the clients whose matters she was assigned to when her boss had walked into her office. One of the Litigation partners had taken on a case for a "very important" client who was being sued by a local community group, and none of the early attempts at mediation had succeeded. The crux of the case had turned on some arcane land use statutes, so the Litigation partner had come to her boss to see if the Zoning department had an associate it could "share" with Litigation. There were four associates in her practice group, but two of them were fresh out of law school and the senior associate had just booked his first client matter and wasn't in a position to split his time with another department. Her boss had given her an apologetic shrug as she'd handed over the first batch of case files Litigation had sent over for her to get up to speed before saying, "You need to split your time with Litigation starting on Monday."
The Litigation partner she'd been assigned to work with on the case was a complete one-eighty from her normal boss. He was in his early 40s and was the youngest person to ever make partner at the firm. To say he was "intense" didn't do him justice. No matter how early she got to the office, he'd always managed to send her an e-mail about something at least an hour before she'd even gotten out of bed. If she worked eight hours on a Saturday to read through some discovery, he worked sixteen hours on both Saturday and Sunday. Whenever she couldn't find legal precedent to support the specific point he wanted to make in a brief or a motion, she would invariably get back from lunch (or even just the restroom) to find a printed out copy of his Westlaw research with the perfect language for their case highlighted and sticky-tabbed casually sitting on her chair. All in all, working with him drove her nuts. She understood that it was some perverse rite of passage that the Litigation associates went through—to see who would be the first person to either develop a substance abuse problem or a mental health issue—but she'd never wanted to be a part of that side of the law, and it chafed her no end that he was treating her as if she'd voluntarily asked to be reassigned.
Despite her belief that he was an unrelenting slave driver, whenever she was on the verge of rage-quitting her firm she found herself grudgingly admitting that he was turning her into a better lawyer. As she read over his comments on her draft motions, she appreciated the nuances to his legal arguments like how he managed to make even the most adverse facts of their case work in their client's favor. The thing she found herself most impressed by though was his chameleon-like personality.
Over the nearly ten months they'd worked together, she'd heard multiple horror stories from other associates at the firm about getting chewed out in his office, and it was practically a firm legend about how he'd once made the name partner's personal secretary cry while he was a first year associate. And yet...She'd read through deposition transcripts of his where he'd been so pleasant and unassuming that he'd pied-pipered damning testimony out of opposing counsel's key witnesses. She found it difficult to tell which version of him was real because other than the notes he periodically sent back on her drafts, he had almost actively avoided her since the first day she'd reported to his office to discuss the background on the case.
Then, with their bench trial only days away, she'd gotten an email informing her that she'd no longer be second-chairing at the trial. Instead, she'd been relegated to prepping exhibits and making sure the "real" litigators preserved any potentially necessary grounds for appeal. After working like a dog for months on end, she'd finally snapped.
As she'd barged down to his office, she knew her indignant bravado was more than a little fueled by the fact that the office was a ghost town as it usually was by 8 pm on warm summer Friday nights. Sweeping into his meticulously organized office, she'd swung the door forcefully shut behind her—the plush pile carpeting in his office successfully muting much of the door frame's loud clattering reverberation. When he didn't so much as look up from his computer, she stalked closer to his desk before she hissed, "What the fuck did you mean by that email?"
His ice blue eyes had slowly lifted from his monitor up to her face, his mouth set in a grim line. "I send a lot of emails. You'll have to be more specific if you expect me to know what you're talking about," he'd said, the rich tones of his voice firm and unyielding.
Her nostrils flared as she'd let out an exasperated huff of air before she'd replied, "The McDonough case going to trial on Wednesday."
A spark of challenge flared in his eyes so quickly that she swore she imagined it as he casually ran a hand through his lightly salted, dark brown hair. As his fingers raked through his hair, she found her eyes drawn to a flash of tawny skin, and she vaguely realized that he rolled the sleeves of his immaculate white dress shirt to his elbows. Her mouth started to go dry.