Prologue
Can you love someone and still be unhappy in your marriage? I discovered the answer was yes and so I figured out what was wrong, why I was unhappy, and then I did something about it. I loved my husband, Jack, then and I love him even more now.
This is the story of how I trained him, how he became my willing slave. It took work, and it was a slow process, but now he is mine, completely under my control.
I thought about the problem for weeks, what the cause of my unhappiness was. Then, once I figured it out and I decided what the goal was, I began preparing. I installed key logger software on his computer and installed tracker software on his phone. Information and intention made him mine.
I have included entries with journal entries from my husband, interspersed with my entries, that I had him supplement with his recollections. I had no idea he occasionally wrote things in a physical diary. I think he must have made entries when I was out with the girls. We really had grown apart.
I didn't discover his journal until I had him move his stuff into the guest room to make the Master Bedroom my domain. I read his journal through and asked him some questions to clarify his thoughts. I edited and summarized his words a bit, but I like to think I kept intact the essence of what he wrote. His words cleared up some questions and misconceptions I had, and I hope they do the same for you.
I limit his computer usage, so I doubt he will ever see this, but if he does, I love you darling.
Step 1 -- The Bet
We were two adults living parallel lives in the same building, the same town, even many of the same friends. We loved each other, but I don't think we liked each other very much. We never talked, not about anything important anyway, often settled for the evening in different rooms of our house after dinner, and only occasionally touched or made love.
We had grown far enough apart that I needed to prepare him, reignite his interest, while keeping my distance. I focused on being sexy for him, for me too I suppose. I felt like I had turned into a sitcom mom without the wisecracking kids, and I needed to shake things up for me as well as for him and our marriage. I also wanted him primed. I started wearing his favorite perfume more often and dressing a bit sexier. Nothing drastic, but he noticed.
I have always prided myself on my looks, and entering my mid-thirties I was still good looking, long dark hair and a trim body that I knew my husband still enjoyed. As I dressed up and worked to subtlety make him more aroused, I put a chill on our bedtime fun and games. Not a full or sudden stop, but a slow tapering, less and less. I knew he was masturbating more and more, but for now I let him have that lesser outlet for his desire.
All the while I was waiting for my chance. Jack and I often made semi-serious bets on various things, and I was waiting for a sure thing. One weekend I perused his email and saw one from his best friend, Alex and his longtime girlfriend had broken up. I didn't think much about it until Jack mentioned that Alex was starting to talk about marriage.
I had to act before Jack read his email, so ... "you want to bet?"
"What do you mean?"
"I don't think they are right for each other. They are much more likely to break up."
Jack has always looked up to Alex and his way with women, never noticing that the only reason he had a string of girlfriends is none of the relationships lasted very long.
"I'll take that bet."
"OK, if in the next three months they are engaged you win, if they are broken up, I win. If they stay as they are, it is a push. If I win, I want a full weekend, Friday night through Sunday night, with you as my servant and sex toy. What do you want?"
I am pretty sure the words that made the biggest impact were "sex toy", and he was on board, even if he lost, he figured he would win, as it had been over a week since we made love and longer since we had had great sex.
"I want a whole week where we have sex whenever I want."
We shook on it, both sure that no matter what we were both winners. Jack doesn't check his email much on the weekend and so he didn't find out he had lost until Sunday night. I spent the whole time wet with anticipation, so horny I wanted to jump his bones repeatedly, but I stuck to the plan.
Even after Jack read his email, he didn't say anything to me. We both went to work Monday morning. Before having a slave, I cooked on Mondays, so I was cooking when he arrived from work and still nothing. That night in bed I didn't have to pretend my iciness, I was annoyed that he had not confessed that he had lost. I found out much later that the delay was because he was concerned about his friend and wanted to talk with him and make sure Alex was OK and that the breakup really was final. There is a reason I love him; he is a good man.
Tuesday evening, as he served the steak, veggies, and fresh baked bread that he made, he finally came clean.
"You were right Jess, Alex and Beth broke up. You are amazing. You want me as your sex toy this weekend?"
"Yes. I want you home as soon as possible after work, and when you get home, I want you naked and waiting in our bedroom, on the floor at the foot of the bed for when I come home. Think you can manage that?"
"Yes ma'am," he said grinning ear to ear.