Although Dragana told me she didn't want a relationship now, and I definitely wanted one, I kept fooling around with her, both live and online. I guess I was hoping she would realize I'm just what she needs, even though she clearly just enjoyed my attention and having me around to fulfill some sexual fantasies. It was surreal, like some kind of kinky friendzone.
That's not to say I didn't keep looking for a girlfriend, I most certainly did, but whenever I struck out I would always return to her, horny and hopeful. It was like an addiction. I'd sometimes try to stay strong and resist the temptation, but it was enough for her to send some suggestive text or a photo of her foot in a high heel sandal, and she'd have me naked on camera in minutes.
And she definitely took full advantage of my neediness, letting her fantasies flesh out on me. She convinced me to start keeping my ass clean shaved (I was already shaving my cock and balls regularly), and to start ordering some sex toys online, and using them on myself for her amusement.
In a few months of this I have purchased and used various cuffs, ropes, gags, collars, clamps, spanking implements, buttplugs (assplay never particularly excited me, but she enjoyed watching me debase myself like that), dildos, vibrating toys, and a chastity belt.
She also had me purchase some lingerie, both male and female. She equally enjoyed having me pose in a male thong or lacy garter belt and stockings.
What she particularly liked was messing with me when I went on dates with various girls I tried my luck with. She'd have me wear panties on a date, or write degrading things all over my body under my clothes, or sometimes even go out with a buttplug up my ass. Or she would just meet me right before the date and edge me a couple of times, so I'd go the entire date with an almost permanent boner.
Of course, the dates never went so far that any of this should really matter, but it was a constant reminder that this girl had me under her thumb. Even as I chatted with those girls and put on a confident front, on the inside I always felt humiliated and hopelessly horny.
Then something weird happened. I met a girl online, in the comments under one of Dragana's photos. Her name was Vladana. She also went to the same college as us. She was very shy and skinny, quite the opposite of Dragana. Seeing how I was shy as well, it took quite a while for the conversation between us to kick off, but I needed a break from the crazy girl Dragana was, and Vladana seemed like the perfect alternative.
After chatting online for quite a while, I worked up the courage to ask her out, and she agreed. Despite all the initial friction, I had a really good feeling about this girl, she really seemed like just the girl I needed, and she seemed to be really into me. After this date, I might just have a normal girlfriend.
Then I made a mistake of telling Dragana about it. She said she was really happy for me, but also asked me to meet her right before the date and bring my toy box to "make it more interesting". I told her I probably shouldn't, but at this point she knew exactly how to excite me just enough to do anything. I thought, what the hell, this will probably be one last time, before I settle in a normal relationship.
And I was determined I wouldn't let her do anything that might mess with my date experience this time. If she edged me, I'd just finish myself off before going to the date. If she put something on/in me, I'd just take it off/out. No body writing, or any kind of marking for that matter. I just wouldn't let her do that. I openly told her all of this. She seemed amused, but I steeled myself to be strong this time.
So, an hour before my date with Vladana, I picked up Dragana with my car, and drove, per her instructions, to the nearby hill where people usually went for quick car sex. Usually, but mostly during the summer, and at this time it was winter, so we were the only ones there.
As soon as we got there, she told me to get naked, at this point not even wasting any time on trying to arouse me first, as she knew I was already horny beyond reason. After I did, she told me to get the box with my toys.
The box was in the trunk, and it was snowing outside, but I knew she expected me to not put my clothes back on, so I steeled myself and ran out in the cold butt naked, as she also got out and moved to the back seat.