I lean over the desk and drew in a steadying breath. I am naked, as I should be when being punished or maintained. Today, it's maintained. I need this. I need to know he remembers my place and his place. I need to feel his power.
Once a month we have maintenance. Every month on the 15th. However, either of us has the right - no - the duty to DEMAND maintenance if we feel it is needed. I needed this. So, I texted him my demand two hours earlier. His reply was immediate.
PREPARE. BE READY.
I was not only naked, but showered, shaved - everywhere, my jay-jay douched and my bottom cleaned out, bent over HIS desk with my legs spread wide when HE arrived home.
Before the physical, comes the words and the affirmations.
TELL ME WHO YOU ARE.
i am myself, Sir. i am in control of myself. Still, i offer, freely, you that control. i wish to be owned by you. Your property to do with as you wish.
AND WHAT WILL THIS BRING YOU?
Peace, Sir. contentment, Sir. Purpose, Sir.
WHAT PART OF YOU DO YOU GIVE TO ME?
All of me, Sir.
He growls.
I give you my mouth, my pussy, my ass. I give you my tits, my belly, my legs. I give you my body.
IS THAT ALL?
I give you my will and my power.
NUMBER
This is where I struggle. I can choose between 1 and 10. The higher the number, the stricter the maintenance. He allows me to choose because he trusts me to know what I need.
ten
He is silent. I hear him quietly harrumph and open cabinets in preparation.
BOUND?
yes, please.
I rarely choose ten and cannot be sure I will stay in place. He binds my ankles to the desk and ties my wrists together. He stretches the rope down and attaches it to desk chair.
WHAT IS YOUR SAFEWORD?
shrimp
He begins. Ten will be the number of the day. Whichever implements he chooses, I will receive ten blows with them. Ten lashes with the flogger. Ten blows with the paddle.
COLOR
green
I am sobbing, but my color is still green. Yes, my ass and upper thighs are on fire, but I am beginning to feel more like myself. More like HIS.
Ten stripes with the cane.
COLOR