I suppose the best way to start is by telling a little about me not that there is much to say, Iâm 29 years old, stand five foot ten inches tall and probably just a tad over weight. No I donât work out I find those guys with a six pack quite false and ugly and some of them have bigger boobs than my wife, but then I guess I would say that.
In my early years I was shy and to be honest pretty useless around girls so my virginity seemed to go on forever that was until with the help of a good number of beers I managed to lose it with my current girlfriend. I may have lost my virginity but I obviously didnât impress my girl friend as we broke up quite soon after. But at least at the grand old age of 20 I now knew how to do it just not how to do it that well.
Six months later I met a girl and we dated but as luck would have it she was a virgin and I wasnât prepared to dive in and as she wasnât on the pill we agreed not to even try until she had been on the pill long enough to ensure protection. I couldnât even stand the touch of a condom and after using one once in the throes of passion I put the damn stupid thing on inside out and by the time I had scrabbled around and found another the moment had passed.
Over the next two years we both learnt a lot about our bodies and how to pleasure each other and inevitably we ended up getting married.
I now considered myself a competent lover yet at the age of twenty-two I had only ever been with two different women and was beginning to wonder what I had missed.
Six months after getting married I had an affair, Iâm not sure if it was the chase I enjoyed so much or the actual sex, I just knew that once I had had my wicked way my interest in them dwindled rather rapidly and I would move on to the next one.
I built a reputation amongst my colleagues as being a ladies man and my very close friends would take the piss out of me and call me a slut which in many ways I was. All of my affairs were with married women as I worked on a basis that if they had as much to lose as I did then discretion would be maintained.
Yes I loved my wife and in bed sex was quite good but even so I could not refrain from seeking the touch of a beautiful woman and over the next seven years I had well over a dozen sexual liaisons. Like many things in this life if you continually do something wrong the chances of being caught increase and stupidly I was tempted by a single woman and ended up in her bed. Because of the convenience of her being single and owning her own flat our affair continued longer than it was wise to do so. When I tried to end it she threatened to tell my wife, she told me how much she loved me and wasnât prepared to let me go that easy, so it eventually ended on a very sour note.
I fretted for weeks after that she would make good her promise and every time the phone rang I got butterflies in my stomach with fear that it was her.
Each morning I received a text message from her telling me of her undying love for me, I now knew I was being haunted by a bunny boiler and needed a way to get her off my back.
As I sat at my computer I thought the only way to get rid of her was by being as horrible as possible, so I fired up Microsoft Word and began composing a letter to her.
The letter read as follows;
My Dearest Pauline,
Sorry it has taken me awhile to send you a letter, things have been hectic and the wife has been on holiday so I havenât had much time for letter writing.
Moving onto the sex part, which you know I can never resist, being a sex mad pervert, nice pervert but wacky and weird.
You said that when it comes to sexual matters you are pretty straight and to be honest you do need to relax with sex and enjoy it. Very often I think about the way you use to play with my cock and balls and it was never very gentle but it was extremely good. Sometimes my balls or cock or even both would ache for days and be a constant reminder of what a devil you are with your hands. When it came to sucking my cock, I used to love the feel of your lips running up and down the length and the pleasure was doubled when I was able to slip my finger into your cunt and play with you at the same time.
You must learn to free your mind and let yourself free your thoughts and desires, when you open your legs also open your mind.
You are a lovely lady, enjoy your sexuality, do not be afraid of having pleasure and giving pleasure. We all have fantasies, they consist of fantasies of love and also fantasies of lust, both are good, embrace them do not be afraid of them. If you said to me how about fucking me, my cunt needs a good seeing too, I need your cock deep inside me, it sounds disgusting to some yet it is not, it is erotic and arousing.
You may think that by saying things like this it makes you a slut, but that is only in your mind, in the bedroom it is raw sex and then the pleasure of relaxing in each others arms once two people are exhausted.
What is a fantasy, it is something that turns you on just by thinking about it, some women have a rape fantasy or a bondage fantasy or even a fantasy where they are gang banged by a group of men or even sex with a woman. But it doesnât mean that they want it to happen it is just a dream that stimulates the mind and sometimes they will playact that fantasy with a partner, there is nothing wrong with that.
I fantasise a great deal, but often that fantasy includes you, sometimes I lay in bed remembering how you squeezed my cock and balls. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to fuck you up the arse or have you fuck me up the arse with a strap on or vibrator, or even just doing 69, the thought of my tongue licking your cunt while you suck on my cock is delightful. Being tied up and punished turns me on and even tying you up and punishing you is pretty erotic thought.
So you see I have no problem telling you my fantasies except I would like to really try some of them if not all of them.
I sometimes think of what sort of person I would want to live with if something happened to my wife.
She would have to be prepared to have threesomes with me and another man and also me and another woman and be prepared to be as kinky as I am otherwise whatâs the point of getting into another situation that would have been as boring as before.
Now I would be very amazed if you never had a sexual fantasy, so be brave and tell me what it is, release yourself from your inhibitions and set yourself free, be bad be real bad let it all out.
Each morning when you look at yourself in the mirror say to yourself, I am a sexy lady, I love sex and my mind is free.
So if you are now not totally pissed off at me, write to me and set yourself free, itâll make you feel good, or is that bad good.
The letter had the desired effect, the text messages stopped and I heard nothing from her, yes what I wrote was all rubbish and they were not really my fantasies just a means to make her forget me.
The months passed and over time I forgot all about Pauline and I even stopped having affairs, the last experience had made me realise that I had too much to risk and it wasnât worth the headache. Life continued and my thirtieth birthday was on the horizon and if past years were anything to go by I could expect once again an unusual present from my wife.
I arrived home just after 6pm on Friday evening and was surprised to find the house empty except for a note stuck to the television, it said âhappy birthday my darling, I shall be home shortly, have a shower and wait for me naked on the bed.â
I smiled inwardly, these were the type of birthday surprises I liked so I dashed up stairs to the shower and within twenty minutes I lay sprawled naked and ready on the bed. In the silence around me with the only noise being the ticking of the clock I dozed off. When I awoke Susan was standing above me, I attempted to get up but found that I had been secured to the four corners of the bed. Shaking the sleep from my brain I blew her a kiss, she moved closer and taking me totally by surprise she slapped me around the face with venom in her eyes that I had never seen before.
âI think you have something to tell me,â she said bitterly as she withdrew a sheet of paper from her pocket.
I couldnât reply, as I didnât have a clue what she was going on about.
âCat got your tongue,â she spat out.
I still didnât know what to say how could I answer her when it could be one of many indiscretions I had perpetrated over the years.
âIâll read it to you shall I,â she barked out, her anger very evident.
To my shock she read out the letter I had sent to Pauline, I could explain why I had wrote it but it wouldnât have got me off the hook because how could I excuse having the affair in the first place.