I was nervous.
I'd never done anything like this before.
For as long as I could remember, there was always a secret hidden desire, deep within me, to submit to a strong woman. But it had mostly been subconscious. Or suppressed. And I'd never felt brave enough or trusted enough to really let go.
Yes. I'm a bit of a control freak. This was not an easy thing for me to do.
But after many years, and a couple of 'wake up calls' on how short life can be, I decided to finally dip my toes into the water.
We had chatted for ages. I felt comfortable with her. Meetings over coffee were always friendly and left me wanting to see her more. We danced around the edges of sexuality and kink. Never delving too far. More getting to know each other.
But now, I was going to dive in.
She's invited me to her place and I knew it wasn't just for coffee.
But I wanted to please her. No. More than that. I'd do anything to make her happy. That surprised me. That realization. And for a second I felt scared at what that might mean. And then I realized how hard I was. Throbbing inside my tight jeans.
I knocked in the door and waited. There was no answer. I questioned myself. Maybe I had the wrong time. Or place. About to knock again, the door opened. And she sold there. Resplendent. My heart fluttered and my stomach rolled. I knew my resistance would be low. So not like me. What was happening?
I blushed and she raised her eyebrow and stepped aside to let me in. Locking the door behind me, she lay a hand on my arm and led me inside.
I was taken straight to the bedroom.
Ok. So no small talk today I thought. She had a look in her eyes. Hungry. I licked my lips. My mouth going dry. "Undress" she said.
I couldn't move. I felt like a deer in the headlights.
"Take your clothes off" she reinforced. I started to shed my clothes. Anxious at first. Looking at her for approval, guidance, I don't know what. But I kept going. Until I was naked. Completely exposed in front of her.
She walked around me. Taking me in. Touching. Pinching. My erection grew in front of her. She gave me a slap on the bottom "very nice, but you're not here to please yourself!" I blushed again.
"On to the bed!" She ordered.
I lay down and she very efficiently bound me there. Wrists and ankles. I couldn't move. All hope of maintaining and control was gone now.
"So, you've been flirting and teasing me for some time now. It's time to pay up".
She climbed over me. Her warm body rubbing up against me. OMG. I was so close to her.
Before I realized it, I murmured "what can I do for you?"
"Shhhhh" she said. "Don't speak"