Locktober Journal

October 1

Jim wants to try this Locktober thing where he wears the chastity device for the entire month. I think he's crazy. The longest he's been in that contraption is two days, and by then he was climbing the walls. Doing that again might be fun, the sex afterwards was certainly memorable. But a whole month is ridiculous. Jim was certain that he wants to do it, so he crammed himself in the device and handed me the key. I'm sure he'll change his mind in a few days, but he insisted that I should ignore anything he says and make him wait the entire month.

I told him I didn't want to go a month without sex, and he said we could still do other stuff and I could have as many orgasms as I wanted. That's not really a solution. I like sharing that pleasure with Jim, I don't want it to be just for myself. My libido isn't nearly as strong as Jim's, so maybe I'll just wait as well.

October 3

Last night, when we were lying in bed, I cuddled up to Jim and we started kissing. It's been so long since we just kissed. For Jim, kissing is just a prelude to sex, but with him locked up kissing was just kissing, and I loved it. I'm so happy this morning! I can't wait to welcome Jim home with a kiss this evening. Maybe we'll make out a little before dinner.

October 6

For the last few days we've been making out all the time. It feels like we're teenagers again, sneaking in a few minutes of passion whenever we can. It's wonderful. It's also become a habit to cuddle and make out for several minutes at bed time. I fall asleep with a smile on my face.

This morning, Jim joined me in the shower. Washing each other was fun, though it definitely had Jim straining in his cage. I've been ignoring my own growing horniness, but his hands felt so wonderful on my body that I could hold out no longer. He had just finished washing my front, spending an inordinate amount of time on my pussy while he nibbled my neck. I leaned back against the cool tile wall and pushed his head lower. He kissed his way down my body, teasing my taut nipples with his tongue, and making my stomach quiver.

Finally he reached his goal. I pulled his face to my pussy, his tongue explored between my lips and found my aching clit. He swirled his tongue around it, and before I knew it my body was in the grip of ecstasy.

I felt bad that I could not return the favor. I would have loved to touch him, suck him, or best of all have him deep inside me. But his cock is trapped in that cage. I feel guilty having enjoyed the shower so much when Jim was left wanting. But I really needed that orgasm more than I realized. I feel so much lighter now.

October 9

A couple days ago I unlocked Jim for a few minutes so he could wash everything very thoroughly. Afterwards he asked if I would touch him a little before locking him back up. I said no, and he complained. I reminded him this was all his idea in the first place and locked him back up anyway. Since then he says he keeps asking to be unlocked for even just a minute or two of touching. He says it would still count as Locktober since he wouldn't have an orgasm and would go right back in the cage.

I don't know the rules of "Locktober". But I know what he asked me to do, which was to keep him locked for the entire month no matter what he said. So I'm sticking to that, but the constant pestering has become annoying. I asked him to stop, and he says he can't help it and keeps forgetting. I asked him if how we could help him remember better and he playfully suggested a spanking. I think the constant whining must have gotten the better of me because I actually took him up on the idea.

It was very strange having Jim sprawled across my lap, his pants around his ankles with his bare butt exposed. It was difficult to actually spank him. I felt myself holding back, not really wanting to hurt him. In the end they were more playful swats than anything else. But maybe it worked. He was definitely quieter afterwards and didn't say a word about being unlocked.

October 10

Jim gave me a wonderful massage today. He caressed every part of my body from head to toe and I've never felt more relaxed. Afterwards he even thanked me for letting him see and touch my naked body! We started kissing, which was wonderful, and our hands roamed over one another. I still feel guilty about last week's shower, and I have been trying to ignore my own needs. But that was getting more and more difficult as his hands caressed and explored me.

I gave in to desire and told him what I needed. He licked me to three orgasms. The first was sudden and spectacular, the other two more sublime. Afterwards we cuddled for a while in blissfully contentedness, at least for me. Just like after the massage, he thanked me for letting him pleasure me. It sounded sincere, perhaps he is truly enjoying it.

I am going to have to let go of the guilt over this being so one-sided. Jim is the one that wanted to be denied for the entire month, not I. So I will continue to give him exactly what he asked for. It's only proper that he give me what I desire in return.

October 12

Jim has been pestering me again about unlocking him. I let the first couple times slide, but then I became really annoyed and told him he earned another spanking. This time I used a ping pong paddle, which was a lot easier on my hand. I wasn't as hesitant this second time, and his butt was nicely reddened by the time I was finished. By his demeanor afterwards, I feel this had a bigger impact than the first time.

October 14

I unlocked Jim for his weekly cleaning. The spanking from a couple days ago must have worked because there wasn't a single complaint as I locked him back up. In fact, afterwards he thanked me and asked very politely if he could rub my feet. I'm never going to say no to that!

October 20

My feet are getting a lot of attention this week. It just sort of became a thing whenever we watched Netflix. He sat down at my feet and rubbed them during the show. I didn't have to ask or anything, he just did it. It's wonderfully relaxing.

He is constantly doting on me, always making sure I'm comfortable and getting me anything I need. Being the focus of so much attention makes me feel very loved. I think it's also making me hornier than usual. Our bed time make out sessions often end with his head between my thighs, licking me to a delightful orgasm. I don't think I've wanted it this often since our honeymoon.

I still wish he could share in the pleasure, but I'm no longer feeling guilty about it. Jim appears genuinely happy serving me, and after all it's exactly what he asked for back when we started this crazy experiment.

October 24

Jim was having a very hard time. I don't know what was different about today, to make it so different from the last few days. Perhaps it has been building all month and today was his breaking point. He was practically in tears, begging me to unlock him and let him have an erection. Nothing more, just an erection.

I was torn. The last week or so has been bliss. Jim is a completely different person, loving and attentive in a way I've never seen before. If this is the effect of being locked up, then I don't want to break the spell. Plus, I'm just doing what he asked for. This is what he wanted, and even when I told him he'd probably regret it and change his mind, he insisted that I should keep him locked "no matter what". A little "I told you so" has never felt sweeter.

But I hate to see him in such distress. I asked if there was something I could do to make him feel better, aside from unlocking him. He thought it might be nice if I caressed his cock through the cage. That seemed like a very reasonable request, but there was still the matter of him asking to be unlocked, which had to be dealt with first.

I used the paddle again to spank him, though I went a little easier than the last time. I didn't need to make that strong a point. He had been at his wit's end and I wasn't upset that he'd asked about unlocking, I just wanted to make sure this didn't become a habit.

Afterwards we laid on our sides, facing one another and kissing. My hand traced its way down his body, feeling his cock bulging between the steel bars of its cage. I rubbed the tip, already slick with precum, and Jim moaned in response. I continued to explore and discovered there were quite a few ways to give him pleasure while he remained locked. I think his favorite was when I cupped his balls with one hand and teased his nipple with the other. I gently squeezed his balls while pinching his nipple, relaxed for a moment, and then repeated. A couple minutes of that treatment had him writhing and moaning. I think might have exploded if I hadn't stopped right then. Jim thanked me profusely and said he felt much better.

October 31

It's the last day of Locktober. Tomorrow, I will unlock Jim and we will celebrate. I can't wait to have him inside me. Though my orgasms have been an embarrassment of riches this month, nothing quite compares to the feeling of Jim filling me up.

Even so, I'm a little sad that it's over. Though the start was a little bumpy, the last half of the month was amazing. I'm going to miss all of the kissing and cuddling. The foot rubs and back massages. The attentive husband doting on me. I wish things could stay like this. Perhaps after we celebrate, Jim will let me lock him up again.