Lockdown had been tough. I think that like everyone, in the first few weeks, I went through the same nervous energy, the excitement, the newness that everyone did. But after the first two months, that started to fade, and the reality of being shut into a relatively small two-bed flat -- admittedly, with the state-permitted exercise and shopping permitted -- started to sink in.
There's only so many local walks you can do, and I really started to crave anything different. I suppose I was lucky that I could work from home, I had a job and I was healthy, because so many people weren't -- but it was still hard.
I think my flatmate felt it too. Rachel had also gone through the yoga / baking / zoom drinks phases and we were both pretty bored of them.
Also, and this probably sounds terrible, but being locked up with an attractive woman, who has always been off-limits, started to make me pretty horny. Neither of us were in serious relationships, but I'd always thought it was a terrible idea to get involved with a flatmate, even if she was funny, interesting, and actually, just a really great flatmate.
But the desire for the forbidden started to creep in. Most of the time I suppressed it, but when your flatmate is wandering around in leggings after a yoga session ... well, it's hard, you know.
Then we got drunk.
And obviously, we'd been drunk before -- actually quite a lot, but for some reason this night felt different.
Anyway, a bottle of wine and a few shots later, we're looking through Netflix and 50 Shades comes up. There's an awkward pause and Rachel looks at me.
"I always figured fifty shades had it wrong," she says, slurring slightly. "Why couldn't they both just explore bondage and get over themselves?"
"Totally," I laugh. "Grey is so serious. Couldn't they just have some fun?"
There was a pause.
"Hey Ben," she says, giving me a look. "Do you want to have some fun?"
I swallow, hard. "What did you have in mind?" I manage.
"Let's keep it interesting," she says. "Flip a coin. Whoever wins gets to ... indulge themselves. Only, the other person can stop it all at any time -- but if they stop more than twice in a row, then we can it. No hard feelings, it just wasn't for us. What happens in lockdown, stays in lockdown."
Damn. I look Rachel up and down, feeling a surge of uncomfortable arousal. I hope I haven't got the wrong idea about all this.
"Sure," I say. "Let's do it."
She gives me a wicked grin and pulls out a coin. "You flip."
I flip it, and ask her to call. "Heads," she says.
I take my hand away and show heads, feeling a slightly sick feeling of anticipation -- or maybe it's just lust -- curling through my body.
"You're on," I say, wondering what she has in mind -- and if I'm honest, kind of relieved that I didn't have to go first.
"Great," she says, pulling out a small bag and pushing it across the table to me. "Trial by fire. Go to your room and come back wearing this. Only this, mind you."
Confused, I take it and go into my bedroom, wondering how long she's been thinking about this for. I stumble slightly, tipping the bag out onto the bed. There's a slightly confusing set of metal rings, a small combination lock and ... some kind of tube falls out. I have ...
Oh, wait.
Shit.
It's some kind of cock ring. No, a chastity thing. Like, when I put it on, my dick will be stuck in the tube.
What the fuck?
I swallow again, and think hard; I don't want to fall at the first hurdle.
I strip, thinking that we might as well play this out, but once I'm naked I feel incredibly exposed and vulnerable -- which is stupid, because right now I'm just in my room, alone.
But what's on the other side...
I try to stop thinking. Awkwardly, I put one of the rings behind my balls, pulling them through, then push the little rods through.
I can't get my dick in the tube though; all of this messing around has made me a bit hard. Shit.
I wait and take a drink of water. Am I starting to sober up a bit? I kind of hope not. I think about politics, work, anything serious, and after a few moments, it works. I slide the cage over my dick, then push the rods through. There's a small hole in one of them that I slide the lock onto, pausing.
It's a weird feeling; all I can really feel is my cock, in the cage. It's pressing against it, but I ... I can't get hard.
Fuck -- if I lock this, I won't be able to get hard until it's unlocked. And I don't know the combination.
I scour the bag for a fragment of paper, but there's nothing there. Shit ... I guess that's the game? What the fuck -- I was kind of expecting ... hoping ... for a drunken shag, but this is ... well, it's a bit more.
Fine. Fuck it.
Better not fail this before we get started, I think, and before I can think about this too much, I click the lock shut.
Leaving my bedroom has to be one of the hardest things I've ever done.
No, that's not true. Opening the door back to the lounge is.
I steel myself and push through, feeling the pile of the carpet underneath my bare feet.
I wait for Rach to laugh, to smirk, but when I step through, she looks me up and down hungrily instead.
"Very good," she purrs. "I almost thought you wouldn't be game. I expect you're wondering what the combination is."
I nod, feeling completely exposed and vulnerable. I'm not sure what I was expecting from tonight, but this ... this isn't it.
"Well," she says. "The combination to the lock isn't the combination that you're doing to earn. If you behave, you'll get four numbers from me, and that will open the new lockbox in the hall downstairs. That box in turn will contain the combination for the lock. So you'd better behave!"
I swallow, hard, and my heart sinks a little. The manager of our apartment block fitted the lockboxes and then went away to his country home. I don't know how to reach him, and although I suppose I could try and saw through the pins to the cage, I don't have any tools here. I'd have to wait until tomorrow.
Plus, you know, who knows where this'll go.
So I guess I'd better play.
I nod and Rachel grins.
"Good," she says. "Now, I was actually quite naughty and wrote one number down on a piece of paper and put it underneath the doormat of the flat upstairs. You can go and get it, sure, but if you wear these as well, I'll tell you whether it's the first, second, third or fourth number."
She reaches down again and brings out what looks like a lacy thong.
I swallow, hard, and take it, stepping into it and pulling it up, barely covering my cock. The thong bit slides up my ass uncomfortably, and I realise that I must look completely ridiculous.
"Excellent," she purrs again.
Feeling incredibly vulnerable, I open the front door to the flat and peek out.
"Tick tock," Rachel says, grinning, waving me out.
Fuck. Hearing nothing, I take a nervous step out into the hallway. It's brightly lit and quiet, but it's cold, and I'm in a pair of panties and a dick cage -- that's more than enough to get me in a big amount of trouble. I glance around and silently pad up the stairs to the next floor.
There's two doors on each floor, but one of them doesn't have a doormat. Trembling and listening hard, I pick up the doormat and peer underneath. Fuck. There's nothing here. What the fuck am I going to do? I look at the mat to check whether it's got stuck somewhere, but no, there's nothing.
Shit. I almost run straight back downstairs, but then realise -- Rach didn't say which flat upstairs. There's two more floors above.
I run up to the next floor, almost pissing myself as I hear TV coming from inside one of the flats. There's a light on, and the flat door has opaque glass in it. They can't see me, but they could probably see that there is something moving around out here.
Hurriedly, I pick up the next mat -- nothing.
I hear voices from one of the flats; I really, really don't want to get caught, feeling incredibly awkward right now. What would I even say? How do you even start to explain something like this?
I pull up the next mat and a slip of paper flies out from underneath, floating down the stairs. Shit! I put the mat down and almost trip down the stairs, barely catching myself on the handrail. Thankfully, the slip is just lying on the floor outside the first flat I tried, and I pick it up, seeing that it's got the number nine on it. Phew. One down...
Shivering almost uncontrollably -- although it's not really that cold -- I go down another floor to our flat and find the door shut. My pulse skyrockets as I bend down and call Rachel's name softly.
"Rachel? Rachel, please let me in."
I hear slow footsteps coming over to the door.
"Did you get the number?" she says slowly.
"I did," I manage, hopping from foot to foot, suddenly really need a piss.